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[donewithit]

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well I made it thru the night without him. Can't say it was easy. Tonight will be even harder as I have an appt with my councellor at 7pm.

[Guest]

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I'm wishing all the best for you! My world is falling apart, husband giving me alcohol to drink, so against our 'norm'. So proud of you!
Take care dear heart.

[Wally22]

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hey donewithit, hope your session with the counsellor goes well. Remember to take care of yourself. Oh and yes I am a woman, 55 years old, my avatar is my little dog Zippy.
Saving Grace, what's up with your husband? Is giving you alcohol, really such a good idea?

[88Katie88]

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cant seem to stop for more than 2 days-hate myself-it is getting worse for past 3 years-not many people know, but i think my boss knows more than i think, well, my breath must stink. i disgust myself. i am not what i should be-its been over and over-trying and trying, dont know what to do-please- i need to stop this shit-i need help-so much

[Lavande]

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Donewithit, Saving Grace and 88katie,

You all need some serious (((HUGS)))! Hope you get these!!

Donewithit, I highly value some quality alone time, really. My husband of 35 years left for 2 months this past winter - we just couldn't stand each other at that point. I calmed down, got my act together, quit drinking and he's back. He is still my main trigger and he knows it but is reluctant to change. So, when he starts getting on my nerves I just give him 'the look' and he knows to get out of my way

Saving Grace, like Wally, I'm a 55 year old female and I think you need to exert some attitude on that husband. What the hell is he doing to you? If you need some help kickin butt please just PM me!

88Katie, we need to get you started hon. Have you read the book and made your plan? What's keeping you from getting more than 2 days under your belt? Please feel free to join us on the 'Newbies Nest' thread. There's lots of folks there that have conquered that problem.

Sosad, it's great to hear the male perspective too. Congrats on your progress. I think you're right, men don't like to admit their problems...........believe me, I know that. Women do tend to gather together and share, good or bad. We believe in comfort & safety in numbers.

That's my .02
Lav

[zbeam]

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88Kat

88Katie88;696560 wrote: cant seem to stop for more than 2 days-hate myself-it is getting worse for past 3 years-not many people know, but i think my boss knows more than i think, well, my breath must stink. i disgust myself. i am not what i should be-its been over and over-trying and trying, dont know what to do-please- i need to stop this shit-i need help-so much

Hi 88Katie, I know exactly how you feel, I just lasted 3 days and caved. What ever you do, don't stop coming here and reading the great messages, it really gives you hope, and don't beat up on yourself, recognise that because you can see the problem, it is the first step to making yourself well. Lots of info here, have you tried the meds yet, i'm going to start the Bac soon, will let you know how I go. Take care :h

[Elpis]

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sosad61;696001 wrote: Off topic, but it appears to me the vast majority of the people on these forums are women. I'm a guy, and was always under the impression it was mostly guys with the alcohol problems. It's probably true still because us guys don't like to admit it when we have a problem.

Funny, as a fellow guy, I was thinking the same thing - that there were a lot of girls on this site. I, too, always thought of alcoholism as a male-dominated sport but I see now that big AL is an equal opportunity demon. Maybe girls are so well represented here because girls are (?) better at the chatty stuff, the social networking, the nurturing, and so forth.

Maybe it's the way we communicate, as the following illustrates:

Guy (insert Brooklyn accent): Hey, youz guy, what’s up? Youz gotta problem drinking? Herz wat you do aboudit: ……

Girl (insert Betty Rubble voice here): You have a problem with drinking? Oh tell me all about it….

Forgive any stereotypes; you know we guys are all alike ;-)

E-

[livedit]

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I am a guy

sosad61;696001 wrote: Off topic, but it appears to me the vast majority of the people on these forums are women. I'm a guy, and was always under the impression it was mostly guys with the alcohol problems. It's probably true still because us guys don't like to admit it when we have a problem.

You're not alone. I do like the women's perspective too. Chat seems to have a few more guys usually.

[openheart]

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Dear Katie,
It takes courage to reach out for help, and you have shown how brave you are by doing that. That in itself is a giant leap--good for you, girl!

It is clear you are in a really painful place right now, I am so sorry, my friend.

Please know that you are not alone in this struggle and others have tried and stumbled and tried and stumbled, but have eventually made it out and become free. Each time you have fallen, you have become stronger and have earned a deeper understanding of your needs and a more clear vision of your path.

I was like you in that I felt like I would never get out of the cycle, but the turning point for me was finding this support system. Realizing that I wasn't alone, that others understood, that others had made it out. I think most of us can say there were many years that we weren't sure it could ever be different. That we couldn't trust ourselves to be any different. But, with one foot in front of the other, and taking advantage of any help that comes along, it can be very different.

Keep reading the stories here--I'm sure you will find some very close to your own story--like I did. Keep posting and reaching out--download the MWO book--check into the supplements and/or meds and see if it would be a good fit for you--order the CD's if you can.

My lack of confidence in my ability to change was what held me back all those years--but the tools and support system here helped build that confidence. And now after trying and caving, etc...I am now looking forward to Day 3 AF. I know in my heart it is different this time. Come join us!

Sending you a cozy blanket to wrap around you to keep you warm and safe.:h

[Celtic Woman]

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I have this wonderful image of you returning home with full best make-up and gloriously luxurious locks cascading down your back and he standing waiting for the old you!

Do let us know how it goes and good luck!

Celtic

[jsaw2001]

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