42yr old perth australia needs help

[Mackeral]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Paddy, i was you 3 months back, drinking 2 bottles of vodka a day,and scared shitless i was gonna die. Just know that you CAN do it. People can help, medicine can help but nobody is gonna do it for you, that is what you finally realise. See your Doctor, tell him everything and if you can get in a rehab do it.
I really feel for you Paddy, i hope you get the help you need mate.

[RedThread12]

42yr old perth australia needs help

I know all those feelings, Paddy.

My heart goes out to you from the middle of the U.S. I just looked at the International Clock and see that it's tomorrow (Sunday) morning for you. What do you need? It is SO HARD to stop the cycle and there are so many of us here that have been where you are. Do you have any inspirational books or books on tape? I know that in some of my early, early days I just read my AA Big Book over and over and over. I'm not attending AA meetings these days, but there was a time when they really helped. You can always call the local AA central service and talk to someone . . . even find out where meetings are that you might consider going to . . . someday, if not today.

You will get well, I know you can. I know how the mind keeps insisting that it's not possible, but tell those morbid thoughts to f*** off! (hope that doesn't offend!) Hug yourself, cry, read these forums, and then read them some more . . . you are exactly describing what many of us have been through, and truly, this will pass. It will!

Everything does, actually! But that opens up a whole different topic and right now I just want to give you lots of support and encouragement to get through this day. Hang in there.

[Mackeral]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Also i find a relaxation cd helps. MWO does a really good one but there are loads out there, i got one off my doctor aswell. They tend to put me in a different world for a while, helps take your mind off the beer for a little bit at least.

[peacenik]

42yr old perth australia needs help

paddy, hug that kitty and don't let go!
these terrible feelings will pass. it does take time, but they will pass. it is your body accutely withdrawing and detoxing...not to mentuion hanging over!

get to a meeting today if you can and do whatever it takes to not drink. come here, talk to us...we will support you, just don't drink. the longer you go without, the better you will feel.

hang in there!

[byebyebridgetjones]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Hey Paddy,
I hope you check in again soon, and find these posts and realise that there are people out here who DO give a shit.
Why don't you come and have a word on the NEXT DAY THREAD. Mostly Aussies, and a few other eccentric folk.
The kindliest bunch of shit-stirrers you've never met :H:H:H
We can help you.
Bridget X

[saintpaddy19]

42yr old perth australia needs help

I finally went to the doctor yesterday and told her to change all the notes she has taken on me over the last few years about only a six pack a day. i told her everything. I have had a very bad week physically. I have not had a drink since tuesday it is friday now and i have no intention of having one today. She put me on somac yesterday because she thinks i am bleeding a bit inside and today i had revia for the first time. it is a little scary but nothing is as scary as i have felt the last few weeks. when i got to her yesterday my temp was 40degrees bp 160/96 they did an ecg and made me stay in the surgery for 2 hours. if it didn't drop she was putting me into hospital. after all the years i really believe i have gone one step too far and i hope it aint too late. at the moment it hurts to even get water down my throat she said it is probably to do with reflux and acid buildup etc etc. i go back next tuesday, if not better then they are looking down my throat. i dont know what the revia will do to me but its got to be for the best. she said straight out after our chat she really believes if i keep going the way i have been going there wont be any coming back. i dont have the greatest life but i don't want to die either. its going to be a tough weekend but i actually feel some strength after the chat with the doc yesterday. i have the lost symbol and that is my goal this weekend to finish it and not drink.

[Opal]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Good on you Paddy for fessing up with the Doc, they really are there to help. Keep coming here, reading and posting, it does help. The support and advice from here really does make a difference. Hope to see a lot of yu over the weekend, good luck Paddy.

[JackieClaire]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Well done Paddy for facing this thing head on.

It's great to have the doctor fighting in your corner.

Wishing you strengthen.

[Guitarista]

42yr old perth australia needs help

G'day Paddy,
Good stuff on seeing your doc. From what you say, i suspect there may not be any coming back if you continue to drink. Problem drinking is a progressive thing/affliction/disease, whatever we call it. It just get's worse if we continue, not better by itself.
You sound like you're ready to take this on. Good on you. You can do it.
If you feel comfortable, check in on the 'Next day thread' tonight, and throughout the weekend, if you think it might help. I think it will, and you would be welcomed with open arm's by lot's of Aussies in your time zone.
Keep up with the water as best you can, and a bit to eat if you can.
Have you read the 'toolbox' thread yet? It's in 'monthly abstinence' section, and essential reading for you now.

Take care..........G-Force.

[saintpaddy19]

42yr old perth australia needs help

its mid sunday afternoon perth time. i am sober day 3 of the revia and the somac. i know how long my road is but im on it and im grateful to be given a chance to have another go. when i sleep tonight it will be 5 af days. have spent most of the weekend on the couch. its safe there for now. im still hurting in my chest. i was wondering if anyone else remembers this. on thursday doc gave me the somac for my stomach to stop the acid buildup cause of some bleeding etc cause of the grog.since tuesday like i said earlier even swallowing water really hurts. i rang her yesterday she said to get some mylanta. so today is still no different to last tuesday which worries me a bit. i know ive bashed my body up but i was hoping for a little relief by now cause i really have eaten very little. i am down to see her tuesday arvo. i hope she has another plan. has anyone else had this feeling? its like constant heartburn. i am being positive that its sticking on a bit so i will remember this feeling when that monkey comes knocking again 1 day saying how well i am and it will be ok to have just one. IT WONT EVER BE OK TO HAVE JUST ONE. i bloody know that. the revia makes me very tired. back to the couch.

[Miss Behaving]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Paddy, I'm so happy for you that you made it through the weekend!!!

I support Mr G's suggestion of popping over to the next Day Thread. I love this whole MWO place, but I really like having a thread with people in my own time zone. Some times when I'm not feeling very strong (usually early evening) it helps to have others who are in the same head space and not getting up in the morning, or half way through the afternoon of the day before!!

I've also today started a No-Bender thread (IN General Discussion) to committ to a completely AF month and there are a couple of other Aussies on there too ..... in fact with your head start on us you will be the soberest one there!!!

Thinking of you mate - hang on in there. :l

[Jandal]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Hi StPaddy19
Hang in there mate. I think for most of us we have to hit that physical wall of pain and injury and then realise we are causing our own self destruction which scares us into taking better care of ourselves. And if that means we gotta stop drinking, so be it. At our age it doesn't get any easier so with whatever dramas we have to face we have to find another out than sinking into that black hole of booze. Ramble all you want here - let us know how you're doing. We all understand, and we do care.

By the way, I think the lack of food is contributing towards your heartburn - your stomach acid doesn't know what to do with itself. Try eating some bread or some other soft carby-based food, like pasta (no tomato sauce) or rice. Keep right away from any spicy and/or acidy sauces. Milk and yogurt with acidophilus is good too. If bread is too hard to swallow as is, soak it in a little warm milk and eat it that way.
Cheers
Jandal.

[Stump]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Hi Paddy
I am also from Oz i wish you the best of luck and prayers that you will be able to come through.I have come to this place only in the last few days and already have received so much support.Keep posted!!

[cuckoosnest83]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Saintpaddy, I'm glad you are under your doc's care and I hope you are feeling better soon. Congratulations on staying AF over the weekend.

[chopper]

42yr old perth australia needs help

Hi Paddy, I am in Australia too. NSW. On day 9 today. Hope you are well. Am finding it very tough, too.
Chopper.