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[sunshine_gg]

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SK, I'm so sorry you are having to go through this... Lozzy, too :l I do agree with some of the previous thoughts here... something ain't right about your blackout.

As for casting a stone... nope, not me, that's for sure. While I may not ever have been completely plastered (I hope), there were undoubtedly times, where I drove while over the legal limit. As zenny said... we just didn't get caught.

I can't remember who said "This place is going to hell" - naww.. try not to place too much importance on a dick or two. I've been a member now for about a year, and there have been a number of smaller and larger scale squabbles (a full moon always seems to deliver great entertainment value) - this doesn't take away from the overall support and comfort this community gives to newbies and oldies alike. For every nasty person, I can usually count 20 wonderful, warm, and caring people - so no, this place most certainly is not going to hell

[mario]

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sunshine_gg;774849 wrote: SK, I'm so sorry you are having to go through this... Lozzy, too :l I do agree with some of the previous thoughts here... something ain't right about your blackout.

As for casting a stone... nope, not me, that's for sure. While I may not ever have been completely plastered (I hope), there were undoubtedly times, where I drove while over the legal limit. As zenny said... we just didn't get caught.

I can't remember who said "This place is going to hell" - naww.. try not to place too much importance on a dick or two. I've been a member now for about a year, and there have been a number of smaller and larger scale squabbles (a full moon always seems to deliver great entertainment value) - this doesn't take away from the overall support and comfort this community gives to newbies and oldies alike. For every nasty person, I can usually count 20 wonderful, warm, and caring people - so no, this place most certainly is not going to hell

well said gg

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Skendal & Lozzy I also am not perfect and have made many mistakes/bad decisions in my life. I try to learn from these and grow as a person, hopefully into a better one. I have also driven a few times while under the infuence and I regret it. I will do all in my power to make sure it never ever happens again. TG I was one of the lucky ones who got away scot free but that doesnt make me any different to anybody else who has had a different outcome. Some of them have killed themselves and worse still there are the innocent victims of these people. Try and put it behind you as the outcome could have been much much worse and learn from it.
I have to say I am saddened by the cruel posts on this thread. To the people doing this I say to take a deep look inside and see how perfect you are. How dare you pass judgement on others, what gives you that right?
Just how that bile helps anyone is beyond me, surely with AL we have enough to contend with, without bickering here. After all this is a sanctuary to many of us. Please desist from this behavour as I doubt anyone wants to read it.

[beautifulred]

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SKendall

I don't know what happened to you either...perhaps meds, something in your drink, who knows...but I do empathize with your situation and wish you the very best.

No one on this site, I dare say, or even the general public (non AL conflicted) has ever driven without being under the influence of some mind altering substance....be it AL, anti depressants, caffine, anger, rage, old age, pain killers, etc......

Those that have posted their anger against you are in denial..either about themselves or a loved one.

I have been here for quite some time with a few different names (due to divorce)....am I cured? Absolutely not...have I admitted there is a problem? Absolutely and do I have a plan...yes, finally....WHY...because of the site.

Please do not listen to the clanging din of those who have either no problem with our vice and pretent to or have an even bigger problem than we do and refuse to acknowlege it.

I wish you the best and please do not listen to the obvious "planted" crap that can unfortunatately find its way into a life line as this site ..

I wish you the very best.

Teri

[Prest4time]

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Hey SK.. how are things going?

And to anyone else, especialy Savon, my posts wre only to Kimber. I hope they did not convey as to all.

Much love to all,
P4T

[eustacia]

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Hilary,

I doubt that you remember me but I wanted to add my voice to the chorus. Stay strong. There will be an end to this terrible episode in your life. The sun will shine again. And so will you.

:heart: E (Eustacia)

[Starlight Impress Forever]

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Hilary,
Not been around for a few days, so only just read this.

I`d just like to say that I think very highly of you..........this mess in which you find yourself does not in any way reflect upon whom or what you are. You are good and true, and as such, I hope and pray that this soon all becomes nothing but a bad memory.

Noone is infallible.........we are all human and so make mistakes, sometimes, as in your case, unwittingly.

Thinking of you. :l

Star x

[Chief]

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Just seeing this myself....

I'm so sorry Hilary. I'm glad noone was hurt.

I'm agree with Star and Hart...

Hang in there and try to work through this logically. I know it's alot on your plate during the holidays, but take it ODAT....we'll be here for you.

Don

[SKendall]

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Thank you all for your support. I will be attending AA meetings for a while, this issue is bigger than me.

Kimber is Gia and has many problems of her own, but I won't attack her. I am so full of shame and disgust, it's overwhelming. I started cutting myself this week to see it the physical pain would over ride the mental pain, it didn't so I've stopped it.

I will do whatever I can do to get a handle on this, and I love you all.

[Miss Behaving]

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Skendall,

That was brave to admit (about cutting yourself) but really glad you have stopped. This is such a big thing for you and I really hope that you are able to find some peace in yourself, and solace from others. I hope you are able to remember the great things that people say about you on here at those moments when you feel overwhelmed by how you feel about yourself.

[eustacia]

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Hilary,

I've been thinking about you and just wanted to check in. Hope you're finding some peace . . .:l:l:l

:heart: E

[Marshy]

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Hi SK,

Good for you for going to AA! I've found it very helpful - it gives me a great sense of peace. If it's your first experience of it, I'd advise shopping around until you find a group you like if you have a choice where you live. It took me a bit of trial and error but it's worth persevering.

[startingover]

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SKendall;777012 wrote: Thank you all for your support. I will be attending AA meetings for a while, this issue is bigger than me.

Kimber is Gia and has many problems of her own, but I won't attack her. I am so full of shame and disgust, it's overwhelming. I started cutting myself this week to see it the physical pain would over ride the mental pain, it didn't so I've stopped it.

I will do whatever I can do to get a handle on this, and I love you all.

SK, my heart really does go out to you. It sounds like you are in a terrible place right now. Is it possible for you to talk to someone? A crisis line maybe? Sometimes just some real talk helps to get things in perspective.
Huge hugs my friend, if there is anything I can do, please let me know...:l:l

[more2life]

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SK-

Don't make me come down there and kick your ass..... cutting yourself? I know you're hurting, but slicing and dicing yourself won't help anything. Little Viv doesn't want to see a bunch of cuts on her Gramma.

You know you can always call me if you need to talk. Take good care of yoursel Hillary. Vivian only has one granny.

[greeneyes]

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Zenstyle;777304 wrote: Just remember we're all here for you Hillary, OK? You're not alone.

Like Starty said, if there's anything I can do let me know. :l :l :l

Me too. I agree with Starty - talking to a professional may be helpful.