So tempted!

[sick of being sick]

I had a great day today. My husband, who works from home, had to go work somewhere else today and it was SO nice! I enjoyed having the house to myself, listening to some great christian music, while cleaning up. I had this pit in my stomach all day that he would bring home liquor and I tried to prepare myself and convince myself that it didn't matter if he was drinking or not, I WAS NOT GOING TO DRINK! He gets home at 4:00 in a bad mood, with plenty of excuses why he had went by the liquor store. As soon as I saw the bottle in his hands, my heart starting racing and my demon was trying real hard to convince me to drink! Raining and cold here in the office and a nice warm fire in the den, but I will have to stay in here on the site all night to get through it. Need lots of friends to encourage me. I do not want to have to start over AGAIN as this is my 5th day AF!

[dancelot]

So tempted!

SOS - Keep doing anything, take it minute by minute if needed. Let the music uplift you, say a prayer (that old Serenity Prayer is a good one), keep your eye on the higher power. The further you get away from it (as in more AF days), the easier it will get. Staying close to the forum or in chat was helpful to me at first.
Hang in there! Much love - Dance :h

P.S. Make sure you don't get hungry - that's a big trigger for many of us.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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SOS great decision to come here where you are among people who understand. Well done on day 5 now focus on day 6 and how badly you want this. There are a thousand reasons not to pick up that next drink but I cant think of a single one to do so. This feeling will pass, you need to ride it out. Drink lots of water and try and do something to take your mind elsewhere, stick on one of your favourite movies or read a good book. Keep strong, you can do this.

[spuddleduck]

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be strong sobs.. you know drinking wont help anything for more that a few hours. it doesnt matter if other people are drinking. its your life, your body, your mind. AL is trying to creep in. DONT LET IT!

mountains fall and seas divide
before the one who in his stride
takes the hard road day by day
sweeping obstacles away

believe in yourself and in your plan
say not i cannot but i can
the prizes in life are yours to win
if you believe in the power within

BELIEVE IN YOUR INNER POWER - THINKING OF YOU X

[BUNNY]

So tempted!

Don`t do it SOBS. You know you are stronger than that. You began this journey for a reason, you are doing this for YOU, please try to remember that and tomorrow morning you will feel that much stronger. You can do this! :l:l:l:l:l

[more2life]

So tempted!

Think of the last hangover you had and the horrible night sweats. Do you really want to start from day one again. Day 6 is when is you really start feeling good. Don't blow it for a lousy drink. Besides, you know it will taste like crap anyway.

Make yourself a nice cup of tea.


M2

[mama bear]

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I am here SOS....be strong and tell your husband you don't appreciate it!!

[KatieB]

So tempted!

Hey SOBS..
Just think how good you will feel when you resist the urge.. the strength and power you will feel knowing AL does NOT control you! you can do it.. distract yourself.. have a cup of tea or other soft drink to sip whilst your hubby is drinking.. you CAN do this! we are here for you,
Katie xx

[greeneyes]

So tempted!

Just popping in here to see how things are going..... hot tea sure is nice on nights like that. Don't give away your power!

[Doggygirl]

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SOS - my thoughts are still with you! Hope you are getting a few laughs from The Bachelor!

mama bear;814609 wrote: I am here SOS....be strong and tell your husband you don't appreciate it!!

I'm just going to comment as I know you are new here too Mama Bear. I don't think it's helpful to issue challenges, especially to someone who is drinking. Better to stay calm and keep it peaceful if possible. Go in another room and do something else. Just 2 cents..

DG

[sick of being sick]

So tempted!

Thank you all for your encouraging words. I am so disgusted with him! I made me a pot of coffee and sit down to watch the bachelor and he started in on me. I never realized when I was drinking how mean and obnoxious he is! I finally just had to leave the room. I'm not much into conflict. I grew up with a violent alcoholic father, so I learned it is best to stay quite and walk away. He's been drinking since 4:00 and now it's 8:00, surely he has almost finished that bottle off and will go to bed so I can have my nice peaceful sober life! As soon as he came home, he tried to push my buttons and make me mad so he would feel less guilty about drinking, but I just walked away and it seems like that really made him mad. He hates that I'm on this site, finally able to talk to someone about this. Ya know how alcoholics like the secret life. I told him, you drink if you have to, but I don't drink anymore. I know I can't make him stop if he don't want to. I can only control what I do. Life would be so much nicer if he would stop. I do really love him. We've been married 19 years! He raised my 2 children. He's provided for me and taken care of me through all my health issues. I've just got to learn how to deal with this situation soberly. Thanks for all the post and the pm's I got today. Ya'll are some incredible people and I'm so happy I found this site and I'm not alone in this anymore. THANKS!

[fragileflower]

So tempted!

You can get through this, SOBS...without drinking. Spend some time in another room, listening to some soothing music...your urges and anger will pass.

You are in my thoughts and prayers!
Fragileflower

[janka]

So tempted!

Hey Sobs .... how are you? You sound like a smart and strong lady ... you'll pull thru but only if you really want to ... keep on