I am begging..

[ATLThrash]

I am begging..

I will try

I knew this week would be stressful from start to finish and it is so far-- I just wish I had not asked for more stress with me drinking like that. The psychiatrist never called me back-- I would even consider a temporary medication to take during the wall of this first anxiety because I do not want to be incapacitated totally-- I already sleep so poorly-- I just do not want to set myself up for more failure. I have called twice so far and no call back. I suppose I can make it one more day--hubby is going to play hockey tonight so since I will be solo with my son I have to pull it together!

[fragileflower]

I am begging..

ATLThrash....

I'm sorry you are going through this....how are you right now? Are you ok? Drink some water...deep breaths....you will be ok...

Thinking of you,
fragileflower

[ATLThrash]

I am begging..

Still here..

Doctor never did call-- my last message was that I was facing a wall of anxiety and feared I would go to the hospital if things did not change here-- that I was barely functioning (and also hubby is going out of town Weds night and Thurs--so lonely) But I am AF today still and hoping to contiue to be-- chest hurts from the thudding heart and shortness of breath and just overall anxious feeling. Have a feeling I will not sleep tonight--maybe I should have paged the doctor instead of leaving the voice messages but I figured those showed desperation-- apparently not enough-- I just do not want to be seen as one who over reacts by doctors (had an experience with one where that was his perception-- though not some others perception)_ and the judgment is not what I need-- but I do need the help-- badly!

[ATLThrash]

I am begging..

I suspect that is true

I think you are probably right-- before I drank I would have anxiety but never so that it overwhelmed me and made it impossible to function. Just got to get through this tough week -- made it through yesterday and did not think I would so..maybe there is hope!