ive been on this site before,recently under a dif user name,got banned for slaggin off 12 step programs,for which i am truly,truly sorry. couldnt get back on in time to delete my drinken rantts before i was banned! ive got 3 amazing children who worship me,an estranged wife,also addict but clean at the momment,who is desperate for us to get back together,and is always there for me,a sister who is a saint,but i just cant bare to be with anyone,im in total isolation,and totally at my wits end,im in the uk,please what can i do?i know ive got hours,days at most before i do it,i dont want to
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i cant see any way out from this depression,im drinking at the moment,with tablets in front of me,i really really dont want to take them,but,if i dont do irt tonite,i know its just when.
ive been on this site before,recently under a dif user name,got banned for slaggin off 12 step programs,for which i am truly,truly sorry. couldnt get back on in time to delete my drinken rantts before i was banned! ive got 3 amazing children who worship me,an estranged wife,also addict but clean at the momment,who is desperate for us to get back together,and is always there for me,a sister who is a saint,but i just cant bare to be with anyone,im in total isolation,and totally at my wits end,im in the uk,please what can i do?i know ive got hours,days at most before i do it,i dont want toTags: None
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Hello Onlyme. I think I remember you.
It seems like you have a lot of good things in your life, but still very low.
I can tell you for certain that the drinking will be making your depression worse.
It did me, and I felt suicidal too.
Its almost like a catch 22 isnt it? isolated but not wanting anyone to see us...
Would you be willing to call the samaritans and talk to them?
I can find you their numberLiving now and not just existing since 9th July 2008
Nicotine Free since 6th February 2009
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onlyme
I'm so sad your heart is hurting so much right now. The fact that you are on MWO tells me you want help, NOT the pills.
Pick up the phone and call for help. Call family, emergency services......call someone. You wrote yourself that you have a lot to live for.
Please post again and let me know who you've contacted.
Love and strength to you--:h getting better every day
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onlyme, please call one of the numbers below before doing anything rash. remember you have 3 amazing children. please, please don't harm yourself. you say you don't want to take the pills, then don't.
Call the hotline below and talk to someone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suicide Hotlines
UK and ROI: 08457 909090 or +44 1603 611311
Web: Samaritans Home Page-->
International: Befrienders Worldwide
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i lied in my post,befor the last one about waiting for my bac, ive had my bac for 8 days 1st day 25mg 2nd=40 3rd 50mg+4 strong beers,didnt even feel tipsy then 60,60,80,100, then 120 this morning in 3 hours,with no relief from anything at all,didnt tale any more coz knew i was gunna drink.
ive been depressed for years,but this is the worst ever ever,really really really dont want to kill myself,but i know its gunna happen
can i admit myself to psych hosp for this
Appreciate all replies,but really cant do with lectures,or councelling sugestions,sorry
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thanks to all for your such quick replies to me,done samaritans,i know what ive got to live for,looked on befrienders, but im screaming so bad in my head,not looking for attentio, can i get myse,admit myself into care,theres no th else for me please understand this!
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I am not sure how things work in the UK, but I have been suicidal before and I went to the emergency room of a local hospital.They kept me for 3 days until I got sober and felt less depressed. I'm sure that you know that alcohol is a depressant and only makes depression worse. Suicide is a Permanent Solution to a Temporary problem. It is devastating for those left behind. Please get help. You are a child of God and you are worth it!:l"Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)
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Only me, you say that you don't want to die. Live for yourself and for your 3 amazing children. Think how much you would hurt them if you did this to yourself. What if they did this to theirself in response to your self inflicted death? There is a better way out there. I have discovered the sober life and it is wonderful! Fight for your life, your children and your sobriety. Giving up is not the answer! Please let us help you. Please let someone help you!I'm not what I should be, I'm not what I could be. I'm definetly not who I want to be,
but I'm sure not who I used to be!
There is no pit so deep that God's love is not deeper still.
"I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME." Phil 4:13
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Contact a mental health crisis team buddy. They're called a 'C.A.T.T'. team here in Oz, and they should come out to see you, and/or get yourself to a hospital. There will be a similar mental health crisis team in the U.K. too. Call an ambulance or a taxi. If no-one know's what you're feeling, you've got to get of your backside and contact people. Also, ring your friend's and/or family, swallow your pride, and get them to drive you to hospital.
'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'
Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-
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thanyou all,
im suicidal wiyhout the drink,my numerous docs have been no help in th long run,the only thing that has stopped me from doing it before,is that my brother killed himself many years ago,and i know how it affected me,and our family,but i know i will do it,even by accident when im drunk,,imm,jdt at thatpoint now.
Im in the uk,west midlands,birmingham,can i admit myself to a psych ward,i cant find the answer on the net
I know your all there,as my family is for me,but ive kept how bad things are for a long time to myself,and everybody just keeps telling me how much ive got to live for,and i really reall.really dont want to sound ungreatful,but that just doesnt help,xxx
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Death is'nt going to solve your problem.......it just compounds it in the here after....and then you can't do anything about it ..........IAD?Be who you are and say what you feel because
those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.?
Dr. Seuss
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