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[santybury]

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sick of being sick;825708 wrote: Welcome! This site is a family of love! It has been a lifeline for me. So many caring people here that no matter what you do, they love and encourage you through it. Drinking has made me hate myself, also. I did go to rehab but it did not help me. This site is the only thing that has helped me. I stay on it as much as possible, reading posts and writing all my feelings down. I drank a fifth of vodka every night for 5+ years and over the last 2 months, I have only drank 6 times. It can be done. I ordered the starter pkg on this site and the supplements make you feel so healthy and happy once you get off the liquor. I also got on baclofen, which reduces cravings. My husband drinks so once he starts, I sit on my computer and spend time "with my family" instead of drinking with him. I would highly recommend this book to you, "The Easy Way to Quit Drinking" by Allen Carr. I got it on Amazon for $10. but I've heard people found it at walmart or the library. You will make a ton of friends here so stay on the site, especially if you are tempted to drink or if you mess up and drink. Don't beat yourself up (like I do), just get right back up and start again. Don't look back or forward, just focus on today and staying sober just for today. That is the only way it can be done, otherwise it is too overwelming. Don't tell yourself you are never going to drink again, tell yourself you are NOT going to drink TODAY! I know you will love it here and I wish you all the best. Love, Vicki

Hi Vicki!!
Im a Vicki too! Thanks for your advice. I have Allan Carrs book and was going to go on one of his courses. My trouble is I manage to keep a lid on it for a while and then I have a session where I totally embarress myself. By keeping a lid on it, I mean keeping it hidden from others. then I get a night where I get totally wasted in full view of others, it is so humiliating. My partner and I split 3 years ago and when I think of how he must of felt when we had friends around and I would drink until I almost passed out! He must have always been frightened of what I was going to do next.
I think im going to see my doctor tomorrow but have to say I feel ashamed asking for medication for a drink problem.
Anyway thanks again
Vicki

[santybury]

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Sheri;825731 wrote: Hi Santybury,

You've gotten such great advice so far, so I just wanted to stop by and say :hello:

You are definitely not alone! Check out the link below and you'll see just how many people here understand.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...ing-22609.html

Wishing you all the best.

Sheri

Thankyou Sheri
Checking it out now x

[santybury]

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Just read them, all so true and so familiar! I look 10 years younger if I stop for ny amount of time. I hate the bloated face and the red eyes. God, when did drinking become such a nightmare? The comment about waking early wracked with guilt is oh so familiar and the flashbacks just awful. Plaese god, I want to stop this time!!!

[K9Lover]

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Hi Santybury and welcome to this site!
I can SOOO related to the shame and embarrassment of not being able to control your actions when drinking. Then the realization the next morning, wondering what exactly you did...who you pissed off...what relationship you ruined "this time". It's a horrible feeling! I also recently had such a scary experience the next day with a hangover, I truly felt I was going to die. The thought of my parents having to identify my body at the morgue with result of death as "alcohol poisioning" scared the living bejeezus out of me!!! My daughter is only 12 and she needs me...she even told me recently that sometimes she gets scared because she hears me on the phone, screaming, using "bad words"....wow, talk about feeling bad about yourself. I know it's not easy, I have tried to quit multiple times, but I finally reached a point where I realize I have no choice anymore. Alcohol is poison to me. Good luck on your journey, stick close....we look forward to getting to know you!

[rubywillow]

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To Santy, and everyone who has posted or read this, I totally recommend you find an established thread above you like the postings on, and jump in, acquaint yourself with others, find a group who will help you,share with you, and miss you if you don't come back for a while. It's a fabulous feeling to know that others who understand you will care about how you are doing, worry about you. You will find great, lifelong friends here, if you try. It's a BIG step, and such a wonderful one.

[santybury]

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K9Lover;826240 wrote: Hi Santybury and welcome to this site!
I can SOOO related to the shame and embarrassment of not being able to control your actions when drinking. Then the realization the next morning, wondering what exactly you did...who you pissed off...what relationship you ruined "this time". It's a horrible feeling! I also recently had such a scary experience the next day with a hangover, I truly felt I was going to die. The thought of my parents having to identify my body at the morgue with result of death as "alcohol poisioning" scared the living bejeezus out of me!!! My daughter is only 12 and she needs me...she even told me recently that sometimes she gets scared because she hears me on the phone, screaming, using "bad words"....wow, talk about feeling bad about yourself. I know it's not easy, I have tried to quit multiple times, but I finally reached a point where I realize I have no choice anymore. Alcohol is poison to me. Good luck on your journey, stick close....we look forward to getting to know you!

Hi K9Lover
Thanks for your reply. Yes, its not a great place to be is it? I did something pretty awful on Saturday night but cant remember what exactly, I know when ive gone over the top though. Sad thing is, as the shame and memory fades you find yourself thinking about having just the one, which as you know, never happens. I went to an alcohol advisory place today but could not go through with a referral because im a nurse and I was concerned about confidentiality issues. Anyway, im thinking of joining a group, like Smart, as I want to get through this. Do you have any advice?
Going back to your daughter, yes she does need you, God knows how our children feelwhen they see their mother drunk, slurring and out of control, mine have been there many a time. Children are forgiving but I doubt they forget, I feel for mine, I really do. Anyway thanks for your kind words and support, and as new as I am, if I can be of any help, I am here x

[santybury]

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rubywillow;826246 wrote: To Santy, and everyone who has posted or read this, I totally recommend you find an established thread above you like the postings on, and jump in, acquaint yourself with others, find a group who will help you,share with you, and miss you if you don't come back for a while. It's a fabulous feeling to know that others who understand you will care about how you are doing, worry about you. You will find great, lifelong friends here, if you try. It's a BIG step, and such a wonderful one.

Hi Rubywillow
Im not sure what im meant to be doing here! Still trying to find my way about the site! What do you mean about "threads!", im being stupid, sorry!
look forward for a dummies guide to MWO!
Thanks

[rubywillow]

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santybury;826297 wrote: Hi Rubywillow
Im not sure what im meant to be doing here! Still trying to find my way about the site! What do you mean about "threads!", im being stupid, sorry!
look forward for a dummies guide to MWO!
Thanks

santy, dear, it took me months!! LOL I posted my life story in the middle of something like a cooking thread at first, so don't worry. A thread is one of the new 'articles' posted on each of the dif parts of the whole site here. Like 'Army Thread' on General Discussion, or 'Get Your Ass In Gear'! Don't worry about feeling stupid; you're NOT! Get on here and look around, read them, see what you feel comfortable with. If you have questions, just post on a 'thread' and ask. Someone will help you find where you are in a bit. I'm just glad you're looking, and if you come to the 'Get your Ass In Gear' thread, I promise you a response and help!! Good for you!
Rubes