Can't get past 48 hours

[Doggygirl]

Can't get past 48 hours

UKB, I KNEW there was yet another reason to like you that I had yet to uncover! Now I know what it is! You call it "pop"!!!!! That's what my family always called it when I was growing up. The world around me thinks it's "soda" but they are surely WRONG!! We are RIGHT!!! :H

Have a great day. Where is the Discobunny???? I'm hoping she made it through another AF weekend. But whether you did or not DB, get your ass back here. :b&d:

DG

[Guest]

Can't get past 48 hours

Soda?That's the plain, slighty bitter stuff that looks like lemonade but tastes of well soda!

I guess the refined word would be 'soft-drink' but up here in the north it has to be "POP".

DB we are missing you!!!

[88Katie88]

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HATE MYSELF-CAN STAND IT ANYMORE-I NEED TO DIE

[88Katie88]

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GET ME OUT OF THIS MESS!!!!!!!!!!! JUST CANT SEEM TO DO IT-I'VE MADE SUCH A WRECK OF LIFE

[SweetHereafter]

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88Katie88 - Hold on. No matter how much a wreck you have made of life, stopping drinking will give you the peace of mind to rebuild everything you have lost and more.

[Guest]

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Yes it's alcohol that causes the devastation and removing it from the equation allows you to rebuild your life and obtain some peace at last.

[Snapdragon]

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Hi 88Katie - you don't hate yourself - you hate what alcohol is doing to you. YOU are a great and wonderful person - pick yourself up and start a new day. We all understand here - we're all going through or have been through the same thing.

[Snapdragon]

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Hi Disco - where are you? Let us know how you're doing? Snap X

[Guest]

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Woohooo, youhooo.

:anyonethere:

[Doggygirl]

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DB. Come out come out wherever you are. And I do mean from wherever.

DG

[Snapdragon]

Can't get past 48 hours

Morning UK

Just thought I would see how you're doing? I've been bad the last couple of days - gave into the craving again. Just walked my dog in the sunshine though and feel fired up to give it another go today.

Don't know what's happened to Disco? Come out Disco - we miss you

[Guest]

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Hi Snap

Sorry to hear that I'm on day 43 now - over 6 weeks sober. I can remember "giving in". I'm still having cravings, urges, ideas of drinking but know I am not going to die if I just get through them. I used to think it would be awful if I didn't sate a craving - well tell you what, it only lasts around 40-60 mins maximum. Rather that than the hours of feeling rubbish if I drank.

Keep going I've posted in the Just Starting out section too about how I'm doing.

Haven't heard from DB but hopefully she will be back soon.

[justfortoday]

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how refreshing it is to know I am not the only one who offends???

It is not that I am proud of it, quite the reverse. Each time I have alcohol, I offend anyone I come into contact with. Then I sit in my sober moments and wonder why I have no friends?? I could not do social scenes as it is like a lunatic being let out of the asylum. Oh I am fine at first, laughing and joking and being jovial, by the end of the night and after a gallon of alcohol, I am the most obnoxious, disgusting person and I would not wish to meet me. It is no good saying 'that is not me', for really it is me but after too much wine. People never understand, not unless you have a drink related problem.

I was silly enough to consume far more alcohol than deemed fit this weekend and went out walking. I live in a farming community and I decided to approach the farmer to discuss her keeping of bulls. Imagine, her horror when I began my rant. I barely remember staggering home. What I do remember is her puzzled and stern face!!! I woke up the next day with that face clearly imprinted on my mind. I spent the next day holed up with curtains closed and blinds drawn and so many remorseful feelings. How on earth can we make it right?

We have to stop doing this to ourselves. Me for one know it will be hard, but what choice do I have?? I am not getting any younger. I am so sick and tired of being so sick and tired. I try to understand why I have this issue with alcohol. I am learning to accept I have this issue with alcohol, thankfully so do all of you.... Here is to group recovery... being the people we are meant to be and not the being we have become.

[Guest]

Can't get past 48 hours

I am just the same and thank goodness for your post. I haven't time to stop and read much but am having a VERY BIG urge, as well as craving to drink. Reading this has reminded me how awful a person I am with AL inside me, only yesterday a close friend told me of the times he's heard me bouncing down the stairs leaving his flat then watch me weave across the road back home.

I'd not realise I was 'that bad' before.

Group recovery YES!

[Doggygirl]

Can't get past 48 hours

Hi UK and Snap and justfortoday. And also DB - hope you are well.

UK - those urges WILL get better with time. "Time" is an interesting concept among our recovery group sometimes. Many of us drank for years and years (30+ for me) and yet in these early days of sobriety, a couple of weeks or a couple of months seems like a LONG time. It's really not.

I think it's different for each person but for me, those really mind numbing type urges toned down maybe after 6 months? Somewhere between 6 months and a year? And of course they were much fewer and farther between at 6 months than 2 months. So please hang in there! I consider it a blessing that with a lot of work on my character and spirituality, I rarely have intense urges at almost 2 years sober, considering my 30+ years of drinking.

UK, I love your comment that the intense urges last maybe 30 minutes or an hour MAX, but hangovers and remorse for our actions can last much, much longer. That's a great point.

I also find that FORCING myself to remember the horrible moments (I call that "playing the tapes in my head") is helpful too. If for some reason I start romanticizing and fantasizing about "a drink," I make sure to think about my drinking experiences, and make sure I play the tape ALL that way to the end - including the hangover and remorse and embarrassment.

For me, the biggest deterent of all for giving in to an urge is that I KNOW it will just kick off a "re-start" of MORE desparate urges and really take me back to the beginning in terms of working my way past the constant need and desire for AL. I just don't want to go through that again! And at this point, I don't want to give up the life I have built post-AL. For what? A short buzz and long hangover?

UK - you are setting a fabulous example of how to work through this. If you can, maybe I can and others can too.

DG