How Do You Get Through Day 1?

[NickNat]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

ButterflyBe,

From Noon until 5 PM, I become rigid for a drink, blind with obsession and if I go out, my car seems to pull in for just 'one' drink. I got no assurances for myself...I've 'quit' many times. Lately though, I've found the next day that I'd eat junk food in the blacked-out, unreal reality of the alcohol. I feel like fat, bloated, you know what. My stomach is all torn up and I wake up with horrid heartburn and no idea what I ate. I am WILLING to stay in bed again during this time to just let the minutes pass; I am willing to risk doing my best to get sober again.

The other day I must've lapsed in putting the hand-brake on in my car and it rolled and hit a parked car. What scared me is not knowing the next morning if I'd dreamed the event, or if it really happened. Then, I found out that I did all the notifications, insurance filing, and photographing of damage and had no memory of doing all these 'right' things.

What times of the day, circumstances or inner beliefs are sabotaging your desire to get sober, or do you feel the desire to stop is lacking?

[Butterflybe]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

NickNat
I fully understand your need for a drink between midday and 5, but hey, I was starting much earlier each day and continuing all day; even having alot more and quickly before hubby arrived home in the evening in case he told me I had had enough and should stop! So by the time he gets home I was well and truly drunk! He's the kindest man on earth and I have been wrecking things between us, so I need to do this for him even if not for myself.
My drinking is actually stopping me going out and about for fear of being caught drink driving or causing an accident ; or even meeting people whilst out who may make a judgement. BUT today, I have abstained all day and now that I have got past 5 p.m. I am going out to do some food shopping; in the hope it will keep me sober for this next difficult time of day; the evening! Today is the first day in years that I do actually feel the desire to stop and perhaps if I am still stone cold sober when hubby gets home I can stick with it for the rest of the day.
Thanks for sharing, it helps, knowing I am not the only one. Presently I feel proud of myself for being sober today and I will keep you posted.
Take care and have a good day 2. Will be back later.
ButterflyBe

[NickNat]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

My 'witching hours' are here and I feel insane. My mind is a depressed blob...gotta a headache and am very fatigued. I know if I go out now, I'll get alcohol and so I'm not even bathing or getting dressed. I just seem to go into an out-of-body trance and watch something else controlling my body to get alcohol. It's scary. Every few minutes I get a 'flash' in my head as to how I need just a few drinks and also how to lie about it on this forum.

I feel stuck between the delusion of 'few drinks=relief' and wanting this alcohol monkey off my back!

[JackieClaire]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Rightio NickNat,
OMAT (One Minute at a Time) will soon be
OHAT (One Hour at Time)

keep surfing those urges. Stay close to the boards,keep reading. I spent hours on the here in the early days.

Remember Alcohol = feeling crap later on

Try and eat something, nothing huge, little and often. Treat yourself as if you've got flu.

J x
:l

[Butterflybe]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Remember that good feeling you had last night of not waking in a sweat and unsure of what had happened the day before ; hold on to that feeling, remind yourself of it through these next few hours.
Perhaps try to treat today like Day 1 again; lots of chamomile tea, OJ, water; a little something to eat. Rest up, watch some TV/Movies; make it a self pampering day.
That fatique, headache and if you are like me sickness will hopefully get less. As for the desperation to have a drink I don't know how long that will take to ease, but I'm sure it will do; eventually.
You are ahead of me, you already completed your Day 1 - which is fab.
Be proud of yourself for wanting to do this and you can do Day 2, you are already making plans how to cope with it, so stick to those as best you can.
Keep posting. Thinking of you.
ButterflyBe

[NickNat]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Thanks J x...I'm heavy into 'feeling the crap of the later on after alcohol'. I am hanging onto this forum, laying in bed, counting minutes and hours...I've made it 2 hours into my 5 hour daily 'urge' time. I feel like I'm losing my mind and if I had a drink, then I wouldn't feel that way, until that drink wears off.

I need to go out and get some things for my 'withdrawal', but I just can't do it now with this urge.

It helps me to think of all those people stranded in airports waiting for the volcanic plume to pass.
At least I can sleep in my own bed, shower, have some privacy and the company of my kitties.

[Doggygirl]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Hang in there Nick one moment at a time. The good news is that if you stick to your guns and refuse to drink, this whole thing will eventually get easier. Drinking wouldn't make the drinking problem go away, and then you would just get to start this whole stopping process over again. And again. And again. Much eaiser in the long run to just tough it out now. Be willing to go to ANY LENGTH to get sober. If I can do it, so can you.

:l

DG

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Agree totally with Doggygirl there NickNat. Stick close to the boards and talk to us, the craving will pass and when you wake up tomorrow morning you can feel proud of what you have achieved. It is so worth it, today can be the first day of the rest of your life.

[NickNat]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Thanks ya'll. I know if I can NOT drink for 2-1/2 more hours, I'll lose the effort to go get it and I can take a Trazadone to get me to sleep. I feel like I'm battling some whiny beast that can't conceive of 'not drinking' and wants it's bottle now! Just one more time...all it wants is that 15 seconds of delight that come with the first drink. It's obsessed with getting booze and telling ya'll, "Oh, well...??" I'm sick of all the life that I lose to alcohol and the lies, unavailability, avoiding and sloth that go with it and I'm really too old for my body to take this anymore.

[girly wirly]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

come on hun hang on in there, i'm in my struggle zone too as it's 8pm here. we can get through these last few hours x

[NickNat]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

I'm hanging girly-wirly and you can too. I forced myself to eat two 100% WWheat Wild smoked salmon sandwiches with sprouts and took 5 mg of Valium. I feel like crap, but not obsessing over HAVING to get alcohol.

You're right. We can get through these last few hours. I'll check in again.

[tbpeterson5]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

just drink water and stay away from the stuff that stresses you out to where you want to drink.

[jessie]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Have you considered Antabuse - it really takes that "fight" whether you should have a drink out of your mind. I am also struggling to get a couple of AF days behind me, and have run out of AB, and I sure miss it.

Good luck.

[NickNat]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

I've tried Antabuse before and drank on it too with no reaction, as long as I didn't drink wine or beer--no explanation. I'd be willing to take it again, but not sure how to get it at the moment. I don't have a doc who'll prescribe it and not sure where to get it online. Hang in with the rest of us who are struggling too to get through withdrawals.

I made it through Day 2...going to bed.

Wishing all a good night and a good night to all (or morning depending on your time zone.)

[Butterflybe]

How Do You Get Through Day 1?

Well done on day 2 NickNat!
Brilliant. Hang on in there for Day 3.
I'm just starting out with Day 2 and feel worrried that I won't make it, yesterday was tough enough; but if you managed it then I will try too.
ButterflyBe