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[looking for peace]

I had a bad weekend and feel really awful today. I drank at least a bottle of wine on Friday, nothing on Saturday and almost a bottle on Sunday. I didn't have a hangover this morning... I just feel utterly disapointed in myself and like a complete failure. I'm getting scared that I will never beat this. I feel pretty hopeless.

I've gotten to the point that I really can't stand the way I feel about myself the next day after drinking (not so much physically, but it gets me so down mentally for at least 18 hours) I didn't go to the gym this morning and stayed in bed until now feeling so low... I didn't want to be around anyone. I started flipping the channels to different religious programs to try to get some inspiration to motivate me to do better. To no avail.

How can I make myself remember this horrible feeling the next time I reach for the first one??? Anybody have any success in re-channeling a bad hangover or a bad incident related to drinking. I don't seem to be able to dredge up the horrors when I need to.:upset:

[Panno]

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Looking for Peace I'm so sorry you have had a bad weekend, I know just how your feeling, keep hanging on there taking ODAT :l the only advice I can give you is never give up giving up. It really will come to you, from what I have learned from all the lovely people on this site is its not a race and all people are different, some get it straight away and some just take longer than others but what they don't do is give up. When we slip we get right back up and start again. Good luck on your journey, take care and I really hope you find peace soon

Luv P x

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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LFP if you were a failure you wouldnt be here asking for support. Dont ever give up we might lose the odd battle but we have to and will win the war.

[Rusty]

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LFP,

I have been in your shoes many times and hangovers are so awful not only physically but they leave a person filled with shame. This is what I do when I have a binge and feel like crap the next day. I jump in with both feet and make a list of everything I want to accomplish that day because I say to myself, "I lost a whole day drinking and now I HAVE to do something productive to relieve my guilt." I also post here and reach out for help, and there is always someone here to help...and thankfully, no one judges. Hope you feel better and post again soon!

[Road to Recovery]

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LFP,
Have you considered any of the supplements or medications that are talked about here? Myself and many others are getting real benefit from Baclofen. I have been AF for about 3.5 months now from taking baclofen. Believe me, it took took away all the cravings I had for alcohol and before baclofen my constant thoughts from morning to night were of drinking - now I dont want or desire alcohol at all. You dont have to suffer anymore. Dont be scared to reach out for help.

[tlrgs]

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just dont beat yourself up ..in life we have to go backward to make a forward step in life .. to learn and maybe change what we need to over time ..nothing ever happens over night .. so just keep on getting back on the bull of life and hold on tight its going to be a bumpy ride ..and just do your best

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Rusty;860372 wrote: LFP,

I have been in your shoes many times and hangovers are so awful not only physically but they leave a person filled with shame. This is what I do when I have a binge and feel like crap the next day. I jump in with both feet and make a list of everything I want to accomplish that day because I say to myself, "I lost a whole day drinking and now I HAVE to do something productive to relieve my guilt." I also post here and reach out for help, and there is always someone here to help...and thankfully, no one judges. Hope you feel better and post again soon!

Rusty

I had to actualy stop making those lists you mention in order to stop my binges. All I was doing was giving myself too many things to do inbetween binges, and that only got me tired and irritable. In the end I simply had to force myself not to do anything, then start with a couple of simple things and build up.

LFP

It is a scientific fact bingers forget all the negative effects inbetween bouts. I think you just have to remind yourself every day that one drink could send you back to that dark place. i understand this is part of what AA would call Step 1. I am fully aware I can walk to the pub or off licence which are both less than 5 minutes away, buy a drink and be getting drunk within 10 minutes. I do know however that would only send me right back into my drinking cycle again and I remind myself daily if not hourly of that.

[catch22]

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[QUOTE=looking for peace;860338]

I've gotten to the point that I really can't stand the way I feel about myself the next day after drinking (not so much physically, but it gets me so down mentally for at least 18 hours) I didn't go to the gym this morning and stayed in bed until now feeling so low... I didn't want to be around anyone. I started flipping the channels to different religious programs to try to get some inspiration to motivate me to do better. To no avail.

Hi looking for peace,
For me it was not the hangover that got me, but it did start of with hangovers and feeling like shit at first, then the pyhsically side but the worst for me was the mental side of our i felt feeling down feeling depress feels like your having a breakdown dont want to go to work, dont want to draw my curtains being in that dark place isolating myself from everyone, is not nice at all..... i had to keep reminding myself it not ok to drink, it will send me right back to that dark place of madness and i mean madness i use to make out everything was ok, but it was not ok......
Keep it simple, i still do, i dont do too much now, this is a slow progress see each day as a new day dont focus to far ahead, and take it easy, hope you feeling alot better.:l

[Rusty]

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UK,

Sorry it didn't work for you. It wasn't a long list....it was just a list of things to do that I hadn't completed just the day before because I was drinking. I have a very demanding career and for me, this is what keeps me focused.

[Guest]

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I had demands on my time - studying, running my own business, fitness training etc just found trying to do things I'd missed only made things worse for me.

[looking for peace]

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Thanks for everyone's input.... It was really helpful and makes me realize why I like coming back to this site. Road to recovery... I looked at some of your previous posts, I think I would like to try baclofen. I hate the idea of taking anything (of course it's so stupid, considering what I do to my body now) But, from what I've read, it sounds quite safe. I know I can't approach an MD with this, insurance reasons. Have you gone through your doc, or did you just get it online and followed the recommended dosage?

All of the other advice is great and I'm jumping back on the horse once again startiing today.

[not tonight]

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Looking for Peace
I am am a bit late on this thread, but just thought I would say, remember, getting sober is a process, and that process is partly made up of stumbling. For me, it is important that I keep myself hydrated, and eat three good meals a day. Hunger around 3-4 in the afternoon is deadly. I am new to this site, this is my second week, but reading a posting keeps me focused. Here is to a new day!

[Road to Recovery]

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LFP,
Glad to hear you want to give Bac a go! you will not be disappointed. I went through my doc for a prescription. I was at the point that I didnt care if it may affect insurance or not - I just wanted off AL. Many others have gotten it online, I am sure u can find a post that tells u where u can order it. I dont mind taling it 3 times a day - trust me - the way it removes the feeling of wanting alcohol from your brain far outweighs the idea of having to take a few pills. I believe the first dosage is always 5mg - 3 times per day for 3 days then gradually increase. Doing it this way gradually introduces it into your system with minimal side effects.
keep in touch! We are all here to help!.

[gyco]

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looking for peace;860338 wrote: I had a bad weekend and feel really awful today. I drank at least a bottle of wine on Friday, nothing on Saturday and almost a bottle on Sunday. I didn't have a hangover this morning... I just feel utterly disapointed in myself and like a complete failure. I'm getting scared that I will never beat this. I feel pretty hopeless.

I've gotten to the point that I really can't stand the way I feel about myself the next day after drinking (not so much physically, but it gets me so down mentally for at least 18 hours) I didn't go to the gym this morning and stayed in bed until now feeling so low... I didn't want to be around anyone. I started flipping the channels to different religious programs to try to get some inspiration to motivate me to do better. To no avail.

How can I make myself remember this horrible feeling the next time I reach for the first one??? Anybody have any success in re-channeling a bad hangover or a bad incident related to drinking. I don't seem to be able to dredge up the horrors when I need to.:upset:

love your thread.L.F P.sometimes we never reach tht mile stone,just coming here and realising you have a problem,is a good sign,its odd when we started drinking it was a high,odd ovr time it can bring you to such a low,as far as the feeling,i beleive that is why they call it alchohl - ism,som people say anything with an ism,isnt good,ive been doing this for,12 years,gotten to a spot,where i xcept me,i dont get drunk,i havent stopped intirely,im not saying to drink or not,but everything in life takes time,:thanks::goodjob:gyco