almost killed myself lastnight.

[Guitarista]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Best wishes Girly.

[spuddleduck]

almost killed myself lastnight.

girly, if you even think it may happen again you really need proffessional help with this. i hope you take this advice.

[byebyebridgetjones]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Look GW......could you go to an addiction specialist ?
Someone who really knows what they're on about ? God bless the local GP, but that's what they are..... GENERAL practitioners.....they can't specialise ...or even be particularly well informed about everything.
What about a specialist unit for anxiety/anxiety disorders ?
We have a unit just for this in several of our major cities. And as we know, many people who have overwhelming anxiety, also self medicate.
You've obviously scared the shit out of yourself.....and quite frankly, morphine is a bloody dangerous drug, when used inappropriately.
Time for action, mate.
The very best.
Bridget.

[Road to Recovery]

almost killed myself lastnight.

girly wirly;887233 wrote: i truly don't know :-( im off to my sisters now to talk with her.

Girly,
First off, I am glad you are ok. I can understand the feeling of needing to feel numbness as quickly as possible, at the end of my drinking, I was trying to achieve that status as quickly as possible - everynight. It didnt even seem to be about enjoying drinking anymore, it was all about being wasted.
I agree with others that it seems to be time to talk to your Dr. As far as medical records go; who cares? not having an alcohol problem on your records is not going to do you any good if you are not around. Your health comes long before worrying about what is on your medical records. Your job at this point needs to be put on the back burner. Are you off work on stress leave? If not, you should look into it, this will secure your job, at least it would in Canada.
Anyway, I am not trying to lecture; alcohol does horrible things to all of us in different ways and we cant always control how we react. I just hope that you go to your Dr and do what it takes to get through this. Your family needs you. We need you here with us.
We are all here if you need to talk.
Take care, keep posting.

[AMELIA]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Hi Girly,
Another UK'er here. Thinking of you. I have been feeling similar panic lately. Drinking only adds to it unfortunately...
I hope you can find a solution with your doctor. Or, you could call one of the UK helplines. As with posting here, talking in person to someone about your problems and anxiety can really help.

[Panno]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Hi Girly

So pleased you woke up, now if your talking about fate deciding what to do I think the answer is already within you - you woke up which means it certainly is not your time to go, but as what others have said it definately is time to go and seek professional help, this is the serious wake up call!! Please tell your doctor all about it. I understand your job seems like its important now but if its doing this to you you really needed to re-think, take really good care of yourself and please let us know how you get on this afternoon.

Luv P x :l

[jessie]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly, you probably will feel a great sense of relief if you are completely honest with your doctor - I did, and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

[Guest]

almost killed myself lastnight.

It was a boyfriend of mine who marched me to the Dr and told him allsorts of stuff about me that was partly lies/irrelevant. Oh he was merrily drinking and condoning taking substances all the time - just not when we were in the GPs surgery.

Best thing is to come clean yourself then you can be in control.

[rubywillow]

almost killed myself lastnight.

GW, I TOTALLY understand you drowning yourself in AL with the prospect of something upsetting. That was my MO. I couldn't explain it, but I began to understand it after a while. And as soon as I was drunk enough, my thoughts would get crazy, like yours, enough to take medicine when I was unable to really realize the implications.
I'm not sure where you are, and I understand you're reluctance at rehab. But when I finally did, it was such a release, such a catharsis. And when I was honest with my doctor, he turned into my biggest supporter. F* the records. This is life and death you're talking about now.
Next time you may not wake up. I know to well the pain you will leave behind.
PM me if I can help you in any way.

[girly wirly]

almost killed myself lastnight.

thanks everyone

your responses have been wonderful. my head is racing with confusion. my husband is coming to the gp with me. i've a feeling if i don't tell him, then he will.

i'm tired, hazy and worried about visiting school tonight. as soon as its all over, im going straight to bed.

[rubywillow]

almost killed myself lastnight.

GW, be receptive to any help you are offered. I've found I have to be my own advocate. I'm off now to the funeral of someone I've known 53 years. She was 58. Delicate, girly-girl, tiny, loved all the lace. Drank herself to death, and had suffered terribly in silence, because her family hid and ignored this problem. TAKE THE HELP! There are so many things worse.

[girly wirly]

almost killed myself lastnight.

ruby im very sorry for your loss:l

[techie]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly I'm so happy you're here to share your story with us. I think now it time for a call to action. Please heed the advice of so many of us. Open up to your doctor, unburden yourself. Collectively with your Doctor, and your family, decide on a treatment plan. Rehab is not a bad thing. It's a life changer for many, so think this through. You know I'm in your corner Girly Wirly, so I want to hear a positive report. John

[mama bear]

almost killed myself lastnight.

oh girly...be strong my friend.....let your husband take care of you....

[K9Lover]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly,
Talk to your Doctor! Don't worry about medical records. Let your husband help you. You did something very scary and very dangerous. Be thankful that you woke up, and now you have a chance to start over. Don't take your girls mom away from them. Please, please get help. Let us know how you are!

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