almost killed myself lastnight.

[Doggygirl]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Hi Girly. I hope you decide to be honest with your doctor and also fully engage your husband in the truth of what you are going through from the addiction to the depression / anxiety. I agree with everyone who is encouraging "take the help." This IS life and death. Your children need you. There is only so much an internet community can do. Many of us also need face to face local support (I know I do) to get and stay sober. There is nothing wrong with that. You might find "coming clean" with your doctor will be cathartic. I hope you decide to take that chance.

DG

[Guest]

almost killed myself lastnight.

This scares the hell out of me. I'll never drink again!
I've been trying to find the trigger for my stopping the booze. It must have been something like this.
Girly, I wish you all the best and please don't do it again it's too frightening.

[JACQRABBIT]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Dear Girly,

You went to bed with the mind set of whatever happen happens.
Please take waking up a sign that you are meant to be here.

If it's possible to send good positive thoughts through an email you would be feeling 'top of the world' with all this love that's come from everyone.

Wishing you all the best

[girly wirly]

almost killed myself lastnight.

hi all,

i came clean with the doc about what i did. he stopped my morphine script and told my hubby to remove any leftover and take it back to the pharmacy which he did. he said i'd been extremely lucky and explained how morphine and al work to kill you. he gave my hubby the number of the crisis team.
he has advised me to stay on anti d's for another week or 2 until i settle down, before he changes my meds. assured me that al is a huge cause of anxiety and depression and is going to keep an eye on that. he told my hubby to make sure i have lots of support and peace and quiet in the meantime.
i have a telephone appointment with the mental health team next thursday for an initial assessment for the cbt.
i slept well lastnight and had an al free night, not that my hubby will let me near the stuff even if i tried!
i went to school, did the whole parent thing, even though i was dying inside, two and a half hours of hell. my hubby held my hand until it turned purple!
feeling more positive this morning. thought about taking antabuse today, but better not as it effects depression. just have to find some willpower.
thankyou all so much for reaching out to me, things are better i think xx

[Panno]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly that is great I'm so proud of you. It will get better, keep strong :l

[JackieClaire]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly,
I am so pleased for you. Believe me I know from personal experience that it's not easy opening up to your GP, but it was such a relief when I did. You did exactly the right thing for your health and the family.

J x
:l

[spuddleduck]

almost killed myself lastnight.

well done girly. thats a huge step for you in the right direction. for me the anxiety and depression is so much less for being AF, finally giving the ad's chance to work. im really pleased for you, take all the help you can get with this.....because you're worth it

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Well done Girly that was very brave of you on all counts. Things will get better, I just know it :l

[Road to Recovery]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly,
I am so happy for you. It must be such a relief to have this whole secret out in the open so you have the support of your doctor and your husband. You are going to be ok now, and we are all proud of you. Each day without alcohol, you will become stronger and stronger.
Take care.

[jessie]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Hi Girly, I want to join the chorus of praise. It was brave of you and now you can start the road to recovery. I'm just curious though. I've done very well with Antabuse previously and found that my depressions lifted once the AL left - I've never heard of anyone actually having increased depression as a side effect of Antabuse.

[papmom3]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly, I say this with the utmost respect and love for you: If you don't get the help you need and yes, that INCLUDES rehab, then you won't have to worry about having a job anymore because you will be dead. Attempting to kill yourself, whether intentional or not (and I suspect deep down it was intentional) requires more help than what we can give you and what you can do for yourself. Please ask yourself what about rehab scares you? You need to face up to your problems, put your big girl pants on and do whatever you need to to do to be there to watch your daughters grow up.
We will support you no matter what but none of us wants to go through again what we went through with Katie B. It was a horrible weekend and we all felt so helpless. Now she is getting the help she needs and her life will be better for it and she will be around to see her son grow up. Please take a lesson from her. No one that has problems with alcohol hides it so well that their co workers and supervisors don't suspect something is up.
Be well Girly and please don't be afraid to ask for professional help. You've already taken the first step by joining MWO and it wasn't that hard was it???

:l :h

[papmom3]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Hi Girly, Great job!! You did the right thing!! I just know you are now on the path of happiness. It will be hard work but so worth it. I'm so glad you are here with us today!!

:l :h

[techie]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Great job Girly I'm so happy you have a plan to tackle this head on. You're back on the right path to getting well. You'll remain always in my thought and prayers....John

[Cinders]

almost killed myself lastnight.

Girly,

I want to add my "atta girl" to this thread.

These are tough decisions to make but you will not be any good to anyone if you don't work on your sobriety. That is job one.

The best of luck on your journey and whatever you do, never, ever, give up giving up.

Cindi

[K9Lover]

almost killed myself lastnight.

I'm so proud of you Girly! You did the right thing, and now you will get the support you need and deserve. Please keep us posted on how you are doing. I'm glad you're still here my friend!
xoxo
K9