Got nothing left to fight with

[Pink Angel]

I am empty, exhausted, mouth full of ulcers, run down and want to give up. I can go on like this, living a lie. I cant pretend im AF when I know dam well i have slipped backwards into that dark hole again. Why do i do it to myself. I can see what its doing to me but i dont do anything about it. I have given up on myself. How sad is that. I dont even want pitty i just want it to stop. Its just too dam hard though. I am so sick of fighting with MYSELF!
I am depleted and have no fight left so where to from here? :upset:

[Road to Recovery]

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Hi Pink,
Please dont give up on yourself. You deserve so much better than to let AL take you down. You are not doing this to yourself, alcohol is doing this. Give yourself a few days, talk to a few people here, and start fighting again. I dont know of too many of us that beat it the first time, maybe not even the second time.
I know you are better than this. Stay strong Pink, we need you here.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Pink, it is hard but you are so worth the fight. Please don't give up trying.

[Marshy]

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Hi Pink Angel,

OK, what have you tried so far?
1.
2.
3.
etc

Keep anything in there that helped a bit, dump anything that didn't work.

What's next?
1.
2.
3

What are you going to try now? Write it down, make a list, make a plan.

[not tonight]

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Hi Pink Angel,

Take this one day at a time. Say "tomorrow I will not drink", and build from there. Don't give up the fight, there is so much to be gained. Once you get some AF time under your belt you will feel stronger, and things wont feel so dark. Stay with it. PM me anytime.

[Brave Hearted]

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Pink dont give up you did it before you can do it again. look at the meds section, i never got sorted untill I took baclofen be strong and keep posting.

[KateH1]

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Hi Pink Angel,
I wondered where you have been.....I have missed you in chat. Listen, you have only been here a few weeks....it takes some time to absorb what you are learning here and for clarity to help you take on the challenge of sobriety. You WILL Get It!

Remember, drinking leaves us feeling helpless and hopeless, at least it did me! Like everyone else has said, take it one day at a time....some time one hour at a time, at least in the beginning. Gather your "TOOLS" for how you will handle thoughts of drinking. For me, it was going for a 30 minute walk or taking a long bubble bath and yes, taking my Kudzu and L-Glutamine 3 times a day. For you, it might be different, but you can do it!

Please don't give up on yourself. This is not easy, nor instant. But, it can be done and you can do it!

XO Kate

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Pink Angel. I like the ideas presented so far - the notion that a written plan is a good idea. The notion of taking things one day or even one minute at a time. Focuing ONLY on not drinking for today. Giving up alcohol is not easy, but it can be done. If I can do it, then I know you can do it too. At the end of my drinking I felt so hopeless I wanted to kill myself. Today I have a full and vibrant life and so can you.

Strength and hope,

DG

[Popeye]

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Dear Pink Angel,
Some great advice has been given, but the thing that struck me most is that 'alcohol is doing this'.
You used a great word...'depleted'.
That word describes precisely to me what I have felt like more than once, and, though you probably don't believe it, if you give yourself just a little time and rest, the energy and the life force that seems missing will return.
For a long time I was also of the opinion that the fight was over; that I had lost and all I could do was lie back and take whatever crap the world had to throw at me. Everything that I thought made me happy to wake up for was gone and all that was left was the bottle, which is completely the wrong answer. All drinking ever did for me was take away my ability to function in any sensible and coordinated fashion, leaving me with less and less ability to pull myself out from under the avalanche of problems and worries that I perceived myself to be under.
It took me a very long time to truly see that the key problem; the foundation that all the other problems rested upon was my inability to stop drinking.
It's bloody hard and I needed a great deal of help to get to the stage where I could start solving my problems one at a time. At some point, I saw that most of these worries were a lot less significant and easily overcome than my addled brain imagined them to be.
My road isn't run yet and there's still a lot to do, but I'm determined to become the man that I wanted to be when I was a lad. I have a degree of optimism that I thought I'd lost forever and it all started when I gave myself some sober time and space to start moving my mental blockages and finding that there is a way out of the pit.
It's still a daily battle, but I'm going to win. I can smile and I do, when at one point I 'knew' it was over.
Please don't give up.

[Guitarista]

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Hi Pink Angel,

You will make your way out of that dark hole. As Popeye suggested, try to rest, and get some strength back. Try not to worry, and recharge your batteries gently. Maybe just roll with the flow at the moment, and not fight these feelings today, so you can give yourself some time to relax as much as you can, and try not to stress too much. Be very gentle on yourself now, and slowly get yourself a little plan together to start getting your life back, step by step. Small, baby step's first. Easy does it. If you're drinking, do it as safely as you can, with plenty of water in between. Get small amounts of food into you, even small pieces of toast, for example. Tomorrow's another day. Start getting a little plan together. You are posting here, so that show's you have hope. Go for it!

Best wishes, G.

(plenty of support on the 'underoo's' thread if that's any use)

[rebirth]

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Hi Pink,
I was feeling just like you. Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. But that was my turning point to do something about my helpless, hopeless feeling I had.Now that I have been sober for a while I see that the alcohol made me even more emotional. The drink just added to the problem .Alcohol is a big con!

I am learning to deal with my problems without masking it with drink and it is achievable. Try one day at a time Pink. it's really worth it. You will be so emplyed with yourself.

Sending you lots of inner strength. x

[wannachange]

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My dear Pink, I only just saw this message now. Oh my maybe I should visit more often... listen dear, I know how you are feeling, it feels all bleak and horrid now doesn't it? However do you remember me a while ago when I was where you were and I told you to go jump when you told me things were going to get better? Now its my turn to tell you, because they do get better, they really REALLY do! I am living proof that there is light at the end, not a dead carcass showing others that there is no hope... there is always, always a light at the end, it may seem bleak now... but the light is there and I am here holding your hand in the tunnel and will be there for you when you get out.
Big hugs!
Wanna

[techie]

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Angel things will brighten up. I've been in those dark places as well. You've reached out here which is great. Like Kate mentioned perhaps getting on chat may help you've been missed there. Please take the advice you been given and do be good to yourself. I'm on my way home so I'll check the chat room later. You take care sweetie and feel better. john xx

[gyco]

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hi pink,we are like vulchers,notice were swooping in for the kill.or just to show u there is a nother way,people will read this and say there is a way,but you hav to want to go to no lenghts,to get it,most of it is in in yur ball park,there is always hope,again you have to hav som faith,my dear i wish you well,weve all been where youve been,time and time again, gyco

[tlrgs]

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hey there pinky just keep doingyour best and coming and posting everytime you write some go back and read it a few time and you will find the strenght within yourself .. to get where you want to be in life... you learn alot just comeing and reading and chating ... might not seem like you are but in some small ways you are ...remeber nothing happens over night... but in time everything becomes clear