I can't start my Day 1..

[Audrey14]

Hi everybody!!!!

I need some advice...I'm trying to start Day 1, but i can't ...I left my job and now for 5 days drinking 3 bottles wine per day - starting from 11 a.m. till 11 p.m. ..... I never had such crazy consumption..I know the biggest problem is this anxiety which i simply cover with AL..i have to find new job but i just far away from reality...And feel very, very hopeless..Am i crazy??? I know could be better to go to hospital but i can 't - it's a small town and my ex-husband is a doctor..Everybody knows me too..
i still want to it alone..To free myself from this hell..

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

I can't start my Day 1..

Hello Audrey, I suppose the simple answer is dont pick up that first drink, ah but if only it was that simple we wouldnt have places like MWO and AA.
Is it possible to get a lift or a taxi to a neighbouring town/doctor/hospital and seek some medical help? If not and it is a case of your needing that help then that should override what people will think of you. Its none of their damn business and besides I am sure many of them have skeletons in their own cupboards. Besides which doctors are sworn to patient confidentiality, so do ask for their help.

[greeneyes]

I can't start my Day 1..

Hi Audrey! First thing I can think of to help you is to advise you to change that "I can't" to "I CAN!" I am not sure (from reading your previous posts) if you have read the MWO book and made a plan. Have you? If not, that's a good place to start. Relative to the plan, I think this thread will be helpful https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...lan-41280.html. And this one. https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html All the best!

[Marshy]

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Hi Audrey,

No, you're not crazy. It's the alcohol that is making you feel so terrible.

I did a similar thing when I left a job, drank all day, every day, for about three months and ended up just drinking and not eating. That's when I decided to do something about it.

I don't have any advice. I just want you to know that I understand what it's like, and I hope you choose to stop and take action soon.

Take care.

[Audrey14]

I can't start my Day 1..

KTAB;933349 wrote: Hello Audrey, I suppose the simple answer is dont pick up that first drink, ah but if only it was that simple we wouldnt have places like MWO and AA.
Is it possible to get a lift or a taxi to a neighbouring town/doctor/hospital and seek some medical help? If not and it is a case of your needing that help then that should override what people will think of you. Its none of their damn business and besides I am sure many of them have skeletons in their own cupboards. Besides which doctors are sworn to patient confidentiality, so do ask for their help.

Thank you for advice...I know that from logical point of wiew you're right...I need medical help and i'm ready to go to my capital city to meet a specialist..But not today.. I'm reading articles and trying to keep my mind busy..Especially i'm reading about "Yoga and alchocolism", because i practice yoga (of course not in the last 5 days...:upset I know that it can help me..only if i can concentrate to do first step...

[Audrey14]

I can't start my Day 1..

Marshy;933430 wrote: Hi Audrey,

No, you're not crazy. It's the alcohol that is making you feel so terrible.

I did a similar thing when I left a job, drank all day, every day, for about three months and ended up just drinking and not eating. That's when I decided to do something about it.

I don't have any advice. I just want you to know that I understand what it's like, and I hope you choose to stop and take action soon.

Take care.

Thank you a lot Marshy..:thanks::thanks::thanks:Thats what i needed - some word of comfort..I'm alone at home..With cat..Still didn't go out, so i have no wine and almost no food
I'm sweating (here is about 28/29"), but i put my yoga pants and shirt and will try to do session...All morning i hade battle between this "yoga" version and walking to the closest shop to buy "morning wine"..
At the moment i have anxiety, fear, unsatisfaction with myself etc. I'll start Than i'll return to the page
Have a great and peaceful day!!!!

[gyco]

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Audrey14;933335 wrote: Hi everybody!!!!

I need some advice...I'm trying to start Day 1, but i can't ...I left my job and now for 5 days drinking 3 bottles wine per day - starting from 11 a.m. till 11 p.m. ..... I never had such crazy consumption..I know the biggest problem is this anxiety which i simply cover with AL..i have to find new job but i just far away from reality...And feel very, very hopeless..Am i crazy??? I know could be better to go to hospital but i can 't - it's a small town and my ex-husband is a doctor..Everybody knows me too..
i still want to it alone..To free myself from this hell..

hi 14,day one my dear is like all the rest,there a start to each and every day,if we go beyond thinking of the day were in,we get confused,another thing is,most of the people your concerned about knowing,KNOW, they dont no how to help you,many doctors dont,this is all about you wanting your Health back,go to the hospital or detox or a treatment center out of town,,get your berring s strate,3 bottles of wine a day is a lot,by the way your not crazy,you have an addiction,it will rip everything from your soul,untill your ready to seek help,at no xspense,i hope ive helped,gyco:goodjob:

[Audrey14]

I can't start my Day 1..

greeneyes;933384 wrote: Hi Audrey! First thing I can think of to help you is to advise you to change that "I can't" to "I CAN!" I am not sure (from reading your previous posts) if you have read the MWO book and made a plan. Have you? If not, that's a good place to start. Relative to the plan, I think this thread will be helpful https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...lan-41280.html. And this one. https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html All the best!

Yes, you're right!!! i didn't have a plan!!! And for 2 months i was working in a bar..It's not really my profile but i was in "no way" situation, as we split with my boyfriend who provided everyday life...So, i had some own money but i started to drink again almost everyday..
i left job because of all those bottles of alchohol around me..I understood that bar and access to alchohol isn't really place where i will heal myself...
Yes, i need a plan!!! And i need posting here every day...:thanks:

[havefaith]

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REMEMBER......
YOU DO THE SAME THING, YOU WILL GET THE SAME RESULT!
TAKE A CHANCE , GET MEDICAL HELP, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO LOSE?
i WOULD HATE TO SEE YOU SLIP AWAY FURTHER.........

[Audrey14]

I can't start my Day 1..

havefaith;933513 wrote: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REMEMBER......
YOU DO THE SAME THING, YOU WILL GET THE SAME RESULT!
TAKE A CHANCE , GET MEDICAL HELP, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO LOSE?
i WOULD HATE TO SEE YOU SLIP AWAY FURTHER.........

Thank you!!!! I was looking today for doctors contacts in i- net..It was first time in my life..There are detox centres too (in capital city) but they are private clinics and not affordable for me..The thing what i can do is to go for conselling with a doctor - specialist...

Thanks again for support!!! Still sober and at home...Drinking water and milk...

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

I can't start my Day 1..

Hi Audrey, well done this morning and on the water and milk. Hang in there the cravings will pass, the day will get easier. You can do this.

[havefaith]

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I was drinking everyday -Vodka (quite a lot). Been in an out of Rehab, AA ,you name it for years
& I just turned forty in june. By chance I picked up this book- No way out, Read it & went to the doc, got a script for Topamax(never tried meds for drinking,go figure?) I haven't had a drink in 20days,and I don't even crave it!( where was this Book years ago!)
So if you have insurance, I strongly advise you to gve it a try! I am on 75mg a day. Good Luck!

[Audrey14]

I can't start my Day 1..

Hi KTAB and havefaith!!!

Thank you for supporte and advices!!!!

Did my yoga session..The worst which i ever had..Palpitation, sweating (ok here is hot too..)..Sitting in the front of mirror - asking myself - what girl you're doing to yourself??? I'm happy that i still didn't gain weight but actually when i have such drinking periods i have no flat abdomen anymore...Thankfully other parts are still slim

Now here is almost 5 p.m. and i have to go out.. Will walk to the beach, meet my daughter.. Pity, but we're living separate (she's almost 18), having wonderful relationship and she knows about my problem.. She loves me anyway..I have to go out..here in flat i'm getting crazy..And the biggest fear is it for me now to go buy some food because in the next shelf is AL...

[Popeye]

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Hi Audrey.
You're doing great.
Just think about how good you will feel tomorrow with no AL.
It is hard I know, but it does get so much better.
Tomorrow's yoga session will be better and so will the abdomen.

[Kimberley]

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BREATHE!! I only read your original post- but it was fulll oif anxiety Others have better experience and advice - so all I will say is GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK from being emotionall

Take whatever you can from other people's advice but this is your own journey. Don't punish yourself- you didn't ask for this.

Hope to see see you on the boards. YOU can do this
K x