I can't start my Day 1..

[techie]

I can't start my Day 1..

Hello 14. I wanted to offer my best wishes and support to you. The others have given you great advice. I do know you can do this. Try and harness all the resources available to you. Your doctor may know of other detox options that you could utilize. You need to ask. In the meantime, use your yoga, and this site, or the collective "we" for support. Keep posting and sharing....john

[skyslimit]

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Hi 14. I could have written your post last weekend. I was on a huge bender-Jack Daniel's. Everything else I can have a drink or 2 but not the Jack. I was not eating either. I started taking the supplements while drinking and for some reason 2 nights ago I finished off the last of my Jack and woke up the next morning KNOWING this had to be it. I didn't have the desire to drink yesterday but I had the HABIT of drinking. I successfully fought through it. I was dizzy, light headed so I took my supplements and realized - I NEED TO EAT! I was so used to drinking my dinner it didn't even occur to me. My 3 year old thought I was crazy drinking milk with her at bedtime. I felt so much better. I will not drink today either because then I will just have to go through the detox again (and I'm sure it's not over yet). I have a plan somewhat in place-I'm also using the tools on Smart Recovery and I am feeling like I can do this for the first time in 20 years. You can do it too!!!

[Audrey14]

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Thanks for new posts!!! Yes, i'm not sober...But as Kimberley says - don't harm yourself.. Yes, and i'm very emotionall..
I went to the beach (15 min. walk..I walk a lot that's maybe why i can be still slim), swim, than met my daughter.. but anyway before beach i went to buy wine... First wine at 17.30!!!! White and light but wine... I had so deep anxiety which i can only cover with AL.. Now i'm alone again..With my cat who hates my drinking..She's Persian Exot, almost 11 years old and very smart...Yes, i have here 2 male friends but they are not really helping.. They aren't alcholics but they like to drink..And when i'm drunk i'm very capricious and always argue, get over - emotional and after conflicting discusions (about politic for example) throw out them of my flat...
So, anyway i feel more confident and ready to start tomorrow..I hope to have totally AL free day not only reduction..
Thanks and good night!!!
I'm not a big fan of american movies (sorry, sorry, i'm more British and Europian production fan..) but i'm going to watch my favorite OC..And Kirsten was addicted too...

[savon19]

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I've been out of a job several times... I think it's normal to go through a sort of grieving process. It's a big life change.

I think it's good to give yourself a little time to kind of lick your wounds and not even worry about a new job. Then, set a date to start looking. I'm talking like a week or two... where you won't have to get up & feel anxious about no job.

[jessie]

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:lHi Audry, I'm exactly where you are, and the anxiety is killing me. Pm me if you want to - we can do this together.

[Audrey14]

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Hi Jessie!!! Woke up with crazy anxiety again..Drunk the rest of wine - left 1 glass.. I know that i can't live like this...Here is 3 a.m. and i have to sleep.. It is a worst time in all my history..i mean drinking..But i hope that after darkest night will come the lightest morning...Will try to sleep...Hugs!!!

[jessie]

I can't start my Day 1..

How are you doing Audry, you are in my thoughts.

[Audrey14]

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jessie;933912 wrote: How are you doing Audry, you are in my thoughts.

Hi jessie!!!!

Yes, i tought about you reading your posts and messagies..This week was the worst in last 3 years when really my problem started to increase...Last night was here a big storm and rain..I woke up..After wine was drinking water and herbal drops for heart to calm..Not very successful..Feel sleepy now and in the same time anxiety again...

You????

[Audrey14]

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Hi everybody and thaks to all supportive toughts and advices!!!!

I'm moving from ASAP forum to Just started out.. And change tittle from "I can't " to "I can".

Best wishes to you who were with me yesterday...

[Ravenscallingme]

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Hi Audrey-

I also had a hard time getting through my day 1 because of anxiety.

I've been taking 5HTP supplements whenever I get feelings of anxiety and they go away. I know for a fact that it would be damn hard for me to stop using if I didn't have these pills. Try em out, maybe. The anxiety feelings should vanish in 10mins after you take them.

Actually, having read the rest of the thread, it sounds like you're having similar issues with serotonin and gaba levels, like I am. Consider trying a GABA supplement too for insomnia or being all wired-up and unable to relax later in the day.

[crawling_key]

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I think the anxiety may be caused by the cravings. Or by the thought that you plan not to drink and this makes you anxious. Ever notice how once you give in to your cravings and decide to drink you anxiety is immediately lessened? I would try 3 grams of L-Glutamine in the morning and then 5 grams a few hours before I would drink. That usually worked for me. Also, some pharma gaba may also help with the anxiety.

[spacebebe01]

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Hi well done for getting on here. I am not going to drink today, I feel ill with the withdrawals but my drinking has got really bad over the past 6 years or so and is getting worse its just 24/7 blackout am am sick all the time and scared that i am killing myself i have got three lovely children and cant bear the thought of leaving themand hurting them more than i already have.

[moglor]

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Hi Audrey, you might want to take a look at Dr. Olivier Ameisen's book "The End of my Addiction" as well as the various threads in the "Topamax, Campral, Naltrexone, Baclofen, other meds" forum on this board. I, too, struggled with terrible anxiety, and baclofen has helped me a tremendous amount, by reducing both the anxiety and the cravings.

[sapphire1]

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spacebebe01;939684 wrote: Hi well done for getting on here. I am not going to drink today, I feel ill with the withdrawals but my drinking has got really bad over the past 6 years or so and is getting worse its just 24/7 blackout am am sick all the time and scared that i am killing myself i have got three lovely children and cant bear the thought of leaving themand hurting them more than i already have.

Hi There Space,
Well done for your decision not to drink today:goodjob: I know how bad you are feeling right now, as I have been there many many many times myself. The withdrawals are terrible and the anxiety, guilt shame all enough to send you right back to the bottle!!! You can do this one day at a time. You probably know already but I will gently remind you ti drink lots of water; fruit juices, some herbal tea; take some vitamins and supps if you have some; rest; stay quiet ad calm; play some soothing music through headphones; just get through these few days one hour at a time.........it will all pass and soon you will feel better!!!! The sky will look a bit bluer; the sun a bit brighter; the world a little less frightening......keep posting on here....there are hundreds of wonderful people here to support and encourage you every step of the way....I have children too so I know exactly how you feel...but you can turn all this into a happy story for yourself and them :h:h

[BradyKelly]

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Audrey14;933335 wrote: Hi everybody!!!!

I need some advice...I'm trying to start Day 1, but i can't ...I left my job and now for 5 days drinking 3 bottles wine per day - starting from 11 a.m. till 11 p.m. ..... I never had such crazy consumption..I know the biggest problem is this anxiety which i simply cover with AL..i have to find new job but i just far away from reality...And feel very, very hopeless..Am i crazy??? I know could be better to go to hospital but i can 't - it's a small town and my ex-husband is a doctor..Everybody knows me too..
i still want to it alone..To free myself from this hell..

Hi Audrey - :welcome: I'm pretty sure that anxiety was quite strong before you hit the AL, but AL going makes it worse by affecting your nrevous system negatively. People with no anxiety and no history of drinking can feel anxious after drinking.

How about seeing somebody; a local doctor, clinic, psychiatrist and maybe getting the anxiety treated properly, with proper drugs if needed, instead of your DIY approach which is not very healthy. I speak from experience with this exact matter.