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[angel77]

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K9 - Just wanted to send a little message to say I hope you are ok. If you need a non- drinking buddy to try again with I am here and still very much in the early days!

Angel

[not tonight]

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K9,
Your post took me by surprise this morning. Whether today is 1 or 161 for you, just remember that you love your daughter more than alcohol.

[Meabh]

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So sorry to hear that K9, but please don't feel bad, it doesn't mean all the days you were alcohol free have somehow gone away ! you've done great and will continue to do so.

If you feel really bad about it you could slip further down the slippery slope. I admire all of you who abstain whether for a week or a year. Just climb back onto that wagon and look forward not back.
:l

PS what are you going to do with the cat ?

[Doggygirl]

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Sorry to hear about this K9. Good that you came here and fessed up right away. Back on the wagon we go, right? :l to you and Kitty.

It would be Day 1 for me too. (and has been in the past) Mentally, I can't have any mind games going on that even HINT that drinking, for 1 day, is somehow OK. That would lead me to a very bad place. Just my personal take on it for me.

DG

[greeneyes]

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K9L, Get right back to sobriety and don't use whatever negatives you may feel as an excuse to continue. When you're on solid ground, figure out why that happened and how to prevent it in the future. Today is a new day! Onward and upward!

[Kimberley]

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Aw K-9 sorry to hear that. If you can, identify the trigger, learn from it and be proud of the long time you did AF and aim to do the same and more next time.

You are usually such a positive sounding person - I hope you can get over this little glitch and get your confidence back.

K x

ps lucky kitty!

[mama bear]

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K9........good call on the kitty and back on the antabuse....was it worth it??
I call it a slip.....others won;t, but either way, I LURVE YOU and am so FREAKIN PROUD OF YOU!!!!

[Change]

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K9Lover;955104 wrote: Is that really 160 days down the drain???

Absolutely NOT K9Lover, it is not 160 days down the drain... Just jump back on the wagon. You have all the willpower of the Southern Star Army!

[rubywillow]

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K, I know how bad you'll feel today. You didn't lose all that sober time, that was a win. You lost one day, and learned a hard lesson. Now use that lesson so the next time you are tempted (and we all know you will be!) you will be stronger.
OK, just please don't name the cat Bud, or Margharita, etc. :H A former neighbor of mine once picked up a doberman a few miles from her house because hers had been missing all day. When she drove up into her yard, hers was on the porch. The one in her back seat did NOT enjoy the ride. (Her husband returned it to the yard where she'd taken it; if dogs could talk!!) I can't swear alcohol was involved.
Be good to yourself today, and reflect on how really awful, horrible, terrible, really really bad drinking made you feel, OK? :hug:

[spuddleduck]

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oh k9, i know just how you feel. i messed up after nearly 3 months. so bloody annoyed at myself. unfortunately i think it did open the gates for me to drink and ive had a few 'slips' since then. for me i went back to day 1 but, and its a big BUT, i have to keep my record of time spent sober (see my sig). i do this for me, nobody else and whatever is right for you go with it. whats done is done, you cant change that so just get back on board, try and learn from it, and keep up the good work

[OverIt2007]

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Hey Girly!

You OK? Can you post a bit more about what happened, and how you got a cat to boot??

Did you stop taking your Antabuse (obviously). I did the same thing last month. I stopped taking it, and low and behold, right back to EXACT same habits and patterns. Maybe it was a good experiment to learn thats what happens?

I have faith that you will get right back on the wagon, with or even without taking the Antabuse. You have logged in so much sober time that you know which side is better to be on. You know you never want to be that drunk lady in her P.J.'s again!!!

I have FAITH in your girl!!! I know you will get right back up on that damn horse and keep on a riding!!!

:l GIDDIYUP K-9!

[hippie37]

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greeneyes;955332 wrote: K9L, Get right back to sobriety and don't use whatever negatives you may feel as an excuse to continue. When you're on solid ground, figure out why that happened and how to prevent it in the future. Today is a new day! Onward and upward!

I agree. Find out what triggered this. What needs to be changed? What is still not being addressed in your life? Where are your needs not being met? etc.

Many Blessings
Phil

[Time to change]

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K9 I'm sure you'll get straight back on that wagon, You've had some great advice for me and I'm so grateful to you. I hope you're ok hun xx

[neart]

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KTAB;955182 wrote: Hi K9 bummer on that decision. Whether you count as day 1 or 1 day in 161, does it really matter, I dont think so.
Today is a new day and a new dawn, its all about what you do with it. Coming here and being honest was the first step, now onwards and upwards sweet lady.

Hi K9, I feel for you, I really do xxx The most important thing is that you remember, like Ktab and others said, that today is a new day, a fresh start. I was thinking about you earlier, and about your days. Isn't it kind of like when we are on a diet, checking the weighing scales and being delighted (or not so...) about the numbers we see coming up. But that's not what losing weight is about - not crash dieting and loosing a few pounds - it's about a gradual shift in attitude towards ourselves and our bodies, and about how you feel and how you look after yourself - not what number of pounds you are. I kind of think it's the same with counting days - sure it's fun when it's going well, but it's no help in the tough times, and it's not what this journey is all about.

You are so loved here, and I for one love your posts, esp your weekend threads Please don't beat yourself up - this is just one step on your journey. And perhaps your new cat is a mascot for a fresh start today!

with love and hugs :l:l:l

[jessie]

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speedwobble

No, not down the drain - see it as a major speed wobble and keep counting...