Today my brain went completely. I think it's because I didn't sleep properly last night, which was a result of eating too much chocolate. I got tired then all my old thinking, suspicions came back. It was as though I can't/don't trust anyone, nor anything at all. I really wanted to drink to take the thoughts away, an escape and to be honest I didn't give a stuff about lapsing back into my old habits. It had to be better than how horrid I felt inside with all that bad feeling squirming around like a big, fat, evil snake.
So my brain was technically drunk, but not physically. Some people say to me make sure you have things to do, to take your mind of it. Well I have plenty of offers but the only thing I could do was go to bed watching a documentary on the Battle of Britain on iplayer. I know not very much about the B of B because I fell asleep for 2 hours on it.
Still sober, still feeling sh!t, but still sober. Tomorrow is but another day.
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