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[Margaret345]

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I'm pretty new here as well and understand how bad the cravings are. hugs to you!

[Doggygirl]

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Hi cuckoo! Good to see you here today - still taking it one moment at a time. The "pain" of dealing with intense cravings and these minutes feeling like hours WILL ease up after a while if you just find a way to keep going and not drinking. One moment at a time will see you through. We can do this.

DG

[cuckoosnest83]

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Margaret345 thank you so much for the hugs. Living alone and dealing with this addiction they are much appreciated, even though they are virtual.

Doggygirl, it is nice that you say "we can do this". It makes me feel that I am not going at this alone. Thank you for that.

[Doggygirl]

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cuckoosnest83;969360 wrote: It makes me feel that I am not going at this alone.

We are not alone. Isn't that a wonderful thing? I was SO alone in the depth of my despair during those last few years of drinking. I am so grateful I found everyone here at MWO, and more recently at AA. I don't ever want to feel alone again. We don't have to. :l

[cuckoosnest83]

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Again, Doggygirl, thank you. It is a wonderful thing not to feel alone. One thing I need to do, as you state in your post, is regain my contact with AA. I do need the face to face contact.

[Chillgirl]

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Cuckoo - I just wanted to offer you my support and say well done for coming back here and posting and for pouring the poison down the drain. Stick around and get the support you need, you are by no means alone, we are all in this together :l

[magic]

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Hello 26,

I have nothing inspiring to say but
you have been in my thoughts, today.:l


magic xx

[cuckoosnest83]

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Chillgirl, thank you. I remember being in chat with you one day and really enjoying our conversation. I will be sticking around and continuing to post. I think a large part of why I felt I was in such a downward spiral is I felt I could no longer come back on here and post after trying and failing so many times. I realize giving up is not an option.

Magic, thank you for showing up. You need not have anything inspiring to say. Your presence means more to me than any words. I can't tell you how much I miss you and the others. Love, 45.

[dancelot]

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Cuckoo - I'm sending out prayers too. I will second DG on going back to AA. When I was considering it, you offered me your support and encouragement, which gave me the courage to get in there. That live unconditional support really is priceless - and real life hugs.

I too tend to isolate myself - besides the obvious benefits, AA is always good for getting me out of the house, and having some positive social interaction. You may want to come back over to the AA thread too - that's where I found you guys. I wish you the best - please take care. :l :h

[techie]

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cuckoosnest83;969630 wrote: Chillgirl, thank you. I remember being in chat with you one day and really enjoying our conversation. I will be sticking around and continuing to post. I think a large part of why I felt I was in such a downward spiral is I felt I could no longer come back on here and post after trying and failing so many times. I realize giving up is not an option.

Magic, thank you for showing up. You need not have anything inspiring to say. Your presence means more to me than any words. I can't tell you how much I miss you and the others. Love, 45.

Thinking of you Coo. I lived in southern jersey for a number of years by LBI. I worked in Middletown, Morristown, & Piscataway but was fortunate to have a virtual office mostly during that time. I traveled mostly. Stick closely here. We can all pull through this crap together when we join at the hip. Wishing you well.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Dancelot, I just got home tonight as I met up with a friend who knows about my drinking problem. Thank you for your prayers. I have lists of AA meetings both here in NJ and also in DE. There are 4 meetings in DE that I really love but it is a bit of a hike. I would like to find meetings closer to home that I like but what that means is me getting my b_tt out there and finding them. This is something I will work on.

Techie, thank you for thinking of me. With my feelings of isolation those words mean a lot. I will stick closely here and as you say together we can all pull through this crap.

[paguy]

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Hi Cuckoo:

Just wanted to say hello and offer my support to you. All of us are in this together. Be strong and stay focused. We can all do this together.

John

[cuckoosnest83]

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Thank you, Paguy. Today brings a new start.

[janka]

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i am a drunk

[cuckoosnest83]

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Janka, none of us has to be. I'm struggling to beat this addiction but every time I pick up a drink it is my choice to do. There is the addiction telling me in my head I need it, have to have it, etc. but it is when I say either of those 2 phrases to myself "f&#$ it" or "who cares" that the alcohol wins. Janka, stay on the boards post, start a new thread asking for help and people will respond.

Please take care of yourself.