Too little too late?

[biketorque]

Hi people, I'm new here and very sceptical about this sort of thing, but I think I need to get it sorted once and for all.

Firstly, I apologize if I babble on, its just me...

I've been drinking for nearly 10 years, im 27, and drink up to and excess of 6 litre of 5.3% vol Cider a day, I have done for most of the time.

I wake up shaking, anxious, panicking needing more drink to stop this. I cant even walk to the local shop unless I've had a beer because my symptoms are so bad its scary, I refuse to cross a road.

I'm scared I'm going to kill myself one day with alcohol or end up doing something stupid.

I've been to the Docs, and they put me on librium, they worked, but then we had a family tragady, so I turned to drink and now the doctor wont put me back on Libruim.

I really need help with this, I want to build my business in photography, but with shakes, alcohol, i cant, It terrifes me thinking I might die before my Dad.

any advice would be really appreciated, and sorry for babbling on.

Damien :thanks:

[Choochie]

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BT :welcome:. You have come to a good place with lots of supportive people. I am 63 days alcohol free and attribute my success to this site and of course the desire to stop drinking. You have to want to stop.

It sounds like you might need to continue under the care of a doctor?? Depending on how bad your withdrawals are, they can be serious. Would rehab be a possibility?

Post a bit more so we can better address your exact issues. There are people here on the meds thread who have taken things to help them not drink, like Balcofen. Then, there are others like me who went cold turkey.

Here is a link to get you started. Read throughout the website as much as possible, post your questions and people will help.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Also, a link to the meds thread:

Topamax, Campral, Naltrexone, Baclofen, other meds - My Way Out Forums

Choochie

[hart]

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Hey BT, I second the welcome. It does sound like u need supervised detox. I don't want to scare you but it's very important to be supervised when withdrawing with the amount and length of time you have been drinking. I'm sure the doc would help you. He didn't want to put u on Lithium if you are drinking. If he simply refuses to help find someone else. You have your whole life ahead of you, you can have your photo shop, you can have a fun, healthy, happy life. We all have been where u r and we are here to help.

[Wagoneer]

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BT - the advice you have gotten is spot-on. I cannot add anything other than I will send you healing thoughts and prayers. I am 36 days sober and this place has changed my life. If you let it. You are stronger than you think you are. You are stronger than alcohol. Talk to your doctor and make a plan. I wish you the very best of luck. Please keep us posted.

[biketorque]

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Thank you so much for the direction forward people, I am sure I will find the site very useful and I look forward to keeping you all posted!

I do want to stop, I really do, my dreams and aspirations are higher than the need for alcohol, But I need meds to stop the withdrawal.

As for Detox, I'm not sure I would have the mental restraint to cope from been cut off from the world to be honest. I'd have no one to talk to, no one to see... just feel isolated.

I have to point out at this point I have no support off family and very few friends understand/know what I'm going through, so that just adds insult to injury I guess.

Thanks again people

[hart]

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BT, I went thru Detox. There are lots of people to talk to. There are the nurses, others in ur ward, they monitor your vitals. Detox can last 1-3 days. Mine lasted 24 hours. One can endure anything for 24 hours in order to insure good health. I didn't want to say this, but hon, heavy, long term drinkers can DIE while detoxing if not under medical supervision. It's rare, but it can happen.

[biketorque]

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hart;1018260 wrote: BT, I went thru Detox. There are lots of people to talk to. There are the nurses, others in ur ward, they monitor your vitals. Detox can last 1-3 days. Mine lasted 24 hours. One can endure anything for 24 hours in order to insure good health. I didn't want to say this, but hon, heavy, long term drinkers can DIE while detoxing if not under medical supervision. It's rare, but it can happen.

So I've heard Hart, not good, so they say it never rains but it pours. I really am kind of stuck in a dead end not knowing what to do, I dont know for a start how my body will react when I stop, and Im slowly beginning to think detox maybe the way forward.

[hart]

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Chin up BT. Think of it as suffering from your art (photography)

[JackieClaire]

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:welcome: biketorque,

I'm in the UK too just up the road in Northumberland.
I'm sad to say I've been through several de-toxes, always on a daily in patient basis over 8/10 days. There's plenty of people to talk to and you won't be alone.

I was always de-toxed using diazapam (valium). My last one was a home de-tox through my doctor starting 7th July 2009 and I've been AF ever since.

Wishing you the best, give me a shout if I can help in anyway.

[biketorque]

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Thanks guys, I think next week will be the end of the past, and the beginning of a new happier Damien (me obviously)

And dont worry JackieClaire, I think you might of just got yourself a new best friend

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hi BikerT, just wanted to welcome you, you have made a very important decision by logging on today. I honestly believe this place saves lives.
Keep safe
KTAB

[_EndOfTheLine_]

Too little too late?

biketorque;1018024 wrote:

I've been drinking for nearly 10 years, im 27, and drink up to and excess of 6 litre of 5.3% vol Cider a day, I have done for most of the time.

Sounds like Tesco Strong Dry cider to me. Drinking it right now. I'm 26 ha

You don't need to go to detox, just find an understanding GP. PM if you;'ve got questions about it.

[Guest]

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It's not necessarily the GPs fault you can't get any more sedatives, it's because they don't want to start dishing them out to people who might get addicted to them, or drink on them. They are very dangerous drugs and there have been stories of people drinking with them and dying. I'd say the GP was only trying to be responsible - especially since they are professional with some responsbility. Best thing to do is ask your GP for a referral to local alcohol services, there'll also be some you can refer yourself to. Just run a search for alcohol service in your area.

I'm 35 but recognised I had a problem 7 years ago - about your age, but I didn't have withdrawls back then. Alcohol was affecting all my life decisions though, and really starting to get me into trouble. I've still not got quite to where I want to be but had a good sober spell this year that I'm hoping to get on with again - ODAT.

By the way the sooner you stop, the more chance you have of recovery. I thought I was too young at 28, thought I had some years left in me. Luckily I did but I'm a freak, and not without some very bad heartache.

[biketorque]

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I appreciate what you are saying UkBlonde, and thank you for your honesty. I have asked the GP if there is anything else they can put me on but all I seem to get is ummm and ahh'ing, and I'm now considering moving to a different GP, he knew I wasnt touching the drink when on meds, but I slipt when a family member passed away. I went back and asked for a second chance.

I guess we all make bad choices in life. One worse mistake I made was a month ago, Dont critisise me for been honest! I was attacked by a stray japanise akita in Shipley, Yorkshire, and went to A&E, following morning at the GP, they gave me tablets (2 sets) 1 to which you cant take alcohol with, they ended up been crammed in my bedside cabinet, the other course I fulfilled.

We are all entitled to mistakes, but I guess for some reason I'm struggling to learn by mine.

[betty boop]

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Hiya Damien, I'm in the UK too in Notts ........

I did the Librium Detox too a month after JC ...........

It worked a treat for me, and I am still AF too ......... about a month after the detox I went back to my doctor as I couldn't sleep and I asked for Antabuse so I couldn't drink!! he refused to give it me but would give me more librium for another detox, which I didn't need!!!!!

My message is, look for another doctor!!!! and please keep us posted!!!

Love & Hugs, BB xxx