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[choice]

Can't take this anymore :-(

:welcome: Danae,
I really remember that feeling of being too scared to drink because I was worried about loosing things that were important to me and being too scared to stop. :l:h It feels so intense. Best news I have for you is it gets better. I think it's good to ramble. Do whatever it takes to stay sober if that is what your desire is. I'm really impressed by what you have been able to do in just one day. Talking to the hubby is HUGE! He sounds very supportive. In the beginning I would try and just focus on being happy I didn't have a hangover in the mornings. It really helped.
Take care,
Choice

[AMELIA]

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Good for you Danae.
Your husband sounds great. Use his support and be open and honest with him. A good therapist will help. Be gentle with yourself.
Wishing you all the best.
Amelia

[sapphire1]

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Hi Danae and a big welcome to MWO.
I would like to offer you support for what may well be one of the best decisions of your entire life. A life without drinking is absolutely nothing to fear. Your clarity of mind will improve; your ability to make decisions; your simple joys will jump out at you etc. etc. I lost so much due to drinking alcohol. I lost a great business, my driving licence, my home and my self respect. I lost years sobbing into the bottom of a bottle and thinking that life was such a cruel and heartless ordeal. I blamed everyone and everything on my drinking. I would say things like "I drink because I had a rough upbringing" '"because my marriage didnt work" because....because....because.....I convinced myself that I NEEDED to drink to stop the painful anxiety/depression. One day after many many humiliations and hating myself to the core, I had had enough and so began the slow climb back up. I have tried to get sober many times and using many different methods, but the one thing that has worked for me and now keeps me on track is my absolute commitment to a better life and never ever wanting to go to the pits of hell again. THat means total abstinence forever.......it is such a gift that you give yourself.....I have my self respect back...my resilience, my health is improving very quickly. Danae there is nothing to give up when you stop drinking, there is everything to gain. Strength and grace Saffxx

[DriftyAlison0]

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Moderation takes a lot of willpower and a plan. If you don't stick to it, then your not modding. Modding is great for those who can and Abstaining is great for those who can't. How about doing a 30 day AF period and then think to see if you can moderate.

Moderation is not easy and not everyone can do it.

[Seethepony]

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Danae, you might want to read up on baclofen in the meds section of this forum. I was doing a good job of drinking myself to death when I started taking it, without really believing it would do me any favours. To my astonishment I was suddenly going a week, two weeks and more without even thinking about booze. I know some people don't like the idea of using meds - but if it makes the difference between a life of constant hangovers and panic attacks, and consecutive weeks of sobriety and good health - basically, being "normal" again - I say, why not?