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    #16
    always a struggle

    well he offered me campral, not sure if thats the right path for me
    Say, Mr. Fields, I read in the paper where you consumed two quarts of liquor a day. What would your father think about that?
    WC: He'd think I was a sissy.

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      #17
      always a struggle

      professionalwino;1039877 wrote: well just got back from the shrink, saying out loud what ive been doing has been a real wake up call.....he refused to prescribe me baclofen, he had never heard of it being used as a way to stop drinking. he gave me 48 hrs worth of xanex and said I needed to check into an emergency room a.s.a.p. Really consisdering it. anyone that can tell me more about this process, id really appreciate it.
      Hi PW,
      I've never had to check into an emergency room but I have done a few medically supervised de-toxes. It was done using a high dose of valium (diazapam) at the beginning then tapering down to nil over a course of 5/7 days.

      I've also got some experience of campral and I'm afraid it won't be able to do it's job while you're still drinking.

      Sounds like you're starting to get some pretty serious withdrawal symptoms there, please go along with your shrink's recommendations, hun. It'll be well worth it in the end.

      J x
      :l
      It could be worse, I could be filing.
      AF since 7/7/2009

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        #18
        always a struggle

        "What I want? have a glass or two of wine a night and be able to sleep. thats all i really want."

        Hm, I hate to say it, but that's what we all want. And like Mick Jagger says, "You cain't always...etc."

        You're obviously in deep shit with the alcohol - seizures, heart palpitations etc are not mysterious little love letters from your body, they are full-blown S.O.S messages from a ship that's fed up of icebergs. Don't be a schmuck, you don't have time to go looking for a way of enjoying a glass or two of wine with a meal, because you're clearly not the kind of person who can do that. And there is no secret buried in this forum or anywhere else that will transform you from a medical fuck-up into a smooth talking French dude for whom a bottle of red with the fois gras is as natural as listening to Johnny Halliday and skiing at Tignes.

        Your job is hopelessly incompatible with your mortality; you have to quit one or the other. At the moment you're like a junkie in the employ of Pablo Escobar. You'd need Shackletonesque willpower to get yourself out of the spot you're in, and, pal, you ain't got it. So do yourself a favour, get another job!

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          #19
          always a struggle

          Seethepony;1039967 wrote: "What I want? have a glass or two of wine a night and be able to sleep. thats all i really want."

          Hm, I hate to say it, but that's what we all want. And like Mick Jagger says, "You cain't always...etc."

          You're obviously in deep shit with the alcohol - seizures, heart palpitations etc are not mysterious little love letters from your body, they are full-blown S.O.S messages from a ship that's fed up of icebergs. Don't be a schmuck, you don't have time to go looking for a way of enjoying a glass or two of wine with a meal, because you're clearly not the kind of person who can do that. And there is no secret buried in this forum or anywhere else that will transform you from a medical fuck-up into a smooth talking French dude for whom a bottle of red with the fois gras is as natural as listening to Johnny Halliday and skiing at Tignes.

          Your job is hopelessly incompatible with your mortality; you have to quit one or the other. At the moment you're like a junkie in the employ of Pablo Escobar. You'd need Shackletonesque willpower to get yourself out of the spot you're in, and, pal, you ain't got it. So do yourself a favour, get another job!
          While I appreciate your response and the idea of you thinking of my well being, your response is the reason I and many others dont open up on public forums. There are things in my life that arent perfect but my mental health is paramount. Plenty of people can do what I do for a living without being full blown alcoholics. My only concern is getting healthy, and to be honest, i highly doubt my alcoholism has to do with my career. My previous drug use and my excessive/compulsive search for an inebriated peace has much more to do with my anxiety and thats my struggle and the struggle of many on here. Moderation is possible for many and the truth is many people that have struggled with alcohol have become entirely too judgemental and believe its an all or nothing issue. I have done NA, I didnt quit drugs because it was affecting my life negatively....it helped me do things I wasnt genetically able to do, whether it was steroids, amphetamines or depressants. I quit them because I wanted to live a long fruitful healthy life....That is why I am here, and please consider your responses when you are talking to people that are trying to get healthy, the way you responded can be a bit of a turn off to finding help.

          -PW
          Say, Mr. Fields, I read in the paper where you consumed two quarts of liquor a day. What would your father think about that?
          WC: He'd think I was a sissy.

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            #20
            always a struggle

            Seethepony;1039967 wrote: "What I want? have a glass or two of wine a night and be able to sleep. thats all i really want."

            Hm, I hate to say it, but that's what we all want. And like Mick Jagger says, "You cain't always...etc."

            You're obviously in deep shit with the alcohol - seizures, heart palpitations etc are not mysterious little love letters from your body, they are full-blown S.O.S messages from a ship that's fed up of icebergs. Don't be a schmuck, you don't have time to go looking for a way of enjoying a glass or two of wine with a meal, because you're clearly not the kind of person who can do that. And there is no secret buried in this forum or anywhere else that will transform you from a medical fuck-up into a smooth talking French dude for whom a bottle of red with the fois gras is as natural as listening to Johnny Halliday and skiing at Tignes.

            Your job is hopelessly incompatible with your mortality; you have to quit one or the other. At the moment you're like a junkie in the employ of Pablo Escobar. You'd need Shackletonesque willpower to get yourself out of the spot you're in, and, pal, you ain't got it. So do yourself a favour, get another job!
            Helpful to the OP? I think not. And this is just the hysterical OTT response (my way or the highway) that is wrong with this site.

            Give the guy a break, he is finding his feet.

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              #21
              always a struggle

              Hey there proW,
              So glad uve found us & decided 2 join in & share... hats off 2 you bud !... ure honest & self aware which should serve u well on this journey... u'll read many opinions & approaches here... maybe just keep it simple 4 urself... take on board what seems helpful ... & ignore the rest ?
              Reading this thread reminded me of a TV programme i saw a few years back... it was about travel but they visited this lovely old guy, around 60, who owned some vineyards in Greece... they mentioned in passing that he no longer drank the wine because he had become an alcoholic... he still tasted it but always spat it out ! ... he said he had the best of both worlds...still did the job he loved, had done all his life & was bloody good at... & got to taste the wine... but he had his life back & was ABLE to do his job... after almost losing the vineyard thru his alcoholism... a lovely character
              Maybe worth a go if u want 2 get some AF time initially ?... with alcohol out of the equation 4 a while im sure u'll find it simpler 2 address other underlying issues / develop healthier habits & mindset etc...
              Hope u keep us posted thru the likely peaks and troughs... on ur way 2 a long fruitful healthy life !
              Keep safe always
              Goldie x
              :sun:

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                #22
                always a struggle

                well kids in 12 hours I check in for professional medical detox.....hope you can check in with me in 3 days. I love you all and wouldnt be where im at/where im going if it wast for all of you. This site is a great place and a great asset to people that use it and people that would have never seen it (like me).
                Again much love and best wishes.
                Say, Mr. Fields, I read in the paper where you consumed two quarts of liquor a day. What would your father think about that?
                WC: He'd think I was a sissy.

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                  #23
                  always a struggle

                  Good luck prof wino!!

                  I have done medical detox outpatient twice and it was definitely a good thing. The second time I was more ready to get sober and it started a great path to sobriety, I fell off the wagon once but only for a couple months (very short relapse for me which is progress) and now I am sober again. Keep posting so we can keep up with how you're doing!:l
                  I ain't afraid of no ghost....

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                    #24
                    always a struggle

                    Hi PW,
                    Best of luck with the de-tox, and good for you using the medical help offered.
                    I was in the wine trade for 11 years albeit cooking the books and more of a PA than a taster so I know how hard it must be for you.
                    You know that'll we'll be here waiting to help and guide you through anything you need to talk about.
                    J x
                    :l
                    It could be worse, I could be filing.
                    AF since 7/7/2009

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                      #25
                      always a struggle

                      really dreading the next few hours....the next few days and cant stop the tears pourin outta my eyes. I know its the best thing for me and have recieved so much support from family, friend and work and I dont feel like i deserve it. ive always been a screw up. a lot of people out there put themselves out there to get me where im goin tomorrow, i just feel like ill dissapoint them, my friends and my family.
                      Say, Mr. Fields, I read in the paper where you consumed two quarts of liquor a day. What would your father think about that?
                      WC: He'd think I was a sissy.

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                        #26
                        always a struggle

                        PW, hun.
                        I know exactly how you're feeling and my heart goes out to you. I can vividly remember sitting in my doctor's office sobbing my heart out begging for help. I was so ashamed, disheartened,hopeless and felt a complete failure to my family and friends.

                        That was at 8am on the 7th July 2009 and I have not touched a drop of alcohol since.

                        The following week I went to see the same doctor and he didn't recognize me. In those few days I'd found something I never thought I'd have hope.
                        It could be worse, I could be filing.
                        AF since 7/7/2009

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                          #27
                          always a struggle

                          PW - best of luck. :huggy Have you taken any xanax to help calm you down? Might be an idea.
                          Jackie your input here is invaluable seeing as you went through something so similar and came out shining.
                          For every 60 seconds that you are angry, you lose a minute of happiness.
                          AF since 10/10/2015:yay:

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                            #28
                            always a struggle

                            I have some, drugs are perfectly available but i prefer not to touch em, but im ok with booze, I know i retarded ; )
                            Say, Mr. Fields, I read in the paper where you consumed two quarts of liquor a day. What would your father think about that?
                            WC: He'd think I was a sissy.

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                              #29
                              always a struggle

                              I understand your aversion to medications but maybe you really do need something to help you stay calm. They say some teas will help, like chamomile. Just a suggestion. Staying close to MWO and posting is good too. Lots of support here as you already know.
                              For every 60 seconds that you are angry, you lose a minute of happiness.
                              AF since 10/10/2015:yay:

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                                #30
                                always a struggle

                                professionalwino;1040158 wrote: I have some, drugs are perfectly available but i prefer not to touch em, but im ok with booze, I know i retarded ; )
                                What time is it where you are,PW and how many hours until you check in?
                                It could be worse, I could be filing.
                                AF since 7/7/2009

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