I am about to lose it!!!

[universal]

Okay, seriously, I am about to lose my f"in mind. I am dual diagnosed so Alcohol addicted as well as mental health issues (depression/anxiety disorder). I am trying to do things nice for my family - make dinner, keep the house tidy etc. because I am off work and home all day. I do rest a lot during the day so I try to do at least one nice thing and dinner each night. Today my hubbie is sick so he is at home f'in whining all day, and then my 10 year old comes home in a miserable mood and starts yelling and crying because I burnt myself while cooking and she asked me 5 times in a row if I was okay. I said yes, I'm fine, stop asking me cause you're driving me crazy! And now I just want to get in my car and leave cause I am so anxious and upset and I want to tell them to just go to hell and leave me alone! AAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH

[Brigitte Bardot]

I am about to lose it!!!

Uni....want to go into chat with me?

[Kimberley]

I am about to lose it!!!

Hi Universal,

I hope you did go into chat and talk a bit. It sounds like you're having a tough time- and tough times do come for us all. Some days, nothing goes right and no-one can say or do anything without it bugging us and it all becomes too much.

All I would advise you right now is that, today may feel bad, but not every day is like this. If you can just hold on until you go to bed, that's all you have to do for now. Do whatever it takes to get to bedtime without drinking or 'losing it' - alone time, chatting on here, meditating or deep breathing, ringing a friend, taking a walk, whatever keeps you safe until you can sleep.

Then tomorrow, when you've had a rest, you can look at the situation anew and evaluate if there's anything you can do to improve it. I hope you feel much better in the morning - let us know how things go.
K x

[Lavande]

I am about to lose it!!!

Uni,

I used to feel a lot like that....I understand!
The pressures of work, home, kids, & huband used to make me feel downright crazy (especially in my PMS phase). Just try to remember that it's temporary, tomorrow will most likely be a lot better.
I always isolated myself for a few hours, told everyone to stay away from me for a while. I always calmed down, you will too.

Take care of yourself :l

[Akasoto]

I am about to lose it!!!

Hi Universal:
Please remember this universal thing:

- And This Too Shall Pass -

[rebirth]

I am about to lose it!!!

Uni hang in there. I have moments like that and I just want to scream. But Akasoto is right..it will pass.
Dont drink on it! x

[universal]

I am about to lose it!!!

Hi guys,

No worries, I won't drink on it - but OMG I am just so frustrated!

But I will survive - thank you for the support guys.

[greeneyes]

I am about to lose it!!!

Uni..:l Come visit greenie!!

[lil.michelle]

I am about to lose it!!!

*hugs* i have a little boy scream at me loads in a day and understand how itcan all get on top of you... Take a few deep breaths, think happy thoughts and smile..... you'll be surprised how well that works ALSO put good music on and dance!
Thats what i do anyway

[ATLThrash]

I am about to lose it!!!

You know uni-- I had depression and anxiety problems for years and years-- though I functioned fine (but felt bad inside)-- found out after quitting booze and/or drinking very little that I usually feel pretty good if I don't drink-- maybe that will be the case with you-- my family has a history of bad depression-- shock treatments, quitting work, agoraphobia-- the whole bit. Mine started way before I ever drank but in recent years it had gotten out of control-- I know the feeling of wanting to explode-- just work on things one at a time-- I feel sure that things will get better-- I never thought they would for me-- but taking it one thing at a time seemed to help (I am a multitasker so that was hard to do!). Good luck!