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[Doggygirl]

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Hi again WTS. It is so good that you are here and honest and wanting to work at this.

I have used lots of tools along the way, and several of them I still use:

* My Way Out (Discussion forum, book, hypnosis CD's, supplements, diet & exercise suggestions)

* AA (I went to 90 meetings in 90 days initially, and still go to 3 - 4 meetings per week. I have a sponsor and sponsor others)

* SMART Recovery (I used several of the tools they offer such as CBA - Cost Benefit Analysis and went to face to face meetings before I started going to AA)

I pulled out all the stops because alcohol was killing me. In the end, I was drinking vodka instead of coffee in the mornings - often out of a coffee cup. I needed LOTS of tools to get the job done. I still use many of these tools and will keep doing it forever because there is no way I want to return to that insanity. Alcohol holds no interest for me today. And if this daily, all day drinker can get there, then I know you can too.

Congrats on getting started. Would your husband be willing to go to some Alanon meetings? That might help him better understand alcoholism and help him find his way since he is affected too.

Strength and hope,

DG

[Want to Stop]

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Thanks so much for your post DG.
I feel a bit better each day. I am prepared for this struggle and journey as I do not want alcohol to kill me. I have entirely too much to live for and alcohol makes everything unmanageable.
I will check out SMART recovery. I have looked at that yet.
THANKS!
Day number 6 for me. WOOHOO! I will not drink today.

[ThreeDogNight]

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Really understand

Hi, all.

Have been lurking here for over a year now, but this is my first post. I keep slipping, and I have been to two detoxes and a short (one week) rehab in the last three months. I go to AA, although haven't been all week. Not calling my sponsor and not honest with my counselor. I am so tired of this and so worried about my health. I tried Campral, but it didn't seem to help with the cravings after a few days. Have all kinds of supplements, but haven't been taking them. I intend to come here and post often now. And am going to a meeting tomorrow. I just want this to be over.

Thanks for listening. Good luck WantToStop.

[Want to Stop]

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Hey TDN. I have put forth a half-hearted attempt on several occasions to stop drinking. It was not until I had hit bottom and could not take it anymore that I really WANTED to stop. There is a saying that has helped me. I hope this helps you.

"I will remain the same until the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change."

I am unsure of the author, but I love that. It speaks volumes to me. It is so true in my life. Yes, I hated what was happening, but insanely enough, it was comfortable. I did not have to commit to any major changes or do anything drastically different. Unfortunately, it took hitting bottom for me to realize the pain of change would be more tolerable than the pain of remaining the same.
I am going through some major changes in my life, but I realize they will make me stronger, healthier and a better person to those I love. I wish you all the luck. Keep posting.
:l

[ThreeDogNight]

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Thanks!

Thanks, WTS. Our stories re so similar. I am praying for an AF day today. Took some L-Glutamine and hope to get to an exercise class today. Hope I am not too shaky. That is the worst part.

I will keep posting and seeking help. I know I have to change or I will die. I do believe that this is a progressive and fatal disease if not taken care of.

I have the Stop Drinking The Easy Way book and have started reading it.

I used to be so "healthy," exercising all the time, taking lots of vitamins and supplements until I crossed the line.

ThreeDogNight:new:

[rubywillow]

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WTS, 3, I hope you believe you are not alone in all of this. So many mirror your stories, but haven't found the courage to come out of the shadows. I too have a wonderful helpmate, and he has shed tears in the past for mine and his suffering over AL. I can finally say, I'm happy and at peace with my life, and I know regret is useless when it comes the past, unless we learn from our mistakes. You CAN come through this; there is life after AL.
Read the nutrition, Med, threads. Eat bananas, drink lots of water. If possible, enlist a doctor's help, and a therapist, and be truly honest. When we learn more about ourselves, and stop self-hating, it gets easier. Instead of focusing on bad each day, look for one beautiful thing you find joy in, and let that be your touchstone for THAT day. Always read, reach out, here. Check out all the threads, find someone who 'talks' to you in their posts, and take the chance - contact, PM them, and ask for their help. No one can 'fix' this for you. There is no 'magic bullet'. There is 'my way out'. Your way. And no two are alike. If I can help you, or just listen to you, please call on me.

[ThreeDogNight]

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Thanks!

Thank you, RubyWillow! I have read lots of your posts, and you are very wise, brave, and kind. I should have joined sooner. Got to a good vigorous aerobics class this a.m., and that was good for me.

Not sure how to do a PM--can you explain? Will PM you and WTS later today, hopefully.

Thanks again. I just hope that someday i will be able to help others this way.

My husband has been supportive, but not being an alcoholic, he doesn't really understand. He may go to an AL ANon meeting this week.

TDN:thanks:

[rubywillow]

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Click on the name of the person on any of their posts you want to PM, you'll see a drop down, and then click on Send a private message. Better late than never, hon!

[Want to Stop]

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I had been doing so well. I drank today. Not much, but enough to make me feel horrible. I am preparing for major changes in my life. I allowed myself to succumb to the self-pity and self-loathing. Then, I did the one thing I knew could only make it worse.
I am going to call my sponsor first thing in the morning. I am desperate for this to change. I attended AA today. I simply ALLOWED myself to fall. I have to get back up and start again. I will NOT allow this to spiral me out of control again. I pray for the guidance of God and I pray for his will to be evident to me.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

The things I can change: I do not have to drink for any reason. I will not drink for any reason. It only causes more grief and pain. This was a very stupid decision that I will not repeat! I am asking for some support. Anyone else made this mistake? How could I do the one thing I knew would only make me feel worse? It makes no sense. Yet, I did it anyway... I know I didn't pray like I should have this morning. That was likely my downfall. I know better than to start my day before I hit my knees. That has been the way I have avoided it the last 8 days. I know that is the way I will avoid it tomorrow.

I am thankful for these boards and the chance to say, I screwed up again. But, I ask for your support to avoid making this same mistake tomorrow.
Thank you!!

[jennyneric]

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Do you think maybe it would help to go to a 30 day rehab or maybe antibuse or another med like bac would help. I see your struggle and want to help. I hope today is a better day!

[broken heart]

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Baby I know u can stop u r going throught a hard time u need 2 pray but also u need to let your family help you. Please let us help you we need u and u need us. Please let us help you. LOVE MOMMIE & RJ..