I feel like I have lost myself. Have gained like 40 pounds. Am very bloated! Lost most of my desire to socialize since nothing fits and yet part of me really wants to go back to the girl I was before I lost total control. I do not drink during the day, but yes when I get home from work. I am currently working as a nurse in a classrooom, not very challenging, but pretty much all I can handle these days mentally. My drinking always erraticates my sleep patterns and then I have trouble waking up the next morning. I want to change. I want to stop. I don't know when was the last time I went one day without the wine. But I do know I get SEVERE night sweats when I don't .I know they say get out and do something to distract your mind but I just can't muster up the energy. I would like any thoughts or feedback if possible, as well as perhaps to find out about online meetings. I do not want to go to AA. I used to be an avid exerciser, but lately has been hard to drag myself to the gym. I just really want to stop. I have the kudzu and the L-Glutamine and am going to take it "consistently" starting tomorrow. I really want to start a new life !
Thanks.
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