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[tiptronic_ct]

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Thinking of you, Sunnybutt :l

[startingover]

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Sunnybutt, you poor girl. Loss is just so hard to bear whatever the circumstances. The guilt can be overwhelming too.
May I suggest you get some bereavement counselling? I really think you need some help through this, so many huge losses over a short time no wonder you're not coping.
Sending you hope and strength and lots of love xx

[stirly-girly]

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Sunny dear, I'm so sorry for your losses and especially sorry about Sophie. How terrible. I agree with Starty, bereavement counselling might well help you at this most difficult time. We all need help "coping" with something we've never experienced before. Just yesterday I looked up your profile to see when you'd last visited MWO. It was the day before so I assumed you were just too busy to hang around and post. I had no idea you were going through such a difficult time. Hugs and strength to you, dear girl. :huggy :h

[Chillgirl]

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Sunny - thats way too much grief to be expected to deal with, I think it's great you acknowledge you are not ok instead of trying to carry on as normal. As the girls suggest maybe some counseling would be a good idea, getting all these feelings out can let you make some sense of them. Please know we are all here for you so come post, rant, scream, anything you feel like. Sending you my love and strength. :l

[Angelcakes]

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Oh Sunnibutt,
I'm so sorry for your losses, especially your Sophie in tragic circumstances - that's really hard.
As the G-bloke said, the pain does get easier with time, but these things change us, it's up to us as to how we change.
:l:l:l
xo

[one2many]

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Eggy,

Sending you big hugs, thinking of you xxx

[DeeBee]

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Sending you a huge cyber hug GG!
I'm thinking of you and beautiful Sophie.

[Cinders]

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Sunny,

I can't give words of wisdom because sorrow just plain old sucks and sits in your chest.

However, I do know it does lift, it truly does.

It lifts faster if you find an outlet that gives you some solace. I am sure you will and it won't be in the booze. :l

In the meantime, you have us to talk to, to rant to, to cry to. We will all be here for you.

Love,
Cindi

[Grateful]

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Sunny-I'm so glad that you reached out to us....we all care so much about you and were naturally worried when you were gone.....I just cannot imagine all the hurt you are feeling now. As the others have said, Sophie was more than "just a horse"...she was your beautiful companion who loved you unconditionally, so don't feel guilty in any way about grieving for her. I am praying for you, for strength and comfort. Your little "peanut" needs his grandma....and you need him more than ever.

With much love,
Kelly:l:l:l

[Panno]

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Sunni :l:l:l

[Beaches]

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Sunshine- thinking of you. This is such a hard time you are going through. May the strength you need find you. Be well.

[Guest]

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Hey Sunny

Sorry you've been in a bad place. I'm going to write some stuff now that is in my old, to the point posting style.

Alcoholics will always find an excuse to drink AND there generally isn't any situation that alcohol ever makes better.

This isn't meant to be offensive, and I am very sorry for your losses.

[Anjicia]

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So sorry to hear of your losses and your grief. Take time out take care of yourself. Sending you a virtual hug across the pond.:l:l

[tlrgs]

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so sorry for your lost sending hugs and prayers .. stay strong and rememeber she is always in your heart

[rubywillow]

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Sunnybutt, I've missed you! The hits just keep on coming, don't they honey? :huggy I remember how difficult Tom's ordeal was for you; now your mom, and Sophie. WOW. Our relationship with our mothers is complicated, at least mine was. Guilt will not serve any purpose now, so cherish your good memories.
I know you were devasted over Sophie. Your bond was SO evident, and I'm so sorry this happened. Don't apologize or feel guilt over your grief; it's real. Only someone who's had that kind of relationship really understands sometimes. Please accept my condolences, for everything you had thrown at you. Take care of yourself, give yourself time to grieve, and keep talking to us, OK?
Ruby