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[witchywoman]

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CakeQueen,
most of last year I was drinking 1&1/2 - 2 bottles of wine 3-5 times a week, and the previous 2-3 years had been a lead up to that point, I have spent most of this year doing 3 weeks AF then caving, so I went to my Dr, asked for Antabuse and did April AF, I applaud you for having the courage to go to your Dr, thbis is a great site, there is so much advise & understanding here, and no one judges you, we have all been there.
Good luck, please let us know how it goes. Also come join the May Flowers thread over in Just starting Out.
XX

[mama bear]

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Good Luck Cake...you have gotten some excellent advice and will always have plenty of support....keep us posted ok??

[sunshinetoday]

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Hi Cake Queen,
Just echoing others before me, great job being here, and I am cheering you on.

[universal]

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You can do this! Good for you on calling your doctor. It can be embarrasing to admit but remember, none of us when we were kids said "gee, when I grow up, I think I'll be an alcoholic". It is a disease and doctors know that. I hope you get the help you need and let us know how it goes.

Hugs going out to you through cyber space.

Uni

[Newgrange]

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Good luck cake queen. Stay with us here and let us know how you are getting on.

[CakeQueen]

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Hello everyone , I didnt post yesterday as I didnt turn up to my appointments I cancelled and re arranged for today I have just got back now from the doctors , I was very emotional as the wd sypmtoms had already started to kick in I have been up since 3am too.

He told me well basicly that the guidelines now are that they dont provide tranquilizers and he pescribed me some sort of Thiamine vitiam to take twice a day and I have an appointment next Tuesday at 10am with the practice Alcohol Nurse I came out and sat in my car and cried buckets . Apparently I need to quit by gradually reducing my intake.

Not just to stop as it is dangerous , Its mental I have to stop totally as I know that cutting down would be harder for me as when I start to drink I generally dont stop

I dont know what to do now

[CakeQueen]

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I really cant understand why I cant be perscribed somehing to help with the wd symptoms , when there are things available to help, he more or less told me to go home and have a bloody drink

[Kaslo]

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Dont be ashamed, be proud that you have started on the road to recovery. Check Toolbox here, its full of advice on what to do. There are lots of options. If your GP for some strange reason is not helpful, get a second opinion.

[CakeQueen]

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Where from Kasio . I live in the Uk, I cant change doctors that easy its kinda based on the area in which you live as to which practice you can register with

[Marshy]

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Hi Cake Queen

Doctors in the UK seem to vary hugely. I didn't get much help from mine either and felt angry after I'd plucked up the courage to "come clean".
It's good that you have an appointment with a nurse though. Don't give up on seeking help and support.
You could try calling NHS Direct in the meantime and see if they have any advice, or Alcohol Concern.

[CakeQueen]

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Thanks Marshy, I felt the same I cancelled my appointment yesterday as I could not bring myself to go but was determined and went today, I know its my fault I am in this situation but swear he commented that I was shaking but was adament that he could not give me anything.

To be totally honest I came home poured a drink and have now no longer got the shakes. I really need to try and just keep them at bay till I see the councillor on Tuesday, I have a couple of hours work to do then will give alcohol concern a ring

[CakeQueen]

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Thanks to everyone that has replied, It does really make a difference to know that someone is listening even if you dont know them or they you

[Twitch]

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Hi Cupcake, I am in the uk too, in Dorset, whereabout's are you?
I have been drinking about a bottle of wine everynight for about 10 year's, I tried modding but it built up again, now I have found that I can drink a couple of glasses maybe once every couple of weeks and the rest be af, I was using al as a security blanket, couldn't imagine being able to sleep without being blotto, I have recently been diagnosed with Rheumatoid arthritis and have had load's of tests inc liver function, I was so scared I thought it would show damage but I got the all clear, I started getting really bad headaches after drinking so decided enough was enough, I hope I can keep it up, I feel so much better, sorry for the waffling but if you want to talk you can pm me, I have children too and know what it's like to feel so guilty, try to see another dr is there someone at the practice you could see instead?stay strong and go to chat when you feel down or get wd, there are some amazing people here, love and hug' sTwitch xxx

[CakeQueen]

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Hi Twitch , I am in West Yorkshire and you are not waffling you want to hear me when I start I dont think I will get any joy from another gp at the practice he was quite adament that they dont do detox meds anymore , Mores the bloody pity lol , I am going to have a chat to someone at Alcohol concern later on and see if they can suggest something

I am so pleased you are managing to mod and stay af I look forward to the day when I can and will xxx

[lolab]

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Hi cakequeen. I read this thread before, but as you can see from the closet drinkers one, I hesitate to start writing a note when my family is around for fear of being found out...all alone now, so I wanted to say hello. :-)

I had advanced to the point also - of - how did you put it - staying topped off? all day...it's amazing how much vodka you can drink in a day when it's all day long.

Even as I was drinking in the mornings, I would be saying to myself - "you know this is going to set the stage for the WHOLE day, right?" and I'd still drink it. I also have a family to take care of and see that as the most important job in the world and still been messing with it for years and years....secretly. My AF journey (thanks Jolie!) started on Feb 14 of this year after a week of tapering off and then a long weekend of drinking which made me very sick. I successfully went 30 plus days AF and then slowly went back. Tapered back off again and now again totally AF since the beginnning of the month. I'm learning that I don't think I can mod. Just an aside - when I was tapering off that first time with the intent to quit, it was with beer - which I USED to drink - but don't care for much anymore as it doesn't pack the same punch. So for that week of tapering I started allowing myself a couple beers in the afternoon when the shakes or cravings got terrible, then only one and I actually got so I'd have a half of one and pour the rest out. I'm not advocating for continuing to drink, but if you can't get any help for the w/d maybe to taper with something that you don't like or isn't as strong? I don't know - I'm no expert, but got the idea from someone here.

I commend you for going to the dr and I'm sorry you didn't get the answers that you wanted - I am in the US so don't have too much helpful advice there...you sound determined and you already took some really tough steps so don't let anyone stop you.

let us know how you do with Alcohol Concern today, OK? You're not alone - so many heartfelt posts on this thread - hang in there.