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    I am not at immediate risk of drinking ... BUT I am so agitated, anxious, angry ... stressed in the body and mind that I need some guidance!! It seems like these AF days I'm either A. Extremely fatigued ... like low blood sugar feeling OR
    B. Extremely Agitated.
    There doesn't seem to be anything inbetween these two ... and even have them both at the same time sometimes!! GRRRRRRR.

    Here is what I'm doing:
    * AF and NF 6 weeks now

    * Taking a bucket load of supplements:
    Dr. Wilsons Adrenal Rebuilders
    Anti aging Multi (Called "the Kitchen Sink")
    Alge-Calcium
    D3 (with Resveratrol and Red Wine Extract)
    Glucosamine-Chondroitin
    Omega - 3
    Co-Enzyme B Complex
    Tyrosine (3200 mg daily / divided dose)
    Tryptophan (500 mg at bedtime)
    SAMe - (400 mg daily / divided dose)
    Glutamine - 10-15 grams daily / divided doses)

    I have some major back issues - so the only exercise I'm able to do is slow walking in the pool --- so I know the exercise is lacking.

    My diet - well - I am finally off the major sugar binge (3 weeks now off sugar except for fruit) and trying to keep a strong Protein and veg. focus - BUT have NOT found a good solid diet that FEELS good yet. OH YA ... I've GAINED 10 pounds since I quit drinking and smoking. GRRRRRRRRR

    There are times that I feel like WTF ... I felt better drinking and smoking. OK - well ... maybe not drinking ... but smoking YES!! At least for the most part! Which is an ADDICTIVE VOICE LIE - I know.

    Another problem I'm having .... I THINK TO MUCH. And I'm showing OCD moments. For an example ... If I don't follow the supplements exactly like I'm suppose to ... I write it out like 5 times. UGGGG GRRRRR UGGGG. What is UP WITH ME?!!!

    Any help I can get would be greatly appreciated. I just want to feel fantastic - and I know that is unrealistic - but makes me want to settle for my "old ways" where I don't give a crap if I don't take my supplements in the right order - or don't have this clear mind to realize how pathetic my life really has become!!!

    Thanks to any advice in advance. I appreciate all you mywayouters!!
    Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



    NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
    AF - July 31, 2013
    :lordhelpme:
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    #2
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    Hi Rita!
    First of all, be very proud of your accomplishments, wow...great job! Second, good job coming here to post when you feel anxious. I can totally relate to the GRRRRR feeling, it's not pleasant. We all want to feel fantastic, but unfortunately, that's usually not the case. I don't have too much advice for the supplements and diet and all that...all I can offer right now is encouragment. These feelings and thoughts you're having right now will pass, and you'll feel better soon. My no-fail plan is to read a good book! Oh, and kudos to you on quitting alcohol AND smoking....I'm STILL trying to conquer the evil cigs!
    Keeps us posted on how you are!
    :h
    K9
    :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

    Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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      #3
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      Hi Rita!! Ditto the HUGE congrats on your progress!!!! Hats off for giving up booze and smokes and JUST GETTING IT OVER WITH rather than prolonging the agony by hanging onto one or the other. I have quit both and did it separately. It was really hard as you are experiencing - but SO WORTH IT!!!! So please hang in there. You have already come this far - give yourself the gift of sobriety and smokelessness (is that a word??)!!!!

      Since more exercise doesn't sound possible with your back, have you implemented any sort of meditation? The hypnosis CDs? Those are a couple of things that come to mind that might help provide some natural calm. Lavande and Greeneyes are both very plugged in to the meditation type resources and I know could guide you in that direction if you are interested.

      Stay the course - this WILL get better. We didn't trash our bodies and minds with this garbage over night and it doesn't all heal overnight either, unfortunately.

      Hang in!

      DG
      Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
      Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

      One day at a time.

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        #4
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        Rita,

        Big congrats to you on your dual quits
        As you can see from my signature line my quits were pretty close together & I know that GRRRRR feeling well!

        As DG mentioned, the Hypno CDs really helped me out a lot in the beginning.
        I have found meditation to be a great asset too. You can try some out too - look for Primordial Sound Meditations, very restful & very effective in helping you sort out rough areas

        If all else fails I reach for an herbal product called Seredyn. Calms you right down without any side effects. This stuff does not numb you like Rx meds. SEREDYN - Immediate Anxiety Relief - Natural Anxiety Remedy

        Please hang in there because it does get better, I promise

        Lav
        AF since 03/26/09
        NF since 05/19/09
        Success comes one day at a time :thumbs:

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          Rita I Just wanted to tell you I think your amazing, I cannot imagine trying to give up two addictions as though one isn't hard enough! Don't be too hard on yourself for feeling horrible you deserve to be cranky and snappy your waging an internal battle that doesn't let you rest. In time it will get easier id imagine (i am unable to destroy the beast just fool myself that I tame it). Good on you for going al-natural and giving your body that support too. Have your heart of spirulina and chlorella, superhero food, particulary chlorella as it removes heavy metals and toxins from your body, it makes you feel alot better. Google it.
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            Heart of spirulina, great typing Wintyr that was ment to be heard of...
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            Where ever you go, there you are
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              #7
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              Hi Rita, I am in awe of your courage quitting cigs and sauce in one go. Holy cow! Everyones advice is great but I would just like to add that I was in a pretty foul mood for several months, temper was very easy to flare, and just about everything browned me off. I dont know why this is, but you have done a really great job. BTW I have a bunch of orthopaedic issues, and to get exercise I had to swim (can walk now that Ive improved). just floating did it for me some days. Keep it up, girl you are doing really well.
              kas
              Kaslo

              Stopped the madness: February 14, 2011
              Status: Happy:h

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                Thanks guys --- I really appreciate the advice. I am going to get the CD's as I did over look that step. Also very excited to try the herbal calm. I think the smoking quit still has me having anxiety issues. I will be SOOOOOO happy when my body has healed from all of this abuse. How long in reality does it take?

                I started cleaning my house after I posted this - and 3 hours later I was feeling a little better. Then the hubs and I went out to eat. I had what I would call ... a "comfort" meal. Prime Rib ... a Baked Potato ... salad and (((((Gulp))))))))) ice cream with peaches. Yep ... I just had to do something NOT SO HEALTHY to bring me out of my misery. I'm so bad. But I am feeling better tonight.

                Love all of you guys. LOVE This site. So helpful and supportive.
                Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



                NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
                AF - July 31, 2013
                :lordhelpme:

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                  #9
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                  Hi Rita,

                  Sounds like you're doing really well, I aspire to your goals!

                  I read last week that Dr Mercola recommends NOT supplementing with L-glutamine. I found this article after reading about a neurosurgeon who staunchly opposed supplementation. Is Glutamine Supplementation Helpful or Harmful? 5/1/04

                  If you have ADD, its worse on glutamine and glutamine buildup is found in people with alzheimers. Check out that link for all the details. I have a giant jar of the stuff myself. Now I'm taking magnesium to detox from it.

                  Best wishes.

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                    #10
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                    Hey Bru - Thanks for that info. I haven't read it yet - but am going to. I actually had backed off the Glut - just because I wasn't really feeling like it did a whole lot for me. I'm over 8 weeks AF/NF and don't find the cravings as bothersome as in the beginning. Not that I'm "out of the woods" by any sense ... I'm realizing that I need ALL the support I can get!!

                    I'm so excited to be a part of this great board of support. Thanks so much!
                    Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



                    NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
                    AF - July 31, 2013
                    :lordhelpme:

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                      #11
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                      YOU GO RITA!!!!! You are doing AWESOME!!! Getting real involved here with all the great support really helped me, that's for sure. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

                      DG
                      Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
                      Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

                      One day at a time.

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                        #12
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                        Rita,

                        Just wanted to say congrtas on your continued success

                        And I wanted to mention the weight thing will stabilize too! I quit smoking soon after I quit drinking & gained 13 lbs but I have lost most of it since. All these thinkg take time........ we just need to reain patient & vigilant

                        Keep up the great work!

                        Lav
                        AF since 03/26/09
                        NF since 05/19/09
                        Success comes one day at a time :thumbs:

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                          You're doing great, very happy for you.
                          Tipplerette

                          I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.

                          "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
                          ? Lao-Tzu

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                            #14
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                            DG & Lav - Can't tell you how much your support means - with the AF/NF success you have had .... You inspire me and I want to follow your footsteps into this AF life! Your comments and cheering me on helps more than you can ever imagine. Patience is probably a bigger problem for me than any other one thing. But this truly is FORCING me into patience. Thank you

                            Tip                             - I was just following the thread on the book KICK the DRINK and just ordered it!! I LOVED following your story at the reading of this book!!!! I also read Alan Carr's book. I liked it - but know what you mean about it being great info - but not life altering! I can't wait to read it. I am over 9 weeks AF/NF and want all of the "conviction" I can get to pad myself with "INSURANCE"!! As I know this is a LIFE LONG commitment. I SAY to myself I can NEVER drink again. I am feeling LOTS of conviction when I SAY that. I SAY to myself ... i WILL never drink again ... and somewhere in my head a little voice says ... "YA, RIGHT". So .... I am looking forward to this book - something to give me more conviction on the "I WILL NEVER" ....

                            It has been several weeks since I wrote this. I am SO HAPPY to say I am having LESS and LESS of these Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr moments. Oh - I still have some, but I am having more really good days than bad. I know it's going to take days and days, weeks and weeks, months and months .... of GOOD HEALTHY habits to over ride the bad ones that I've now dumped. To really heal and put all of this FAR behind me. But the good news is ... the healing has begun and I FINALLY F-E-E-L it working!

                            Love you all so much!!

                            Rita
                            Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



                            NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
                            AF - July 31, 2013
                            :lordhelpme:

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                              #15
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                              52 Weeks of Healthy Habits

                              Rita, see link above. Since I read Jason Vale's book I have completely forgotten about alcohol. I happily pour hubby a drink or make a pitcher of margeritas for friends without even considering drinking. I have finally been able to start the blog I always dreamed of starting. It's all about just what you mention in your last post: "I still have some, but I am having more really good days than bad. I know it's going to take days and days, weeks and weeks, months and months .... of GOOD HEALTHY habits to over ride the bad ones that I've now dumped. To really heal and put all of this FAR behind me. But the good news is ... the healing has begun and I FINALLY F-E-E-L it working!"

                              MY BLOG IS ALL ABOUT ONE NEW HEALTHY HABIT AT A TIME... week by week.

                              Come join us and pretty soon you'll be reaching for those passions of yours that were lurking in the alcohol soaked recesses of your mind...

                              Take care and by the way I love your "put your hands over your heart.." signature quote. xoxo

                              Tips:
                              Tipplerette

                              I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.

                              "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
                              ? Lao-Tzu

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