I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

[MissHazel]

I am sober and have been for many months...I have lost all hope.

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Hi Hazel,

Doesn't sound good. What's going on?

[MissHazel]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Being sober doesnt seem to make a difference. It is a war of wills every single day

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

MissHazel;1231245 wrote: Being sober doesnt seem to make a difference. It is a war of wills every single day

I might know what you mean. Do you mean you feel like you are missing out on something? i.e. drinking, fun, socialising?

[MissHazel]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Never mind

Never mind. Hope is overrated

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

MissHazel;1231248 wrote: Never mind. Hope is overrated

No, it's not. It's just so damn hard to find hope sometimes, but it is there if we keep looking for it and don't give in. I have to distract my negative, hopeless thinking sometimes by getting out of my head. By taking my mind off somewhere i like.

[MissHazel]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

I used to be really good at not giving in. Not so much anymore. I just want to die on my on terms. A way that doesnt hurt anyone I love.

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

MissHazel;1231254 wrote: I used to be really good at not giving in. Not so much anymore. I just want to die on my on terms. A way that doesnt hurt anyone I love.

Are you feeling somehow deprived of enjoyment since you stopped drinking?

[MissHazel]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

NO. only thing that used to give me "life" was fighting with someone for a really good cause..I have lost that.

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Fighting with someone?....have you lost someone?

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

I've got to head off now Hazel.

Gratitude thinking versus deprivation thinking. We need to shift our thinking and take positive daily action to grow in a way we want to grow. If we sit around waiting for the magic, it won't come. We must go out and get it. We must be pro-active every day in taking our life back.

Check out our toolbox thread https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html for some gratitude vs. deprivation thinking.

Best wishes, G-bloke.

[Supercrew]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Misshazel, no offense but the only one you are fighting now is the little voice in your head that is lieing to you about wanting to drink. Why do you want to drink? Will it improve your life or make your son proud of you?

Remember, you can drink anytime you want to. But the reality is you shouldn't want to drink because you know what the consequences will be. I know because I had the battle for well over 10 years until I realized that no matter what that little voice kept saying I shouldn't want to drink for any excuse.

[MissHazel]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Guitarista,


I appreciate your responses. It's nice to know that someone out there makes an effort. I don't anymore.

Miss Hazel

[Supercrew]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

Why don't you want to make an effort anymore?

[Guitarista]

I want to shut off my mind..I want to die on my terms

MissHazel;1231269 wrote: Guitarista,


I appreciate your responses. It's nice to know that someone out there makes an effort. I don't anymore.

Miss Hazel

You are most welcome friend.

I think you are selling yourself short. You ARE making an effort just by posting here about your feelings. That says a lot to me. It says that you have hope, if only just a little bit, and it says that you care about where you are going.

So, do some work. Grab/find/ your passion, hold onto it with both hands, and get going.