Really struggling and feeling hopeless

[Wally22]

Really struggling and feeling hopeless

Hi Broken Halo hopefully you are asleep by now.
I find weak tea with milk helps at a time like this. Get lots of fluids in you and keep drinking water and tea tomorrow all day. It will help. You may want to give the doctor a call to see if there is any outpatient detox centre in your area that can help you through this. In the meantime keep posting and let us know how you are doing. You are definitely not alone.
Big cyber hugs to you.

[jessie]

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Hi Broken, yes there is hope. I have just finished Betty Ford's autobiography. It's worth the read for wisdom and inspiration.
I wish you the best.

[broken halo]

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Thanks everyone. I won't make work today, I am a total wreck. I know what I need to do though, I need this to stop now before I ruin everything. Drinking water and juice now, and trying to get myself together. Thanks everyone, I'll let you know how I go.

[broken halo]

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Never in my life felt as bad as this. Sober, but have the shakes really bad, I am worried and struggling to get through this. I called in sick (again) please tell me this will pass. I am so scared.

[ThreeDogNight]

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Hi, Halo.

Been there, too. I highly suggest that you call your doctor and see if s/he can prescribe something for a few days to avoid serious withdrawal issues, such as seizures, etc. I used Librium and it worked really well. I was drinking a lot, and had to drink in the a.m. to stop the shakes. It was so awful. But you can do it! Don't be embarrassed about calling your doctor--I was, but she was happy to help me.
Keep posting so we know that you are okay.

TDN

[misskris76]

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Well, you prob need to detox my friend, and the best way to do it is with Librium, if you can get a script, or Valium. You can then do it on your own at home, but should have someone with you. At the very least, a non judgmental, understanding friend to call every few hours. You will feel like crap, but it'll only take about 3 days r so...7 till u r feeling 'normal', alright? If you do go into a real detox, another option, just be aware it goes on your permanent medical history and will affect your ability to get both term life insurance and private health coverage...however, if it is THAT bad, and no sympathetic doc, you may have to, my dear...or try the 'wean' but very tricky as once the AL gets to you, usually, ya just end up getting pissed. One other option is to white knuckle it, but that is tough!!! My best advice is get a benzo script for 3 days and do at home n see how u feel after, you may even be able to go to work on day 2 even tho you will feel like crap n be out of it, just make up an excuse like you had a death in the family and are grieving and up all night and maybe even get to go home early...AL withdrawal sux!

[K9Lover]

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Halo :l
I really feel for you. I have been where you are at, and I know how bad it feels. I agree with the others about getting to the doctor. They can give you medication to help the withdrawals and anxiety. I take a low dose of Xanax for occasional anxiety, but it can be used as well to prevent seizures and help get rid of the shaky, uncomfortable feeling. Do you have anyone for support? I didn't really, I basically went at it on my own, so please know it CAN be done. Treat yourself as if you have the flu and drink lots of liquids and get lots of rest. In a few days this will pass. Please keep us posted. :h
K9

[broken halo]

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Thanks everyone. I am too ashamed to tell my doctor. I have taken some kalms, still shaking badly. I contacted the community addiction team, they can't see me till next week. I also called my sister, but I really don't think she understands how bad I am. If it doesn't get better I will call NHS 24. I am so ashamed that it's come to this. I am going to try something to eat and maybe go for a walk. Thank you so much for your replies and advice, it really helps knowing I am not completely alone.

[DriftyAlison0]

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Your not alone. If you need to, go to an ER and detox at a hospital. There is nothing to be ashamed of. They will be grateful to know that you are doing something about it rather than continue to drink. Read the https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html to set up a plan and get a support group (both online and offline) to help you get through this. You can do it. If possible, have someone be with you for a little while.

[K9Lover]

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BH-
The first time I talked to my doctor, I was ashamed and embarrassed too. But once I started being honest with her, she was so supportive and actually praised my courage. It's been over a year, and she still says that she's proud of me. Your doctor won't (or shouldn't) judge you...you are there for help. If you don't find what you need, then go to another one. I promise you, there is someone out there that will help you. You don't need to suffer withdrawals, there is medication available. Please take care of yourself and be sure to get plenty of liquids down. Stay strong!
K9

[broken halo]

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Thanks, I am going to call and make an appointment in the morning. I want to get better. I had a walk and something to eat, heading for a warm bath soon and I feel a bit better. The shame and guilt are horrendous. I am resisting the urge to get a bottle of wine just to calm me down but I will take some calms. Thank you for all the support. I have been reading lots of the threads on here. Work phoned me, but I ignored them.

No one has any idea that my drinking is so bad, I don't want to lose my job, I don't want to lose everything. Phoning the doctor is my next step. Thanks again :l

[Doggygirl]

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Hi broken halo. Just wanted to add another voice to all the support you have already gotten. The key to hanging onto the things that matter is to find a way out of the drinking.

Detoxing from alcohol can be very dangerous and I echo what others have suggested about seeking medical attention. That could very well be your first step on the path to recovery! Please don't be afraid to take that step.

DG

[broken halo]

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I came on to post this so that the ten minutes I have left till the off licence closes passes. I don't want to give in and run up there like the madwoman I normally am. Thanks so much for the support today, I think I have read every thread on MWO throughout the day. I hope I can stop shaking and go back to work tomorrow to face the consequences. I have decided to see the doc and be honest with him about my drinking.

I am going to pop into the newbies nest and will maybe post more to other threads too. I need all the help I can get.

It also occurred to me that my drinking really got bad after the death of my sister, maybe I should look into counselling for that. We as a family never really dealt with it and we only ever talk about her when we are drinking. Anyway, it's ten and the offie will be closed, I am going to have some tea, take a couple of calms, and hopefully get some sleep tonight. Thanks to all for the great advice and for the support.:l

[Struggles 106]

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Hey Halo

Hang in there! Sounds like you have some determination going!
I just wanted to share something with you, about the doctor visit. Last year (2010)
I got involved with a crackhead, started smoking crack and not drinking so much. Finally did the crack and the alcohol, had a breakdown, went to my doctor and told him the whole story.
Called my boss from his office and said I need a week off right now per my doctor.
So it can be hard but a good doctor is not going to make you feel worse, but should try to help you and/or get you to the person who can.

I got very thin back then, and now gained a lot back plus some, and the other day I saw my doc and said something about being fat now. He said WELL the crack diet was not good for you and we laughed. He's a great guy and I hope you have a good experience seeking help as well.

Don't feel bad or guilty or ashamed. It takes a lot of courage to face the truth and do something about it. Be proud!

Take care

[Wally22]

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Hi Broken Halo
Just checking in to see how everything is going.
You have received lots of good advice. So glad you spent the day catching up on all the threads. Hope tomorrow is better than today, but I do think getting some sort of help is a really good idea. Lots of sleep helps too.