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[broken halo]

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Thanks everyone. I appreciate the stories about the Doctor's and realistically, he must deal with this all the time.

I didn't sleep well but managed a few hours and I do feel a whole lot better today. Nervous about work but will be glad to get it over with.

It's New Year's weekend, I am supposed to go to a party tomorrow but I have decided to cancel that and maybe try to find an AA meeting, hope everyone is doing well, thank you all again!

[Guitarista]

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broken halo;1235195 wrote: Thanks everyone. I appreciate the stories about the Doctor's and realistically, he must deal with this all the time.

I didn't sleep well but managed a few hours and I do feel a whole lot better today. Nervous about work but will be glad to get it over with.

It's New Year's weekend, I am supposed to go to a party tomorrow but I have decided to cancel that and maybe try to find an AA meeting, hope everyone is doing well, thank you all again!

Good job Halo!

I'm sure you'll be okay with work.

[broken halo]

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I hope so G. I am very good at covering my tracks, years of drinking teaches you that! :thanks:

[Guitarista]

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broken halo;1235222 wrote: I hope so G. I am very good at covering my tracks, years of drinking teaches you that! :thanks:

Don't i know it!

[broken halo]

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Work was okay G, lied through my teeth and hated myself for it. Looking forward to seeing the back of that.

[windy]

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Hi Broken Halo,

I just read this thread and I admire your determination and I am glad you are feeling better. What a great way to start off the New Year. Stay strong and I think attending the AA meeting is a good step. I look forward to hearing more of your journey. Sobriety is the best gift you can give to yourself.

[misskris76]

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AA can break ya, just saying, it can make r break ya, tread carefully!

[winowithhope]

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hang in there halo i had to detox in an er and they were kind to me thank god i had every withdrawal symptom so many can relate to what you are going through some walk in clinics will give you something to help withdrawal too there is no worse feeling everything that is broken may be fixed don't lose hope

[ThreeDogNight]

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AA

Hi, Halo.

How are you doing? Just wanted to say that I used to think AA was not something for me. Now I look forward to meetings and the support. I am going to start doing the coffee for the Monday meeting today. I've been blessed to meet the most supportive people in this fellowship. Hope you'll go to a meeting.

Love,
TDN

[Wally22]

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Good morning Broken Halo, just checking in to see how things are going.
Thank goodness you got through the weekend and back to work. That must have been tough.
I hope the AA meeting goes well for you. I think we should all try out every avenue to help us stop drinking. Keep posting and let us know how you are.
I find keeping track of my start date helps a lot. This is not the first time I have gone AF but I truly believe it is the last (I started to write hope instead of believe, but decided that was wimpy).
Sending :l your way. I hope you joined the newbies nest as well. They are a great bunch.

[misskris76]

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Withdrawal from AL sux bad, you will KNOW if you r having it, you will feel 'anxiety' (panic), sweats, shakes, all sorts of gastrointestinal probs, wanna climb outta your skin, and most likely smell bad and be desperately in need of hygeine, but you know, when non existing spiders seem to be all about and eating your flesh, somehow, flat ironing your hair n keeping your spa date, let alone brushing your teeth, seem less important.

[broken halo]

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Sorry I let everyone down. I caved to pressure and went to the party, now I am back at square one. Stayed with friends who also drink a lot, not good. Since Saturday.

I don't intend to drink tonight and I will be trying again. Sorry again, I feel like I am throwing all your support and good wishes back in your faces.

[caper564]

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hi halo,,,
most of have started back at square 1... some of us several times.. (like me). You will have unconditional support no matter how many square 1's you have.. just don't stop coming here because you are feeling bad. i have learned this is the place to tell your honest, disgusting, embarrasing wet my pants as i threw up on myself in a strangers bed and stole my kids money for booze stories. and someone will always come back with "me too been there done that"

caper

[broken halo]

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Thanks Caper I just saw your thread and I know I'm not the only one. That's why I won't stop coming here. Hope things are okay for you

[ThreeDogNight]

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Hi, Halo.

Just want to echo what Caper said. I used to avoid coming here when I had messed up for the nth time and was embarrassed. Now I don't feel that way. Nobody here judges you. That's what is so great!!

Happy New Year to you. Today is another day!

TDN