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Thanks Jane for the kind words, :land for everyone's comments as well. :h I'm not sure how many days I've been AF now because of the leap year but I think I'm over two weeks. Which means to me that I'm feeling back on track. I'm not thinking about Alcohol at all anymore and it feels like the slip didn't happen. I feel "normal" again. And I am SO thankful. I haven't been around AL at all these past couple of weeks and I am so glad to have my AF life back. I still have kept this to myself and it's been better that way for me to deal with. I was kinda forced to not dwell on it.. (accept for here.. safe place) I still think I'll tell my husband but maybe once I've hit my 5 year mark. At the end of the day it was my problem and in the past we had gotten a bit co-dependent and I just really didn't want that to happen. As far as the groomsmen... they were kind of fading out of his life anyway.. and he pretty much thinks they are immature and possibly jealous of him setting down. Regardless we don't have time for it. I'm really glad, I was sick of that pressure.. I always knew it was dumb.. but when you hang out with people who don't support or even just respect your choice not to drink I think it can take a toll.. especially when It was a substance that I really wanted even when it hurt me
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And... not that I was planning on drinking anyway, but I have the best reason to be sober now. I am pregnant. A lot of big changes in my life since going AF. I'm in my late 30's so I feel pretty relieved at the moment that I could conceive. I'm really glad I don't have to struggle giving up drinking and smoking right now. It took a lot of hard work to get here, and there is no way I could have done it alone. :thanks: guys :l
Thanks Jane for the kind words, :land for everyone's comments as well. :h I'm not sure how many days I've been AF now because of the leap year but I think I'm over two weeks. Which means to me that I'm feeling back on track. I'm not thinking about Alcohol at all anymore and it feels like the slip didn't happen. I feel "normal" again. And I am SO thankful. I haven't been around AL at all these past couple of weeks and I am so glad to have my AF life back. I still have kept this to myself and it's been better that way for me to deal with. I was kinda forced to not dwell on it.. (accept for here.. safe place) I still think I'll tell my husband but maybe once I've hit my 5 year mark. At the end of the day it was my problem and in the past we had gotten a bit co-dependent and I just really didn't want that to happen. As far as the groomsmen... they were kind of fading out of his life anyway.. and he pretty much thinks they are immature and possibly jealous of him setting down. Regardless we don't have time for it. I'm really glad, I was sick of that pressure.. I always knew it was dumb.. but when you hang out with people who don't support or even just respect your choice not to drink I think it can take a toll.. especially when It was a substance that I really wanted even when it hurt me
. And... not that I was planning on drinking anyway, but I have the best reason to be sober now. I am pregnant. A lot of big changes in my life since going AF. I'm in my late 30's so I feel pretty relieved at the moment that I could conceive. I'm really glad I don't have to struggle giving up drinking and smoking right now. It took a lot of hard work to get here, and there is no way I could have done it alone. :thanks: guys :l
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