I need help

[mama bear]

I need help

I have watched SO many movies on Netflix about addiction...and NONE of them are pretty

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

Oh yeah. I was so ready . Took a valium at work in anticipation of taking my first ab in the morning. But I got home, opened a diet peach snapple. Had some dinner. Then went out and bought a fifth of whiskey. I can't begin to say how much I hate myself.

[K9Lover]

I need help

HG -
I understand. How much have you had to drink so far? Please remember that you shouldn't mix valium with alcohol, that could be dangerous. Is there any way you can quit and call it a night? I'll be thinking of you!
K9

p.s. Hate is a wasted emotion. How about you take that energy and put it towards doing better next time? :l

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

I don't know. I was so ready and then just slam. I think maybe I need a VERY scheduled routine. I feel so sad. I'm such a lame fuck. Who did I think I was kidding?

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

The last week or so, when my alarm goes off, I SO want to just stay in bed all day for a week or so. Not to have to deal with people or the world or anything.

[mama bear]

I need help

you are NOT a lame fuck..you are an addict and this is a bitch....can you dump the poison down the drain or have you already started??
We still care babe and we undersatnd...TRUST ME

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

Nope -it's just sitting out there waiting for me.

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

And I 'm already so far gone. So fucking sad. I guess i'm not supposed to post if I' m drunk (?) so maybe I 'll just disappear for a while.

[mama bear]

I need help

you CAN post if you need us.....are you ok??

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

I'm ok. Drunk. I've asked my bf to take Friday off to help me. I just need to take that first ab. I so hate myself. Such a weakling. How can I hope to be af I can't even manage one night?

[Dave_]

I need help

Hippiegirl;1309402 wrote: I'm ok. Drunk. I've asked my bf to take Friday off to help me. I just need to take that first ab. I so hate myself. Such a weakling. How can I hope to be af I can't even manage one night?

Never give up! While there is breath in your lungs there are opportunities for change. The negative self talk will always be your worst enemy. Don't give in to what your mind wants you to hear, make a positive stand, the power to change your direction lies in you. Take control and take back your life, I know you can do it.

[jessie]

I need help

HG, you don't realize it now but you are taking important steps. You are honest and out of denial, those are the first steps and you have taken them.
Don't give up trying to quit, it will happen.

[akaMonique]

I need help

Wow. This has been a powerful thread for me. I appreciate all the raw honesty. I go to my first appointment with a regional addiction counseling center. After 7 years in and out of drinking following 14 years of sobriety. But until then, I'm still on the wine. HG I hope you turn the corner. I'm looking forward to a plan, since I wasn't able to do it on my own.

[mama bear]

I need help

check in today HG...ok??

I will pm you my cell if you need it

[Hippiegirl]

I need help

Thanks everybody. I'm here. Shaky, nauseous, but here. I'll try again. I've asked my bf to stay over tonight to help. All I have to do is get through today af and I can start ab tomorrow morning.