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    #61
    I need help

    I have watched SO many movies on Netflix about addiction...and NONE of them are pretty
    I love my family more than alcohol.:h
    Live in the Solution....not the problem

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      #62
      I need help

      Oh yeah. I was so ready . Took a valium at work in anticipation of taking my first ab in the morning. But I got home, opened a diet peach snapple. Had some dinner. Then went out and bought a fifth of whiskey. I can't begin to say how much I hate myself.

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        #63
        I need help

        HG -
        I understand. How much have you had to drink so far? Please remember that you shouldn't mix valium with alcohol, that could be dangerous. Is there any way you can quit and call it a night? I'll be thinking of you!
        K9

        p.s. Hate is a wasted emotion. How about you take that energy and put it towards doing better next time? :l
        :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

        Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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          #64
          I need help

          I don't know. I was so ready and then just slam. I think maybe I need a VERY scheduled routine. I feel so sad. I'm such a lame fuck. Who did I think I was kidding?

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            #65
            I need help

            The last week or so, when my alarm goes off, I SO want to just stay in bed all day for a week or so. Not to have to deal with people or the world or anything.

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              #66
              I need help

              you are NOT a lame fuck..you are an addict and this is a bitch....can you dump the poison down the drain or have you already started??
              We still care babe and we undersatnd...TRUST ME
              I love my family more than alcohol.:h
              Live in the Solution....not the problem

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                #67
                I need help

                Nope -it's just sitting out there waiting for me.

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                  #68
                  I need help

                  And I 'm already so far gone. So fucking sad. I guess i'm not supposed to post if I' m drunk (?) so maybe I 'll just disappear for a while.

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                    #69
                    I need help

                    you CAN post if you need us.....are you ok??
                    I love my family more than alcohol.:h
                    Live in the Solution....not the problem

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                      #70
                      I need help

                      I'm ok. Drunk. I've asked my bf to take Friday off to help me. I just need to take that first ab. I so hate myself. Such a weakling. How can I hope to be af I can't even manage one night?

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                        #71
                        I need help

                        Hippiegirl;1309402 wrote: I'm ok. Drunk. I've asked my bf to take Friday off to help me. I just need to take that first ab. I so hate myself. Such a weakling. How can I hope to be af I can't even manage one night?
                        Never give up! While there is breath in your lungs there are opportunities for change. The negative self talk will always be your worst enemy. Don't give in to what your mind wants you to hear, make a positive stand, the power to change your direction lies in you. Take control and take back your life, I know you can do it.
                        I refuse to be labelled or ashamed. Through my struggles I am achieving self awareness and clarity.

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                          #72
                          I need help

                          HG, you don't realize it now but you are taking important steps. You are honest and out of denial, those are the first steps and you have taken them.
                          Don't give up trying to quit, it will happen.
                          make the least of the worst, and the most of the best - everyday.

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                            #73
                            I need help

                            Wow. This has been a powerful thread for me. I appreciate all the raw honesty. I go to my first appointment with a regional addiction counseling center. After 7 years in and out of drinking following 14 years of sobriety. But until then, I'm still on the wine. HG I hope you turn the corner. I'm looking forward to a plan, since I wasn't able to do it on my own.
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                            "Indecision brings its own delays, and days are lost lamenting over lost days."
                            ~ from Goethe's Faust

                            :target: AF as of May 8, 2012
                            :target: Non-smoker as of Sept. 15, 2012

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                              #74
                              I need help

                              check in today HG...ok??

                              I will pm you my cell if you need it
                              I love my family more than alcohol.:h
                              Live in the Solution....not the problem

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                                #75
                                I need help

                                Thanks everybody. I'm here. Shaky, nauseous, but here. I'll try again. I've asked my bf to stay over tonight to help. All I have to do is get through today af and I can start ab tomorrow morning.

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