Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

[tammie]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

I'll give 30 days a go

[scottish lass]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hi all, I am still around but struggling as my personal life keeps biting me in the butt!!
I went away at the weekend after a week of bad news on top of bad news - my girls and I went camping with some of their friends and some horses. We had lovely bonfires and singing and wine, and I enjoyed it all - so not managing to be AF, but really do want to get 30 days under my belt...
Well done Sausage - a successful vacation and an awareness that you are feeling the pull - your strength amazes me....
Hi Tammie - and good luck....30 days is a joy for sure!

[Ishybit]

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Hi everyone,
I'm sorry I haven't checked in in awhile. My kids take over all the electronics around here. I'm doing good and staying on track. I find the intimate couples dinners to be the hardest. Party, no problem, nobody cares. Small dinner party everybody notices...at least at first. I still haven't said, I quit drinking.....hmmm, why is that?
Stay strong everyone.
Ishy

[SAUSAGE]

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Good luck on your 30 days Tammie, let us know how things go.

Good to see you both Scottish Lass and Ishy. I'm sure Janice an Janet will be along shortly.

I'm not afraid to admit as I approach the point in time (250 days approx) where I relapsed last time, I'm feeling quite scared and vulnerable. I've started a thread about this in General Discussion as I'm desperate for help / suggestions.

Back later x

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

Wow, I too, feel bad for not being able to check in as much as I want. Sausage, thanks for sharing and I will check out your thread. That's one of the many things I like about MWO, no matter what kind of feeling you are having, there are a few of us who are going through the same thing. I had another dream a couple nights back that I drank and the funny thing is I always say "Oh no, how am I gonna tell everyone on MWO". These dreams are so scary especially when it comes from "left field". Does anyone know why?

Hi Tammie and welcome. We are looking forward to reading your progress and you can definitely hit that 30 day mark. Word of advice? Try to post as much as you can, even if it's only a "hi", trust me it helps out alot.

Congrats to everyone and Sausage please keep us posted on how you are doing. I am doing okay with the new job, however I have been struggling with my insecurities and trying to work through this "funk" I have been in. I think part of it is accepting the fact that I am getting older and how much time I wasted being wasted, grrrrgh. I know it's not smart to look back into the past and I am pretty good on looking forward, however I do have my days when it gets me depressed. Especially when I have to accept that I will never have the experience of having a child. That's tough...

Anywho, sorry to be a "downer"....I wish you all a great Sunday and will check back in tomorrow night.

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 169

[Janice]

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oh dear dont think I shld be posting as I'm not going to lift any of your spirits either. Terrible week..mam really not well and major problems with my brother's mental health. Stressful week with long depressing evenings alone-just me & my thoughts which included drinking thoughts. I didnt but there were times when I just thought "what the hell". Anyway home safe & sound & sobriety in tact. Welcome Tammie & good to see old faces back posting. xx

[Janice]

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sending you big hugs Janet xx

[SAUSAGE]

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Hi everyone

Well I am feeling a bit more positive although struggling a little still after what has been a rough week. I feel really bad saying that because compared to many people I don't have any worries at the moment, I'm just feeling a little low for no particular reason and was dreaming of getting a buzz from alcohol?! Stupid I know, however I got lots of great support from the thread I started up and as I say am feeling a little stronger now.

I've stopped counting days, I'm very close to the point where I failed in 2009 and I am finding it too much pressure to think about it.

How are you doing Scottish Lass and Tammie?

Sorry you are feeling low Janet, try and focus on the future , I know it's easier said than done, you are doing so well.

Your trip sounded tough Janice, I am really sorry to learn things are not good with your families health. Does your brother drink? I know you said your Mum used to. Well done for staying sober, it must have been a real test especially with no Internet access. Hopefully things won't be quite so tough now you are back home.

Well I'll drop by again later.

Thinking of you all x

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

Welp, not doing well myself. Managed to get some domestic errands done but didn't work out at all this weekend. Slept alot and felt sad.....I decided to not fight it and just let it run it's course til it "subsides", guess this is what you call a "mid life crisis".

Anywho, I am grateful and more than anything in world having almost 6 months AF and still counting, is by far one of the most major life's accomplishment that I have done for myself. Just need to shake this "funk". I need to register for a half marathon and that will definitely help alittle of my funk.

Have a great week everyone and I will check in on Tuesday.

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 170

[scottish lass]

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Sorry Janet - I am not doing good either, but would probably be doing better if I was AF and feeling down, but turned back to my friend wine (yes, I hear you - no friend, got it, but it sure felt like it).
Going to try better this week.....
Hang in Sausage, you sound more positive....the other side of this will be wonderful!
Janice, sorry about the family, that is so hard...

hoping all some better days soon:l:l

[SAUSAGE]

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Why is everyone so down at the moment? Hope everyone picks up soon x

[Janice]

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Hi, oh dear what a sorry lot we are, arent we? But coming on here and reading all the support we give each other is therapy itself so more checking in for me this week! I've read your thread once Sausage and there's some great advice there...going to go back and reread.

xx

[Ishybit]

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Hi everyone,
I wonder if everyone is blue due to shorter days? I know for me, waking up in the dark and having it stay dark for a bit turns me into a sluuuuug. I certainly do not mean to trivialize anyone's feelings. Janet, it sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I know it's not easy, I hope you're o.k.
I have often thought, that anyone over the age of 40 should be on happy pills. Sometimes reality, whether its good,bad,boring,quiet, tired, or whatever, sometimes it just sucks!

PJ, my new addiction is crossfit. You have to check it out. It will only compliment your running. It's crazy. workouts are different everyday, you build a community with other people, and you'll get that awesome high and feeling of accomplishment as you progress.
Hi sausage, SL, tammie!!
I have to go, girls need my ipad. Grrrr.
Hang in there everyone.
Ishy

[Janice]

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a quick check in from me tonight. Hope everyone is doing okay. SLass hope you are getting through this week okay, Ishy you are sounding good, Janet & Sausage hope you are both feeling better. Not felt so grt today but think I'm going down with something..in a way I'm relieved as it explains why I've had no energy & feeling pretty run down. Had a very lazy day but had an hour in the garden late afternoon as it was so nice and decided to plant some more spring bulbs. The smell of autumn & the beautiful colours around me did me good & made me think how lucky I am.

Night night everyone..will check back tomorrow. xx

[planetjanet]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hello Everyone,

Got home late, so I am just going to write a quick post to say hello and will write more tomorrow. Feeling somewhat better, been reading alot of "self help" books and started working out again, Ishybit, thanks for the crossfit info and I will check it out. Getting back to working out again, is key for me right now. Work has been so crazy busy, wow no matter what I just can't seem to catch up, ggggrrrrh.

Anywho, I will check back in tomorrow and big hug to you all.

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 173