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[ThreeDogNight]

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Hi, Janet, Janice and everyone else.

Janice, so sorry about your mom. It's so sad to have to deal with that. I had to do it with both parents, and it just escalated my drinking. So proud of you for announcing your sobriety on FB. You are doing just great!

Janet, you too are doing great! Wow-working on the high school GED is pretty amazing!! And yes, you can then go on and on. . . and on! I have a college degree and almost completed my Master's, but, in all honesty, the friends I have whose intelligence and talent I most admire, never went to college. It means nothing in the grand scheme of things. But what you are doing is admirable! And I hope that you find a job soon. You deserve it. BTW, how is the pup doing?

Hope you are all enjoying a good AF weekend!

:lto all.

[katiekatlyn]

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Hi, I just stopped yesterday, lucky num 3 tree for me.i would love a 30 day buddy!

[planetjanet]

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Hi Katiekatlyn,

Welcome and even though I am ten months AF (alcohol free), I don't mind joining you. However, I have say that this thread is slowly fading, so I would advise that you also venture out into other threads as well and TRY to post everyday even if it's just two words, trust me it helps out alot. This is a great place and you will definitely get ALOT of support.

Best of luck to you and again welcome........keep posting....

Hello Everyone else,

Hope you all are doing well. I have been doing the usual job search and sort of training for my next half marathon in April. I have to say that this job search has been real depressing and as a result I will cave and eat that chocolate muffin...yikes!!! I know...better than drinking alcohol, however I can't replace one bad for another bad. But these are the things I am learning and will eventually be able to balance out. Good news, I passed one (social studies) of five tests that I need for my diploma, only four more to go...next subject Science.

Have a great week and I will check back in later this week or weekend.

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 327

[ThreeDogNight]

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Welcome Katie.

Janet, you are still doing well! Great news on the test. Good luck on the next one, and good luck with your job search! A choclate muffin is better than alcohol, and ith all your training, it probably isn't so bad!

Hope everyone else is doing well.

TDN

[Janice]

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Hi everyone...

Oh it seems a long time since I posted and I'm so sorry about that. But nightmare few weeks with one thing and another (I'll try not to bore the socks off you!) and I finally have some time to myself.

I have a lot of family problems going on at the moment all to do with the care of my Mam & brother and the amount of time my two sisters (who live in the same town as my mam & brother) are spending on them both (or I should say lack of time). Its been an awful time of arguments and accusations and I must admit there have been times when there's been the fleeting thought of....I need a drink.

Relieved to say thats all they were...fleeting thoughts. My sobriety is far too precious and I know drinking will not relieve the problems I'm having but will just add to them. I have felt absolutely exhausted physically and wrung out emotionally and even though I have checked in here the odd day, I just havent been able to post....I would just start to cry. The travelling has definitely caught up with me but also I think the last 5 years have since losing Dad. Thank God for my lovely hubby, my son & daughter, my home & my sobriety...

Janet, sorry to hear you're not having much luck with the job search - full of admiration for you going back to finish your studies!! Well done passing social studies & good luck with the science! I'm glad to hear you've been at the sweet stuff too...I am absolutely dreadful!!! I might have a nicely repaired liver but I'm starting to worry abt my teeth now lol cause I'm eating so many desserts, cakes etc whereas when I was drinking I never ever touch sweet food...I was always a savoury person!

TDN hope you are okay and now steady on your AF path after your little slip. Yes my drinking definitely escalated all throughout mam & dad's problems. I think I tried to take responsibility for mam's drinking and the chaos that followed and even now I still think its my responsibility to make sure everythings okay. I joined MWO in 2007, the year I lost Dad, and probably my drinking had built up over the 5 years prior to that.

A big welcome to Katie but Janet's right, you need to be on a busier thread at the beginning of this journey....lots of luck to you and remember you've nothing to give up. That's what really helped me this last time...knowing I wasnt depriving myself by not drinking...in fact its the other way round.

Oh dear I'm rambling on...havent had breakfast yet so going to sign off, get ready & meet up with a friend in town for coffee.

Love to everyone xx

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

Wow, or should rephrase that to "Hello Anyone?"...LOL.. I too, feel bad that I haven't been posting as often as I like and partly it's because I really don't have much to write about, other than the usual "blah blah". I am still struggling with the job search, however through it all, I am still remaining AF and that's what keeps me sane.

Janice, sorry to hear about your family and way to go on staying AF through it all. I realized after reading your last post that it's very important for me to plan a visit with my mother and to put my "angry" feelings towards her aside. Sad to say, my mother really was not a loving mother and ALOT of that had to do with the fact that we (my sister too) were adopted. It's was quite obvious and heart wrenching that while growing up and even now, she treated my sister and I completely different then my three brothers, who are her biological sons. Anywho, that's another blah blah story....LOL. Sorry to be so boring but my mind is just drawing blanks on what to write about....LOL. I hope you guys are all doing well and you are in my thoughts.

Welp. I am going to sign off and will check back in next week. Sausage, hope you are doing good. TDN, how you doing? SL & Ishybit, what's new with you guys?

Gotta get outside and take the dog out for a walk.

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 337

[ThreeDogNight]

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Hi, Janet, Janice and everyone else.

Glad to see you to--Janet and Janice posting. You started a great thread quite a while ago, and I don't post as often as I should, but will try to do that more often.

Janet, that really is very sad about your adoptive mother. What the heck did she adopt you girls if she didn't want to?? It has to be so hard to handle all that. But you remain AF. Impressive!

I lost my old dog on Monday, and it is so awful to have lost two in under five months. I remember the day i got him from the shelter in September, 2001. I was just taking him for the weekend, and ahd a foster home arranged. Well, he was so darn sweet and got along great with our other dog, that I knew I could never let him go. He had the worst case of hip displaysia our vet had ever seen, but we took him to a holistic vet and he did so well for so long. But he had lost control of his back end, and had accidents, etc. and I knew we had to let him go. He would have been sixteen next month. So now we just have one-maybe I should change my screen name--and I plan to spoil him even more now.

:lto everybody!

TDN

[ThreeDogNight]

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Just want to wish everyone here a very happy Easter! Janet, Janice, Ishy, Sausage and anyone else checking in today--enjoy the day ith family or friends or pets, etc. Finally sunny here after the winter from hell!
:lTDN

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

A real quick post before I start my crazy day........

TDN, oh sweetie I am soooo sorry to hear about your doggie, however it sounds like you were able to have some fond memories and NO please don't change your screen name. I think that even though your doggie is gone, he is still your doggie in a spiritual way. Make sense? Once again, my condolences, losing a pet is a very tough thing. A big, big, hug for you my friend...

Hello Everyone,

I am happy to say that I have two interviews lined up for Wednesday and Thursday. Wahooo!! I got a really good feeling for the one on Thursday, the lady was very nice to take the time to talk about the position. I have been bad in not doing my studies, so today is the day that I will start getting back into that routine and finish up Science by the end of this week. I also started my training for my next running event, the Jolla Half Maraton on April 28th. My doggie SweetPea is doing great, took her to Venice Beach for the first time, she didn't like it. It can get really crowded with tourists and other dogs too.

Anywho, I have to back to getting things done....lots of hugs to all. Today, April 2nd, will be 11 months AF and wow what can I say, nothing, absolutely speechless. There are just too many words to describe what a great feeling it is to have such control, however I am also very aware that staying AF will always be something to never be taken for granted.

Okay, now I really do need to sign off...will check back in soon.

Lots of hugs,
Janet
AF Day 342

[ThreeDogNight]

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Congrats on 11 months, Janet!!! With all you have been through, this is just amazing. I admire you more than you can know And honestly, I don't think i could pass any of those GED tests, especially Math and Science. Yes, I have a college degree, but also sell textbooks, and look at what the state and national tests ask--and I know I couldn't do it. So good for you!!!
Hug Sweet Pea for me
Let us know how the interviews go.

Hope the interviews go well. I know you'll find a new job soon, and I hope it is this week!!

:lTDN

[dschroff]

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Janet, I have been reading this thread and I am impressed with what you have accomplished. I am 42 and have been battling this problem for 20 years. I am also a runner and I have spend most of my last 20 years alcohol free, but not now. I have been very successful with marathons and halfs while sober, but I can't seem to get back to that state. Keep up the running and wish me luck... nothing is better for the mind and body than running....

[Change]

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Right, i'm back in this thread. Sorry, haven't had time to read everyone's updates yet as i think that i've got to put it out there in order to give this decision some forward motion.

Long story short: 12 weeks completely sober, one weekend away, minor drinking. Two weeks to recover both physically and mentally, but never really recovered 100% psychologically, not sure why. Weakened my resolve again on Monday and last night bought and consumed the poison.

Early this morning, realised i need to throw the remainder of that bottle away and start again from Day 1!

So, here i am. I'm feeling a fairly motivated and that i can again achieve this long term.

Thanks for listening and sorry for ranting. Will be back later to catch up on everybody's news

[Change]

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planetjanet;1484194 wrote: Hello Everyone,

Wow, or should rephrase that to "Hello Anyone?"...LOL..

LOL Janet, you have an awesome sense of humour

I'll be back later.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Change!

You CAN do this. I hit 40 days MANY times and then BAM! Something happened and I felt like I didn't have a problem anymore. Anyway, you can guess what happened. I started over so many times I can't even count. But I learned something each time and my resolve grew stronger. I finally accepted that I just can't drink. I tried and I tried, but it just doesn't work for me. Get back up and start over...we're here for you!

Love,
K9

[Change]

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K9Lover;1487221 wrote: Hi Change!

You CAN do this. I hit 40 days MANY times and then BAM! Something happened and I felt like I didn't have a problem anymore. Anyway, you can guess what happened. I started over so many times I can't even count. But I learned something each time and my resolve grew stronger. I finally accepted that I just can't drink. I tried and I tried, but it just doesn't work for me. Get back up and start over...we're here for you!

Love,
K9

Thanks Love! You are an inspiration to many here, including myself. I even thought of you today when I went to the tobacconist to buy more cigerettes and didn't buy any, but of course I knew I had enough in my packet to roll two more so I'll come to that decision when I completely run out, but giving up is low on my list compared to kicking this evil poison!

Janice, I'm sorry to hear about your mum, it's ironic that we eventually become the parents isn't it? I guess it's her journey and you still have to put yourself first because you owe it to yourself.

Janet, how did the job interviews go? Or did I miss something? Any news?

Dschnoff, 42 is not too old.. Stick with the thread and let us know how you are doing.

Well, I've finally reached 5 days again, although I could easily slip cos that whole "who cares" thing is slipping back into my mind, but I realise it won't solve anything and that in fact, it will make things worse and then I'll have to come back to this thread with my tail between my legs just feeling a bit lonely today and "meh", but I'll get through it!

Anyhow, will be back later to see how everyone's going... Stay cool everyone and be kind to yourselves