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[planetjanet]

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Hi Everyone,

Its late and I am bed, will post more in the morning...

Hug,
Janet
AF Day 17

[Ishybit]

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Hello everyone!
I hope everyone is feeling good. I woke up feeling more positive and strong again. Sausage, yesterday I was feeling a little lost and fragile but I kept thinking of what you said about after day 13 it gets easier. Well today is day 13 for me so here I go. I'm trying not to obsess about the days. Im still trying to keep blinders on and just focus on little chunks at a time. I also try not to look too far down the road, I don't want to feel like its insurmountable and start a pity party. Ive been reading the "what I hate,loathe about al" and "what I love about being sober" threads. They are very helpful!
I'm off for a run with a friend.
Have a great AF day everyone!
Ishy

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

Ishybit, glad to hear you are feeling good and congrats on your run. Way to go on Day 13, that's great. Sausage, wahooo on Day 86!!! Janice, high five on Day 10, right?

Well, my interview yesterday was not so good. The office location was great and the office wow the view from the 20th floor was breathtaking, it's the only way one can live in Los Angeles is looking down at it..LOL. But then the office manager came into the conference room and the interview went from nice to TOTALLY uncomfortable. It started coming clear to me during the interview, that this is one of those type of companies that you have to suck up when the partners of the firm can treat you like sh*t, EVEN when you didn't do anything wrong. This is a place that if you are expecting a "way to go" for working hard, "forget it sister"...LOL. I spoke to my BFF afterwards and he said that there's no way I could have lasted in that place and he was right. So, I was very bummed but the good thing is I managed to gear up and go for a four mile run. So, it's back to the job search AGAIN, but I am feeling positive that something will come up.

Today, I am heading out for a hike, the dog park and then will go running in the late afternoon. Hope everyone is have a good Saturday and enjoying the great outdoors. Thanks again for your posts....I will check in tonight.

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 18 (2 days from 20, 10 days from 30)

[SAUSAGE]

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Hi everyone

Sorry to hear about the interview Janet but sounds like it wasn't the right place for you. Remember an interview is a two way process and it is for you to see if you would like them, as well as if they like you. A lot of people forget this especially at a time of recession like this. Sounds like it wasn't the right environment for you. At least going for the interview will have given you experience, and you still are staying focused. Good that you went for a run afterwards.

Ishy a lot of people have commented on this day 13 thing, besides me on here. If it doesn't seem a turning point for you ( and you are nearly there too Janice) don't be too despondent, something will change for you very soon, it is slightly different for everyone, we are all individuals. With very day you get more experience to deal with the cravings and expand your world with other things.

Hi to K9 and everyone else following this thread who I've missed out.

Got to go and get my evening meal now, but I'll look back into MWO before bed.

Sausage x
Day 86

[Janice]

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Hi everyone...not had a chance to post today until now and sooo tired and achey with swimming this morning then gardening this afternoon! Hubby opened the wine at 4.30 so I stayed outside and worked! Then came in & had a bath with my Jason Vale book. Janet, Sausage is right...you dont want to work somewhere like that, its got to be right for you too!! Sounds like you had a lucky escape!! xx

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

Had a good day, however because of timing, didn't get a chance to hike nor run, however I did do a 45 minute on the elliptical and oh take my doggie to the dog park. I am now baking homemade banana bread, yummmmy!! I did have alittle bit of a anxiety attack regarding my job search but I am just going to keep praying and holding onto my faith that something will come my way. Yes, I agree with you guys, that job would have made me soooooo miserable.

Congrats to everyone on your AF days! It's great to read that you guys are running, swimming or gardening. It's so nice to be outside and enjoying the day and the evening. I just love waking up with no hang overs and wow it's so nice to take a cat nap during the afternoon and really feel well rested.

Okay, well SNL is on (Mick Jagger is the host) and I FINALLY finished baking my banana bread, bummer didn't have chance to taste it being as it's late but looking forward to having it with my coffee tomorrow. Wishing you guys a nice Sunday

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 18 (2 days til 20 & 10 days til 30)

[SAUSAGE]

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Quick hello from me.

Safely through day 87. For those of you wondering how long I'll count individual days for - I intend to til I get to day 257 ( the point where I started drinking after 8.5 months). Once I've passed this ( which I've calculated is early November ), I will then stop counting obsessively and just work towards the 1 year anniversary in Feb 2013. Until I get past day 257, only then will I feel I'm getting somewhere! I do have AA sobriety calculator on my mobile which keeps track of my days if I want to know.

Hope everyone is doing OK?
I'll be back tomorrow.

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

It's late and I am already in bed. Had a really long day and so I will write more tomorrow morning. Hope you guys had a nice Sunday.

Hugs,
AF Day 19 (1 day til 20 & 10 days til 30)

[Janice]

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A quick check in, hopefully will get more time tonight!! Day 13 for me! Have a great day everyone! xx

[bent]

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my first 30 day af

I'm new to the community and haven't done a30 day af since My baby boy was born..he's 2 and a half..I'm well over due.Been sober two days..im here If someone also neefs support, peace:-)

[Ishybit]

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Hi bent and welcome.
Great job on the 2 days. Isn't it amazing how quickly drinking days/ years are racked up? I've known I've been a promblemed drinker for at least 20 years! What the hell? How did it happen....although I think it was the first drink at 13 that put me over the edge. It's hard to come to terms with it, difficult to talk about but the more I do, the more I "own" it. It's helpful to keep posting....I tend to get a little lazy but I find when I do post I have a little more clarity on alcohol and its role in my life. Im still taking baby steps and that is working for now.
Hello everyone else. 87 days is amazing sausage. Pj it's great that you can recognize a work environment that doesn't fit for you! Movin on I say. Janice, I think we're around the same number of days.
Happy af Monday !
Ishy

[SAUSAGE]

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Hi everyone

Good to see you here Bent, the first few days / week are the hardest but it gets easier after that. You may also like to join the Newbies Nest thread in Just Starting out, where you will meet other people in the early stages of quitting and consult the Tool Box thread in Monthly Abstinence for ideas when you are struggling.

Hi Janet, Ishy, Janice and everyone else, hope all Ok.

Will drop in tomorrow night after work.

Sausage x
Day 88

[Janice]

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Welcome Bent...and well done on your 2 days!! Yes Ishy, we're on the same day 13 and its flown by so stick with it Bent because you will soon see & feel the benefit!!! The best part for me is going to bed, sleeping well & waking up feeling so different to how it was 13 days ago!! Instead of waking in a hot sweat in the middle of the night with my heart racing like its jumping out of my chest, not to mention the panic attacks I have abt how much I'm drinking & the harm I'm doing to my body....I almost get excited abt going to bed now!!! I'm travelling up north to see my lovely mam tomorrow who is in residential care in the late stages of dementia. Each time I go I worry in case this time she wont know who I am. Mam was an alcoholic (or as Jason Vale wld say, an Alcohol Addict). She has cirrhosis (sp?) of the liver & has had a kidney removed. She hasnt had a drink for four years now (since being in care) but the damage has been done. Her drinking caused so much misery, stress, & upset to my family over the years & for many reasons, going 'home' is always stressful...and its always been my 'trigger' but I will be fine tomorrow, there's no way I want to losehow I feel right now. Take care all & I will check back in on Wednesday. xx

[planetjanet]

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Welcome Bent and a "high five and way to go" on 2 days. I agree with other posts, you will DEFINITELY start feel the "benefits" and it might even be something so simple, it's great. Look forward to reading your progress.

Congrats Sausage, on Day 88, wow you are 12 days from 100....triple digits!!!! Congrats Ishybit & Janice for Day 13. Janice, I totally relate to what you wrote, the panic attacks and wow it's so nice going to bed and being able to just fall asleep, instead of passing out. My favorite is taking cat naps, wow when I awake my body just feels so refreshed, especially when I take one after a 4 mile run. I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I too, can relate about being around my family, they are definitely defined as being the most self absorbed people I know and it definitely could be a trigger for me. I am quite confident that you will be able to stir away from those triggers and you know that there is LOTS of support here. It's so sad to know that alcohol has really ruin my life and kept me from lots of opportunities. But it makes me happy now to knowing that if I don't drink, those opportunities will come again and maybe even better. Speaking of better opportunity, I have another job interview tomorrow at 3:00pm and I am really have a good feeling about this place. The best part is it's really close to where I live and I could ride my bike into work, how cool is that. I spoke to the guy and he seemed really nice, not like that other woman. Yikes, she scared me....she kind of reminded me of the principal in Uncle Buck. Have you guys seen that movie? Oh wow, that is a great John Candy classic. Sausage, I was thinking of about what you wrote regarding day counts and I think after a year would apply to me too.

Okay, well I am tuckered out and will be heading to bed. Glad to hear that everyone is doing well and Janice please keep us posted about how you are doing during your family visit. I will write tomorrow after my interview, oh keep your fingers crossed.

Have a great evening and/or morning : )

Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 20 (10 days til 30)

[SAUSAGE]

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Late check in for me, long day at work but wanted to stay accountable here on day 89.
See you all tomorrow.