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[SAUSAGE]

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Happy Christmas everyone - been so hectic these last few days - still haven't got everything done. Will post more these next couple of days. Just having a mug of tea and then falling into bed. Still don't think the kids are asleep :-(

Merry Christmas everyone xx

[scottish lass]

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Hi all - quick check in, feeling pretty low and really struggling, so won't hang around and bring everyone down. I do miss M&S and Sainsburys!!!
TDN, bucks fizz is similar to mimosas.....
Have a great Christmas all, will check in later...

[ThreeDogNight]

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Merry Christmas to everybody.

Although I am feeling like SL--low--after receiving on Chrismtas Eve yet another letter from the RMV, this time stating that they are revoking my license for another two years. I don't know how I even made it to chuch services last night. I called my sister, an attorney in the state, but she doesn't handle criminal law, but got me a friend to represent me in court when I got the DUI in May, 2010. I had called him a few weeks back when I was having trouble with the probation officer's lack of response, but never heard from him. My sister will try to email him so he knows I am not looking for free advice. If I need a different attorney, I'll have to go for that. Makes me wonder what the relationship between the court and this RMV is. And if this affects my ability to get my license back in this state--well, don't even know how I'll deal with that. I have been trying so hard to remain positive, hoping that this was coming to an end, but now I feel like I can't even fight any longer. I had to take an Ativan--had a few left from last year--just to be able to function and sleep. I felt like drinking, as I was thinking that I'll just be trapped again, but I know I won't go there--it is what brought on all my troubles.
We have friends coming this afternoon for Christmas, and they know nothing about this first DUI, just the one here, and think I'm all set to get my license back this week. I need to put a smile on my face and hope for the best!
Nice to see you again, Sausage, and so proud fo your long AF time!
TDN

[Janice]

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Just a quick pop in to say Merry Christmas!!! A really lovely day here!! Just settling down to watch Downtown on tele tonight.....great!! (the champagne has been flowing freely amongst the family but definitely not tempted). Enjoying my cranberry & tonic water!! Merry Christmas everyone. xx

[planetjanet]

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Merry Christmas Everyone,

In bed already...actually pretty much all day but I got through it. Glad to see that everyone had a nice holiday.

Nite nite..will check back in tomorrow..


Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 244

[ThreeDogNight]

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Good morning, all.

Janet, I'm glad you made it through the day, but sorry you spent a lot of it in bed. It's very hard to be alone on big holidays, especially Christmas. But it's over and you stayed AF!:goodjob:

We had a nice day with our friends, hom e don't see enough. Had a sparkling sugar free blood orange drink, which was delicious. Great dinner, too. The guy has a lot of weight to lose and has stopped drinking, except when they go to a restaurant, and the woman can take it or leave it So it was good not to be around drinkers. I had to buy a small bottle of red wine for one of the dishes, but it didn't tempt me at all.

Today I will try to find an attorney to help me with the mess with the RMV (DMV.) And we are supposed to get a foot of snow tonight into tomorrow:upset: HOpe we can at least get out to do a few errands today.

Janice, sounds like you had a great day and the champagne flowed right by you! Is Downtown Downton Abbey? The ne season hasn't strted here yet, but I watch last season's epeisodes whenever I can. Love that show.

Have a great AF day, everyone! Are you off work today, Janet?

TDN

[Janice]

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Hi everyone..another late checkin. Janet, good to hear from you, sending you big hugs xx TDN hope you get sorted with your attorney & that you're not knee deep in snow!! (I'd love a little instead of all this heavy rain we're getting!) Yes, Downtown Abbey!! The Christmas Special was on last night...it was lovely all the way through, absolutely lovely. I wont tell you what happened but the producers went & spoilt it in the last two minutes & a lot of people in the UK went to bed feeling very sad!!!

See you tomorrow! xx

[SAUSAGE]

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Hi everyone

Christmas came and went in a flash, can't believe it is the 27th already! As I sat enjoying a mug of tea watching TV on Christmas Day evening I I did think of all the people worldwide who'd drunk too much today and how they would be feeling. Janice it sounds as though your first AF Christmas wasn't as difficult as you expected, which is great news. I don't normally watch Downton Abbey but I did try and watch the Xmas episode ( as everyone raves about this series) but I couldn't get into it so gave up after a few mins :-( watched a programme on the Military Wives choir instead.

Glad you managed to get through the day Janet, now concentrate on your goals for 2013 and make a list of what you have achieved in 2012 and where you'd like to be by the end of 2013. I love new year, it's a great time for reflection and planning your future goals.

Back later xx

[Janice]

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Hi Sausage..and all who stop by today,

Sausage I think the build up to Christmas was more difficult than Christmas itself!! Its also helped that hubby hasnt drank as much as usual as he's been ill with "man flu"!! I've really enjoyed my cranberry & tonic waters and tucked into the choccies this year which I'm definitely not feeling guilty about. A girl has to have some pleasures lol!!

My daughter's 24th birthday tomorrow ...busy getting all her things together as next Wednesday we take her down to Exeter to start her new job where she'll be living. She's been home two years since finishing Uni and its been lovely having her home again. She's my best buddy and I'm dreading her going. Still...a few little trips for me in the future I'm sure!

Hope everyone is doing well and that the festive period has not been too stressful.

xx

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone,

Seasons Greetings : ) LOL, I have tried numerous times to write a post and for some insane reason I get distracted...grrrrggh.

Wow, so this is it.....we are days from ringing in 2013 and even though I am going to be alone, the thought of me ringing in MY new year 8 months AF (Jan 2nd)...woooweee that just makes everything "ok".

Sausage, thanks for the advice and I definitely will start crackin on that 2013 list : )

Janice, so nice to read about how close your are to your daughter and looking forward to reading about your trips when you visit her. Oh by the way, how is your mother doing?

SL, how are you? Would you care to share alittle of what you are dealing with? Please TRY sweetie to keep posting, ESPECIALLY when you are feeling low. There is really good book I am reading called Treat Yourself to Life by Raymond Charles Barker, he's got some good advice. However, sometimes he tends to get alittle too deep but for the most part it's a good read.

Ishybit, what's the weather in your neck of the woods. I am actually going to be running the La Jolla and American Finest (held in San Diego too) next year. I am looking forward to doing this, however it will be strange going back to a place where I lived with my ex-boyfriend, who still lives there and is still drinking heavily!!! What are you plans for the new year?

TDN, hope you were able to sort out finding an attorney. I am sure you can agree with me when I say that straightening out this DUI has been EXHAUSTING...sheesh. Which is why I never made an attempt to sort it out and being a drunk only made it nearly IMPOSSIBLE. And so my story goes... I too, had a DUI back in 1992 while trying to attempt suicide, which resulted me being ejected through the windshield of my car and wow by the grace of my Guardian Angel, landed on the dirt side of Pacific Coast Hwy in Malibu, instead of the side where the parked cars were....I could have died...I could have been physically disabled or scarred from popping out that windshield for the rest of my life. But no (tears forming), I was released from the hospital that night with a few stitches above my eye, a fractured ankle, sore shoulder and some minor cuts and bruises. The sad part is you would think that would have been my wake up call to quit drinking but no and here's where it got really weird, months after my accident and fully recovered. I decided to start picking up the pieces and look for a job. I was so excited to have been FINALLY called back for a second interview for a Receptionist position at a law firm. Okay get this....so I go into the second interview feeling happy and come to find out that they are the law firm that represented the people I had hit during my accident. There was no second interview, this was the attorney's calling back to ask me "Ah so Ms. Janet, when do you plan to pay for our clients damages to their car". OMG, I swear I nearly fainted in that interview...luckily the people I hit were not injured at all, but boy oh boy, oh man did I feel just awful. What if I killed or seriously disabled, scarred these people and come to think of it, I did scar them with fear during that accident. Oh wow, that's a guilt that well has subsided but never will be FORGOTTEN. The reason why it's been a pain for me to get my license is because when I was in the hospital, I told the sheriff that I didn't want to live anymore and so in his report he stated that he felt I was a danger and so the DMV read it and placed a suspension on my license until I have a Drivers Medical Evaluation/Mental Health Exam filled out by a doctor and therapist before getting my license back. All of which cost money and can't afford it at this time and during the times I did have insurance, I was drinking and feared going to see a doctor. So, here I am now and ready to start working on finding some affordable health care to FINALLY get this form filled out. I am so looking forward to one day posting you guys the story of me getting my license back and that 'ONE DAY" will be in 2013!!!!

Anywho...phew that was alot...Wow, I am sure you guys must be EXHAUSTED reading that...LOL and sorry for the grammatical typos and thanks for reading. I am going to start my four day weekend and right now it's cloudy and raining which is sooooo nice, listening to Opera and have the candles lit. Unfortunately, not so nice for my doggie because she can't go out and play her lovely game with me of fetch, which she loves to play over and over and over...etc......Sheesh, my doggie is just full of energy, LOL she even chases her tail, too cute....lucky me : ) It's supposed to be clear tomorrow and the rest of weekend, so her and I will have plenty of time to get PLENTY of exercise. EEEEKK, I have a half marathon on the 27th of January....gotta start training to beat my time. But today it's nice to have a cup of coffee and search the web : )

Have a great day everyone and I will definitely be check back in before the new year : )

Lots of hugs,
Janet
AF Day 248

[ThreeDogNight]

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My dear Janet!!! I thank you so much for sharing your story!! It took a lot of courage to do that, and I am sure it brought back a lot of not-so-nice memories!! The "interview" gave me the shivers. Boy, you have come a long way, and I give you a lot of credit. And I KNOW you'll get your exam/counseling done in 2013. Are you sure that there isn't a statute of limitations on that sheriff's requirement? Seems that after all this time, there may be.

I don't have health overage, either--for the first time in my life. My COBRA ran out last February, and because of a short term detox/rehab that my insurance was billed for (and left me with about $3,000 to pay on my own!), I as denied coverage, except for a policy that would ost me almost $800 a month. For 8 months, I paid about $120 a month to see a doctor who doesn't accept insurance and could do a lot of things. Got a physical, blood work and an EKG, but never needed anything more. The doctor was forced to close his practice last month, so I now need to work on finding something.

Found an attorney online who specializes in the DMV things, and sent a check for $1200 yesterday, He clams that this whole thing is illegal--that that state cannot suspend me for a DUI that occured in another state (mine) on my license. The attorney who handled my DUI in that state told me he'd handle it for $5,000!! Think that is his "standard" fee, but he charged me half the first time because he is a friend of my sister. I'm even pissed that I have to pay anything to such a corrupt state!! And I pray this ill lear things up for me to get my license back.

Snowing again here, and muh more than was predicted. I am not a fan of winter!

:thanks: and :l. Janet! I'm sure your story will inspire many others.

Hope eve:lryone else is doing well today.

[ThreeDogNight]

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Just checking in to see how everyone is doing. I am feeling a bit down again for a few reasons, but trying to hang in and look toward 2013. Hope you all check in today.

[Janice]

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Hi everyone, Janet what a story..you are so inspiring and what you've been through makes your sobriety & your positive "can do" attitude & your encouragement to others all the more amazing. xx (Mam is pretty much the same..thanks for asking)

TDN hang on in there..remember you ARE allowed to feel down, ride it out. Drinking will not take away those feelings, they would still be there the next day except you would feel so much worse. Sending you a big hug. xx

Sorry its a quick post but wanted to check in today to wish everyone a very Happy New Year & to thank you for all your support & friendship on here during 2012. I am really looking forward to 2013 & its all the more special because of my sobriety. I am so chuffed to get through Christmas and if someone had told me this last year, I wouldnt have believed them.

Might not get online for a few days after tomorrow as taking my daughter to Exeter on Wednesday. Helping to move her into her new flat ready to start her new job down there. Going to really miss her. Anyway if I dont get back on I just want to thank you all for all your support during 2012...I wouldnt have got to where I am today without this little thread. Thank you!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! XX

[scottish lass]

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Hi Janet - I am here and hanging in - lots going on which hurt, but it is allowing me to get sorted out and planning to move forward - 2013 is going to be a good year for me - can't be as bad as last year for sure!!! Drinking more than I want, but not doing too badly - I think I will end up with about 21 AF days in Dec. Thanks for checking in with me - I do read this thread daily and take strength from you all, sorry I am not a strong poster....
Happy NY all my friends here....

[planetjanet]

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR....YIPPPPEEE A NEW YEAR!!!

:disco:

Thank you guys so VERY, VERY, much for your support and for being such a big PART of me staying sober. Janice, I too agree, if someone told me last year that I would be ringing in 2013 8 months alcohol free, I wouldn't believe it myself. Janice, have a great visit with your daughter. TDN, hope you are doing okay and remember that we are all here for you. SL, thank you so much for posting, there is no "bad" or "good" poster. I agree, the new year is definitely what you need, so go for.......I believe in you :l (a big hug to you) Congrats on AF days in December. Sausage, a big, big, hug to you...

Anywho, guys I am about to watch the ball drop, shed a few tears :upset: of happiness and sadness. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! WAHOOOO 2013!!!!!

Lots of hugs,
Janet
AF Day 250