Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

[imnosaint]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

I was so bad one time i was yellow,
But I conned myself that it was a Tan.
My liver was badly Affected,but I did not want to know.
I got away from the Beast Alcohol by Going to AA...Regurally.
The obsession....in time lifted TG.
Heres wishing you Sucess in you bid for abstanence.

[mama bear]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

LOVE IT
all aspects are needed here...tough love and tenderness
we alkies arae fragile beings at first
but we need to hear the truth...as long as is not an attack...
brutual honesty is good for me now...

[mama bear]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

and my beloved Hubs is a Supercrew too!!!!
he is really good for me

[janka]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

all sounds vg

[Ghostwriter]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

All such good comments

It is such a process. My ex husband drank since he was twelve. Got sober and went off the wagon a hundred times until he almost had a stroke four years ago. He had already lost his wife, his everyday life with his kids, his house, his career as a firefighter, and was jailed for arson. But I do believe that he will now never drink again. He runs and swims every day, goes to one or two AA meetings every day, and will not touch any processed food. I tell you, when I got on that scale yesterday and saw that, despite my exercising and dieting for two months, I had gained ten pounds, it really put the screws in me. There is definitely something wrong with my body, and it has to stop. I am a mother of two little girls, and no one else is going to take care of them. I've been drinking a half liter to a liter of hard liquor for over ten years, and I'm being a reckless fool, and no one can stop it but me.
I forced myself to drink a glass of wine at dinner last night, as I was very shaky, and again forced myself to drink a shot this morning before a singing committment, as I was very shaky and afraid I'd have a stroke or heart attack from withdrawl, but I tell you I am scared now, really scared.
The advice to not worry about the weight and to be good to myself is being heard well here. The weight makes me sad, yes, and I look forward to looking the way "I" really look again, but the weight is more a sign of how sick I am, and so I am determined to hold a peace inside me from now on, secure in the knowledge that I will be myself, in my own body once again, when I am healed. Yes, also good advice is to just keep adding to the arsenal of good things: suplements and good foods that make us well and better, not things that kill us.
The diet I went back to a month ago to help lose weight was Suzanne Somers' food combining diet, which helped me lose twenty pounds after my last child was born. It's a simple diet which dictates eating proteins, veggies and fats together or whole grains and veggies together, but not combined, and fruits completely separately. Nothing processed. It works really well--if you aren't also drinking a liter of vodka or two liters of wine or sixteen beers a day The program does allow, a little later, a glass of wine and a bit of chocolate. Gosh, when I look back to when my daughter was born and I was on the program the first time, I would buy the bottle of wine, pour a glass for my husband and me, and then put the cork back in for the next night. Doesn't that seem like a million years ago for those of you who are still struggling?
My ex husband and I marvel at it all the time: all the dates we had when we went out for coffee or cooked dinner and never thought of buying wine or making drinks!
I always talk about my drinking being a bad habit, and this forum has truly given me hope that it is.

[LibraryGirl]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

AL can definitely be a bad habit. I look back at times when I would do things without AL (long, long ago), and wonder when did it become necessary? However, it's almost like looking back at your youth. You will never get it back. Once a pickle, never again a cucumber.

What I meant was, we can't go back and just have a glass of wine every now and then like we once did. Once you have a problem with AL, you always will. If you manage to moderate, it will not be easy, and the threat of over-indulging is always present, not to mention it will never be casual like it once was. As in, sure I'll have a glass, and then never think about having another.

[Kaslo]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

Ghostwriter, you have what it takes, I can just tell.

All such good comments on this thread, its pure gold. I especially love what Supercrew has to say here. I suspect that everyone that successfully quits has a slightly different threshold they pass over where they just know they are done. For good. Lots of runs at it, but one real end.

Ghostwriter, the physiology of your liver, brain, kidneys, gallbladder, gut, blood and eosophagus at least have taken a beating, but unless you have really hardened your liver up, you can recover. You will notice a change over a month, your skin and hair starts to look better. I see you are arming yourself with supplements and thats great. Drinking lots of water every day is really of benefit too. Any way you have a lot of advice from people, and its all good. But just have faith that the human body can recover very well from years of alcohol abuse.

It takes time, and hard work, exercise and good food (and of course not a drop of alcohol of any kind) but it does get better.

Kaslo

[Wildflowers]

Crying this morning. Just don't know if this is going to work again.

Boo

Just wondering how your doing GW? Hope your tirate down has been successful. Read that on another thread somewhere last wk. It took me 2-3 wks. Hope you will check in when you get a chance.

imnosaint;1325158 wrote:

I was so bad one time i was yellow,
But I conned myself that it was a Tan.
My liver was badly Affected,but I did not want to know.
I got away from the Beast Alcohol by Going to AA...Regurally.
The obsession....in time lifted TG.
Heres wishing you Sucess in you bid for abstanence.

It's just amazing the lies & lengths some of us go to. Some are in such deep denial, their bottoms end up being 6ft under. So very sad, when there are many ways out. I'm glad you found yours thru AA! I incorporate parts of AA in my program, along with other programs & tools.