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[cuddle_demon]

Just feeling so hopeless lately i find it hard explaining how i feel. When i drink i wish i was sober n when im sober i wish i was drunk. I havent drank today yet i more than likey will but i dont want to if that makes sense. I dont want alcohol in my life but i cant be without it. Just feel so hopeless:-(

[cuckoosnest83]

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cuddle_demon, I have no wise words of advice only I am in the same place you are. I like the feeling when I drink but hate the afterwards. My promise to myself is that I will give myself today to not drink. I can't promise anything beyond that but I will give myself the gift of being sober today. Please don't give up.

[porqoui]

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cuddle_demon :welcome: Did you take a page out of my book....just feeling so hopeless lately I find it hard explaing how I feel....that's exactly where I was when I decided something had to be done.

A wise woman on here, I think it was K9, said it was time for her "when drinking became harder than not drinking" That really hit home for me and I carry it with me wherever I go.

Find your way over to the Newbies Nest. There are alot of people where you are and alot of senior members who have been there and can help. The hoplessness will go, believe me I speak from experience. If you can't find the nest just ask, someone will post a link.

Just take it 15 min at a time and read, read, read. It really helps to start shifting the mind set.

Stay safe.......PPQ

[porqoui]

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Here's the link to the Newbies Nest.....

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...est-30074.html

[cuddle_demon]

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thank u x

[DriftyAlison0]

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Cuddle you can do this! I know the feeling all to well. The sober life is a lot better then the drunk life.

[dixon]

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I am sure everyone here who are now sober were in the same boat as you are now !
For me Its been 150 days actually I forgot to think about it.I remember only when I am here or somewhere in the Boozing place.I can't think of it now cause I have already started to love my life.
I like K9's quote .......as above.
Dix

[ATSO]

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I know exactly what you mean - I've used alcohol for everything, for so long, that I don't know how to live life without it. I wish I could be of more help, but I wish you the best of luck in reaching your goals X

[paulywogg]

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hi cuddle,i feel exactly the same as you! the longest ive done is 16 days af,and i didnt feel amazing,i felt like shit! i feel hungover even not drinking,tired,grouchy,ugh its still worth it not to drink,but i gotta find some kinda balance,good luck to you,and welcome!

[iamaquitter28]

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Hi Cuddle, I have exactly that same mindset. I absolutely HATE drinking. I hate how it makes me feel, I hate how I feel the next day, I hate the shame/guilt of not knowing what I did last night yet here I sit on day 1 AGAIN typing this post thinking maybe I should just drink today and quit tomorrow. I don't understand it and it's very frustrating. My advice to you; read read read. The only thing that keeps me sober is this website, really! It's the ONLY thing. I read other peoples stories, struggles and success' and it reinforces why I decided to quit. The days that I don't basically sit and creep the site all day are the days that I give in to my urges.

[199days]

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Hi Cuddles ! You really have to give yourself a prolonged period of time to get to a place where you feel you can make it .

I was the same 4 days here a week there sober etc etc. But always in the grip of alcoHELL, these mini periods without this drug are nothing really, it takes time for the fog to clear and then you can see what a ridiculous life ruling drug it is.

May I reccomend typing in AVRT bullets to google for a start , have a read and FOLLOW the bullets.

Grind it out, be bored stare at a ceiling for 24 hours YOU HAVE to get through these early days/weeks to give yourself a chance.

I can tell you things are so much better without alcoHELL, the only sad part is I keep thinking about the 25 years of my life I have wasted with it , very sad.

Ps I would say give yourself at least a 100 days MINIMUM to notice any real improvements.