Hi Catch,
For me, the question was/is.....why do i want to numb myself, or get high? Sure, it can be a bit of a release, but for me and us, the reasons usually go deeper than that, and soon enough i will want to get numb the best way i know how, and we all know where that leads. So i know that if i get high or in a mind altered state, i will get careless, and soon enough i will be drinking again, which then becomes self abuse, self pity, and loss of self.
If happiness is missing, I have to find what makes me happy, and surround myself with it as best i can. I am careful not to allow an empty hole to grow within me, that i may feel i need to fill with drugs or booze.
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