Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..:(

[lifechange]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

How are you doing, 199days? I was steered in your direction by Unwasted awhile ago and I got so much from your honest posts. Thanks for being here. I've had many opportunities the past almost 4 weeks, to learn different ways to deal with, handle, accept, understand, react or not react to, reject, etc the real raw feelings involved with living life without escapism. It's hard!!! sometimes, but I feel it's getting slowly, slowly easier. I'm learning to sit with uncomfortableness, uneasiness, fear of the unknown and uncontrollable. Hope to see you around--

[Wine-no!]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Hi 199, you gave me some sound advice about not going down the moderation route... I thought I could do if (twice in fact) but of course I couldn't and am back on day 13. I am going to read through this thread tomorrow and also check out your link. X

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Wine-no!;1561823 wrote: Hi 199, you gave me some sound advice about not going down the moderation route... I thought I could do if (twice in fact) but of course I couldn't and am back on day 13. I am going to read through this thread tomorrow and also check out your link. X

Like your style !

Moderation for those seeking slavery, obsession and prolonged torture.

Me myself have tried this fools gold option many times, all the hard work that is involved, then that empty wanting more feeling that you get is just crazy torture shit.

Not drinking Zilch /abstinence 100% is liberating , yes it can be tough, but cmon its only thoughts cravings you have to deal with.

And yes its day 623 !

Tuesday just gone went for a Meal with Mrs and My brother and His Mrs.

My brother drinks a lot, he drank bottle of Red to himself over meal. I had zero cravings, in fact watching him drink and see his personality change right before eyes was a joy to behold ! I thanked My maker that I did not have to drink anymore, I had a lovely meal with crazy banter etc . I am beginning to think that social occasions are just so much better when one is sober.

Ok Breaking bad to end Sunday thats proper sadness.

[Wine-no!]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Hi 199

Day 623 - wow - congrats. I bet you could hardly imagine that at the start of this?

I agree with you - moderation is just slavery.... I know someone who now only drinks at the weekend and does nothing but crave and think about alcohol all week... In fact, she goes to bed at 9pm to get away from temptation!

It's all in the mind... I stopped for 50 days, then thought I could moderate... After all I am not an alcoholic who has vodka in the morning yadda yadda yadda.... Then came back, got to about 13 days, gave in...had a week drinking moderately-ish.... Well. less than before... Now back - day 14 today and determined to kick it completely this time... I already have the freedom of not having to think about alcohol most of the time.

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Day 623 - wow - congrats. I bet you could hardly imagine that at the start of this?

Yes I was sure. I remember drinking a beer at my daughters 16th bout 6 months before I packed up thinking to myself "God this drinking is so boring" Then I had a family incident and walked home from Hospital at 5am and I knew i was done with it FOREVER.

Good Luck !

Look in at the bars/pubs at stare in bewilderment at the masses drinking following each other ba ba ba

[Wine-no!]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Hey 199

How are you? I just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU! for introducing me to AVRT. I am two thirds of the way through and I finally get it.....

I have woken up to the fact that I only ever drank to get drunk.... Something I never realised before. I told my husband that last night and he seemed shocked too. I asked him to think of my more recent drinking and if I ever drank and did not get buzzed/drunk and he agreed!

I'm now on day 37 and have no desire to drink again. I had terrible brain chat about Christmas drinking but am now able to recognise it for what IT is and turn IT off!

Hurrah! Thanks again x

[musomatt]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

199days;1409034 wrote: Today , went up London with Mrs for walk around and something to eat, but have had severe cave in like cravings today.

Maybe I am doing something wrong at this point, I mean my Mrs has never drank alcohell, so this should be easier you would have thought, but all day long I have been thinking romantic drinking thoughts and how nice it would be to have a drink. Whats stopping me is that I am thinking it through, I have no intentions of two glasses of wine it will be the bottle minium and then I would have to be planning where I am going to hide it tomorrow and how to sneak it into the house. I always hid small bottles of wine from the Mrs and always used to tell her I was only having two large glasses but would have about 1 1/2 bottles of wine and then cans of beer on top. The real thing is that I KNOW moderation is a bigger form of torture than not drinking anything at all much worse a million times worse, tried that so many times drinking just 1/2 a bottle of wine and leaving the rest, my whole life then becomes consumed with it, god this alcohell bs is never ending. I would say 70% of time I feel good and the rest I am craving feeling detached lost and indifferent to all and anything. But just coming here and typing this out has made me feel al little better. I cannot throw this away, how many more years would I be out there getting drunk hiding alcohell and suffering hangovers before I got to a real quit mindset again...could be a long time.

Must Plough on through this, need more time, need to exercises more . Life is really raw and dealing with an alive and thinking brain is all new to me and at times real tough.


have a nice weekend all.

I'm terrified for you. Do ANYTHING to get through this. 300 days is too long, for you to relapse. I relapsed after 2 years. It has taken FIVE years to get to the point of wanting to be sober again. 5 LOST years. Be strong.

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

musomatt;1572007 wrote: I'm terrified for you. Do ANYTHING to get through this. 300 days is too long, for you to relapse. I relapsed after 2 years. It has taken FIVE years to get to the point of wanting to be sober again. 5 LOST years. Be strong.

Iam here and Strong ! Day 651.

Going out tonight load of mates to a pub to see a band and then a curry, I am driving all of them about, think they getting used to the idea lol.

Cant go back, waking up on day 1 again would not be doable .

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Wine-no your so cool !

Keep it up, no going back

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Glad to be home did not really enjoy tonight. Lots of drunk people around me , only when sober can you see the dangers of bumping into some pissed up twat who thinks he's a tough guy. Also introduced to some friends wife's who reacted horrified that I was only drinking sparkling water, carry on fat cow was my thoughts. Really ugly scenes and very early aswell , real drunk people with bulging red eyes and contorted melting faces. The beauty of drinking this poison .

Have a great weekend all.

[gettinitright]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Well done on staying sober. Your year is around the corner :goodjob:

[Wine-no!]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

652 days... So fantastic.

Sorry to hear about the night out... Sounds like a nightmare but at least reminds you of the reasons you don't drink!!

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

666

Day 666.

Feeling better and better, running even more and setting myself challenges, the world really is your oyster when you free yourself from drugs.

I actually pity people that drink, they really dont know what they are missing.

Read some of this Guys blog.

Addictions,Habits,Diseases and the Cure: Master of One

Hes nailed it spot on as regards to the disease issue.

Grind it folks.

[Nelz]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

199days;1583056 wrote: Day 666.

Feeling better and better, running even more and setting myself challenges, the world really is your oyster when you free yourself from drugs.

I actually pity people that drink, they really dont know what they are missing.

Read some of this Guys blog.

Addictions,Habits,Diseases and the Cure: Master of One

Hes nailed it spot on as regards to the disease issue.

Grind it folks.

That avatar, and that particular amount of days, is to say the least scary. It would have been AWESOME if it fell on Halloween!

Congrats to you and your fantastically evil AF days :H

[199days]

Over 300 days and Brutal cravings today..

Day 697 .

This guys blog is once again spot on , he destroys the disease Bs once again and explains why, amazing blog for those that wish to get sober and be cool like me and not a red faced blubbering sheep that repeats himself over and over when drinking


Addictions,Habits,Choice,Diseases and the Cure: Beyond Driven

Read it, the best blog out there.

Not much to report, looking forward to a cool sober Christmas. No doubt I will be questioned by someone over the period as to why I am not poisoning myself Like they are, ba ba ba.

Sober is amazingly cool .