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[cpn1004]

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Lots of good ideas here. For me, I had to accept that I can't drink like normal drinkers. I have never had just one. So I had to choose abstinence. It was difficult at first, but it did get easier. Then one day, I no longer thought about drinking. The mental obsession was gone. People told me that would happen, and wow, they were correct.
I hope you find your path.

[JackieM]

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Phil-
Sometime during my five year dry stint the drinking thinking did shut itself off. I was perfectly fine without alcohol.
I started having panic attacks and thought after five years of not drinking I could have a drink to calm myself down. It worked...and here I am seven years later doing the same stupid crap I did twelve years ago. The same stuff that made me want to quit the first time.
I think I have wired my mind&body to recognize alcohol as medicine. The second I have a drink I feel good...we all know it's downhill after that first one. It's very evil and tricky stuff.
I am glad you are doing well in your sober journey. Don't let anything or anyone ever take it away from you.
Peace-
JackieM

[JackieM]

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Kdog-
All that tea is great for you! Think about it flushing all the toxins out of your system. I like to drink Everyday Detox from Traditional Medicinals. It has herbs that are supposed be helpful in flushing the live. I'm not sure if it works but at least I feel like I'm doing something positive. Plus it's a lot better than having a drink in my hand.

[kdog]

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Thank you Jakie, I will try that one, I've been drinking green tea, and an assortment of decaf tea. Some I really enjoy. I will just keep experimenting. My daughter loves a tea she buys at starbucks, I can't think of the name of it and I am sure its pricey, but WTH, its gotta be cheaper than the 12 or so packs of beer I bought a day. I'll let you know the name tomorrow,because she gave me a sample and it was very tasty!
Keep up the good work. And I feel the same way to all who have posted, one drink is to many for me,because I can't just have one!
Kdog

[struggles]

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I've been doing that for the past three weeks. I don't know why i slipped, but when I slip, man I really fall! I'm trying again and I know the feeling that I want a beer to make it feel better....that turns into months for me. I struggle every day with this and the one thing that worked for me was topa, but it gave me fuzzy head for a while, because the booze doesn't? We are all here for you and don't give up...if we give up, we're done. Hell, I had a heart attack and all that did was detox me and slowed me down for a little while. I read some of the posts about the cellular level on why we can still breathe so therefore no short term memory....that intrigues me. If anyone has any links or info on this, please forward. Hugs to you.:l

[Struggles 106]

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Hey Struggles

I will find the information about blackouts and send it to you. Pretty frightening when you realize what is happening

[JackieM]

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Black outs are really really scary if you think about it. Due to excessive alcohol intake, our bodies decide which functions are most important. That would be breathing&keeping ourselves alive. Everything else goes out the door-memory, muscle coordination, verbal filtration. It's freaky stuff.

[kdog]

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Hello all, Jackie the name of that tea is Joy, its only sold at Christmas time, but very tasty!
Struggles I can certainly relate to how you feel, I to cannot have just one drink, and black outs are very scary for sure.
Well I do have a story to share, and by no means am I looking for sympathy. I went to the doctor recently for my well woman exam. Thank God I had been sober for a few weeks, that
went very well, but then off to my yearly mammogram, ok phone call back, we need to see you back we have found 2 small lumps. OK I say, now scared shitless because my sister passed away 2 years ago from breast cancer, so off I go again, another couple of exrays and off they sent me. Good I say to myself. But noooo now they want me back for a biopsy. Well
I pondered upon this and thought, you know reguardless of the outcome, I want to live the rest of my life remembering everyday, feeling good about myself and daily life, enjoying every minute of my family. I won't know for a few more weeks, but in the mean time it sure killed every craving I have for AL. I hope you all don't mind my sharing this story.I realize it could just be a calcium deposit,
But to me
it took something of that measure to really stop and think, Is this the way I want to live, hungover, isolating myself from my family and friends cause I don't feel good and would rather sit at home and drink away? Absolutly NOT.
Kdog
Take care all, I good luck to each and everyone of us!:h

[kuya]

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Good luck with all that Kdog

[kdog]

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Thank you Kuya, I appreciate that.
Kdog

[JackieM]

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kdog-
I am so sorry you lost your sister...I would be devastated if that happened to me. I know you said that was 2 years ago but still....I am very close to one of my sisters and I would be a mess if I lost her. She is 14 years older but I don't even notice the age difference. I feel awful that you had to go through that.
On your health front-scary stuff I am sure. But I love your attitude of not drinking your way through it. I know how hard that is and good on you for deciding your life is more important than alcohol. I hope everything works out for the best-I'm sure it will. I am proud of you for having a checkup. I am too chicken to go to my doctor and admit I am still drinking. I also don't want to be weighed. Stupid reasons for not going I know but I'm just not ready to face the music.
I will look into that tea-thanks for the recommendation..
Peace&love,
Jackie

[kdog]

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Thank you Jackie, it has been a harsh reality, one of those things you don't think life will ever throw your way...Please don't be afraid of the doctor, I understand though, I canceled a few appointments myself this past year fearing the worst, but I am now so glad I went. Thanks for the encouragement on staying sober through this. Trust some days are a bit rough as I am sure you know, but I do so enjoy waking up with a fresh head on these days! I know you can keep on track as well!
Best of luck, and thanks again.
Kdog

[JackieM]

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kdog-
Please keep me posted on your medical issues. I care about what is going on with you.
Jackiem

[Kradle123]

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kdog;1424134 wrote: Hello all, Jackie the name of that tea is Joy, its only sold at Christmas time, but very tasty!
Struggles I can certainly relate to how you feel, I to cannot have just one drink, and black outs are very scary for sure.
Well I do have a story to share, and by no means am I looking for sympathy. I went to the doctor recently for my well woman exam. Thank God I had been sober for a few weeks, that
went very well, but then off to my yearly mammogram, ok phone call back, we need to see you back we have found 2 small lumps. OK I say, now scared shitless because my sister passed away 2 years ago from breast cancer, so off I go again, another couple of exrays and off they sent me. Good I say to myself. But noooo now they want me back for a biopsy. Well
I pondered upon this and thought, you know reguardless of the outcome, I want to live the rest of my life remembering everyday, feeling good about myself and daily life, enjoying every minute of my family. I won't know for a few more weeks, but in the mean time it sure killed every craving I have for AL. I hope you all don't mind my sharing this story.I realize it could just be a calcium deposit,
But to me
it took something of that measure to really stop and think, Is this the way I want to live, hungover, isolating myself from my family and friends cause I don't feel good and would rather sit at home and drink away? Absolutly NOT.
Kdog
Take care all, I good luck to each and everyone of us!:h

Thank you KDog for sharing this. :h

I DO WANT TO BE CONSCIOUS- I DO I DO I DO I DO!! I don't want to live the OTHER way.... :no:

Sending you strength and hugs :h:l

[kdog]

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Jackie, Thank you I will do that, my doctor called Monday and I am scheduled for Thursday
for the procedure. I probably won't get the results till next week, if I know how the medical system works...
Kradle thanks for the hugs. Its funny how you go along in life and all of a sudden the Good Lord throws you all these punches. But I keep smiling, and praying! I hope everyone is doing well with their recovery issues, and just remember the results of being AL free are worth it no matter whats going on in your lives!! Good luck to you, and keep me posted as well on your progress, reguardless!
Kdog