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    Lucky to be alive

    I have consumed so much alcohol over Christmas and new year that it is a wonder. I have lost days, just drinking and today I am supposed to back work. I haven't drank today. Thinking about the way I have been drinking I feel lucky to be alive. I really want to go back to work and be 'normal' but I can barely type for shaking. Yesterday I actually drank a bottle of gin and about two bottles of wine. How on earth am I still here?

    I know it has to stop before I kill myself.:upset::upset:
    Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it! ~ Goethe
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    broken halo;1436691 wrote: I have consumed so much alcohol over Christmas and new year that it is a wonder. I have lost days, just drinking and today I am supposed to back work. I haven't drank today. Thinking about the way I have been drinking I feel lucky to be alive. I really want to go back to work and be 'normal' but I can barely type for shaking. Yesterday I actually drank a bottle of gin and about two bottles of wine. How on earth am I still here?

    I know it has to stop before I kill myself.:upset::upset:
    I will share what worked for me. I was there and the only way I could get sober was to ask another alcoholic to move in my house and help me get sober. They were still drinking so the only rule was they could not bring booze in the house. In my experience it takes an alcoholic to help an alcoholic. You can find them here but you can also find them very near the front of the phone book. I'm not an AA person but AA at least has something you need to get you started on your path to sobriety (someone who has been where you are).
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      #3
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      Thanks Hippyman, I am certainly going to have to do something to get myself out of this misery.
      Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it! ~ Goethe

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        #4
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        Broken, sorry to hear you had a major slip up. Lord knows we all seem to have been there! Try drinking some water with fresh lemon. I drank a lot of gator aid the first few days to rehydrate myself. Good luck, I hope you get your life back on track.
        Kdog
        Reflect upon your present blessingings, of which every man has many; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some

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          broken halo;1436698 wrote: Thanks Hippyman, I am certainly going to have to do something to get myself out of this misery.
          Have you read Dr. Amieson's books? That is what gave me hop when I needed it most. The first one he wrote was called End of my Addition and the second one is Heal Thyself. Both talked about baclofen being a wonderful treatment to release us from the compulsion to drink. Trust me the stuff does work! At least for me it did!
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            Hi, Broken.

            How are you doing? I drank a lot, but cannot imagine drinking a whole bottle of gin--plus two bottles of wine? With that kind of heavy drinking, I'm very afraid of withdrawals for you. Please check in. Did you make it to work?

            It's a new year and a great time to get AF. I am hoping that this is what will happen for you.

            :lTDN
            "One day at a time."

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              Hi Broken, I hope you are checking in, and that you made out ok at work. I definitely know the morning crappy hung over feeling and hoping that in an hour hoping you will feel Miraculously better even with all that you drank, defy it all. Course that doesn't happen. But you do get another chance and it is called today. Or tomorrow. We get another chance. I would say don't have that much AL in the house. Get support, post, please, we care about you.
              :l

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                Thanks everyone. i did make it to work, albeit three hours late with the crappy 'my car won't start' excuse. I had the shakes, really bad and I know a few people picked up on that.

                I feel better for having going in though and trying to be normal. Very tired tonight and stayed late at work on purpose so that I couldn't buy any drink on the way home. To be honest though, I knew there was a half bottle of wine in the house. I haven't touched it, so far. But I know its enough to get rid of the jitters and help me sleep. I am going to sit down tomorrow and really think about what I need to do. Thanks everyone.
                Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it! ~ Goethe

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                  broken halo;1437173 wrote: Thanks everyone. i did make it to work, albeit three hours late with the crappy 'my car won't start' excuse. I had the shakes, really bad and I know a few people picked up on that.

                  I feel better for having going in though and trying to be normal. Very tired tonight and stayed late at work on purpose so that I couldn't buy any drink on the way home. To be honest though, I knew there was a half bottle of wine in the house. I haven't touched it, so far. But I know its enough to get rid of the jitters and help me sleep. I am going to sit down tomorrow and really think about what I need to do. Thanks everyone.
                  You are in a good place here Halo. :l if you can pick up the supps...some Lglut, some milk thistle, some fish oil, definitely your B's and C, I believe these actions help start to heal you inside and out.
                  I find that taking my supps, drinking a ton of fricken water just helps me manage...tea and coco are also musts...ice cream works well too.

                  stay close, :l:h
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                    #10
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                    Please check in today and let us know how you are doing.
                    :lTDN
                    "One day at a time."

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                      Hi everyone. Thank your for your tips and for your genuine concern. I am doing a lot better. I did drink the wine and slept all night, next day I felt so much better. I have bought the vitamins and the milk thistle and haven't had a drink since the wine. I have come to the conclusion that I need professional help...counselling maybe. My drinking got out out f hand after the death of my sister and I have never really faced up to that as well as other family issues.

                      I have decided that now is the time to deal with my issues instead of trying to obliterate things with alcohol.

                      Thank you all again, just wanted to let you know I am still here and not as much of a wreck as I was when I typed that original post. :h
                      Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it! ~ Goethe

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                        Good job! L~Glutamine under your tongue stops cravings, if the arises.
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                          Hi broken halo,

                          Counseling sounds like a good start; if you are burying your emotions then it will be very difficult to keep a quit going. The supplements are a big help too - you need to replenish what your body has lost through drinking. The kudzu and l-glutamine are great for cravings too.

                          Keep posting and reading, it really does help. Good luck!
                          AF since 6JUN2012

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                            pixie;1438705 wrote: Hi broken halo,

                            Counseling sounds like a good start; if you are burying your emotions then it will be very difficult to keep a quit going. The supplements are a big help too - you need to replenish what your body has lost through drinking. The kudzu and l-glutamine are great for cravings too.

                            Keep posting and reading, it really does help. Good luck!
                            Wise words THOSE!
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                              broken halo;1438596 wrote: My drinking got out out f hand after the death of my sister and I have never really faced up to that as well as other family issues.
                              Oh my frikkin god, you are a mirror to me. Ditto...

                              The obliteration doesn't help, just makes things worse. Wise decision to deal with it..
                              One day at a time.. Sometimes it's one minute or one second at a time.. Most important thing is to look ahead and don't look back!

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