Withdrawal - Delerium?

[paulywogg]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

kuya,the beast is tamed im going strong and doing things to make myself stronger,thank you for asking

[Supercrew]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Hi X, I just read through all of your posts since 2010. You have quit many times for decent periods of time, you quit when you were pregnant. No offense, and you never have to quit drinking if you don't want to, but it's easy to see through your posts that you can control it when you want to. It looks like you need to create some drama, so you would rather drink than be responsible for your family.

Instead of worrying about a rehab, how about just focusing on how much you love your children, and focus on staying sober for that one day.

There is no reason to create a huge dilemma, the solution is simple, and you have shown that you can solve the problem yourself, so if you really want it take a little action every day and make an effort to stay sober for your family. If you do, you can conquer any challenge in life if you want to. good luck!

[kuya]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

paulywogg;1449988 wrote: kuya,the beast is tamed im going strong and doing things to make myself stronger,thank you for asking

Three weeks is awesome, don't be scared though. I saw on another thread that you wake at 3 am. I was sooooo tired those three months that I thought I had leukaemia or some serious disease ......'twas just my mind and body readjusting.

Hang in there Pauly, everything, including the sleep will get better....I promise :h

[Wildflowers]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Hi XWino,

If your unwilling to get professional help for the above reasons you mentioned ( which are somewhat understandable) then your going to have to toughen up as Coach Crew is suggesting, or try meds as Cos is suggesting. You have to try something different. Doing the same thing is getting you no where, but drunk. Drinking isn't the answer & you know this. Your kids won't be better off with out you!....

You say you have your faith, then look into those types of programs like the Salvation Army if your in the USA or similar ones, they are free. You also imo need to start being 100% honest with yourself about your problem ~ disease it's called alcoholism! It's nothing to be ashamed of that some of us have our brains wired differently then others. It doesn't mean we don't excel in other areas of our lives.

Do you plan on letting fear & pride kill you? Do you want your kids to grow up without a mother? These were some very tough ??'s people asked me, that I hated. Along with the fact I hated the word alcoholism for years & didn't want to surrender because I was to afraid of living & my pride.

Death is permanent, an alcohol problem if your prefer to call it is temporary. You have to take action steps to get better. You have been sober before & can do it again if you choose!!! You may need to get professional help, as you also may be suffering with underlying anxiety, depression... It's hard to tell until alcohol has been out of the picture for a good period, at least 90 days imo. With young children , no Ins, little income there are programs. You need sobriety for clear thinking & better judgement!

My own daughters would rather have their Mom alive then have any material object in this world!!! Please do the next right thing. Start by not drinking today! The Newbies Nest is full of wonderful, loving, & very good advice!.... Take a stand. You are stronger then you know. We are here for you. Start posting in Just Starting Out Area. Go to F2F meetings. Do something else, but don't do nothing.

Your important & your family is important. Life is precious!... I'm praying for you!...:l :h

[Wildflowers]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

One more thing as I'm really late. Please dump all wine, alcohol out of your home. Don't buy anymore no matter what!!!... Ride it out.... No excuses!!!....

Get you hubs to take care of your kids since he's not working at the moment. Work as a team! Tell him you need his support!... You've made a decision to live!!!

You can do this & you will hun! If we can, you can! Big hugs. You are loved & are special!!!.... We are all good & worthy of this gift of sobriety ~ recovery hun!!!. :l :h

[aihflvt]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

I can't say anything that hasn't already been said, but I've been drinking pretty heavily since the late summer/early fall for many of the same reasons you mentioned. Meanwhile, my financial situation deteriorated all fall because it was just easier to drink and ignore it, and now it's in a full-on meltdown due to a bait-and-switch on my mortgage from Wells-Fargo Bank with complicity from my own credit union. I can't pull myself out of this hole and get my crap together through an alcoholic fog.

[Supercrew]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Thanks for picking me up there Wildflowers. I apologize if I sounded like a jerk, but after reading the initial post and seeing her go for 7 days, only to say she "got bored", and thats why she decided to drink. When I read posts I do make a emotional investment in what I read. Maybe I read xwino post wrong, but it sure sounded more like a very conscious decision.

I will remove myself from this thread, because I don't want to come across as a hardliner.

Sorry, and good luck X.

[XWino]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Lasha, can you tell me about the hallucinations? I had no shaking or fits just 9 to 11 days later hallucinations and a few days after that diagnosed with delerium. Basically, I was paranoid, hearing and thinking everything pertained to me. I'm not 100% sure it was alcohol related, but never had anything like that happen before. I was going through quite a bit of stress back then.

[Lasha]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Delirium Tremens (DT's)

Hi XWino,
OK, I've had the DT's when I decided to stop drinking, BANG just like that. Hallucinations were terrifying, I was on my boat in the river and giant jelly babies were coming out of the water and trying to kill me, moving around my boat slowly in the cabin. It was no dream and went on forever. Then I was trying to find my mates pub but couldn't get there as something was wrapped around my legs and dragging me down, that went on forever as well and I could here people laughing in the pub all the time.

If someone told me this story I would probably laugh but it was no laughing matter at the time, I can assure you. I told my doctor this and guess what, he laughed.

Of course I started drinking again, wouldn't you, until I saw an alcoholic councillor and he introduced me to tapering, how to come off booze using booze, nice and slow about 1 or 2 drinks less every week, I had to keep a record and write down my feelings.

I didn't have any DT's this way and only used vit B and thiamine for the shakes.

I hope this helps

[paulywogg]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

thats exactly how i had to do it to lasha,slow and easy and keeping a journal,and never drinking to get drunk,just keep withdrawals at bay,it worked

[Supercrew]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Or you can go to a doctor, tell them you are going through alcohol withdrawal and they will give you a prescription for a benzo, and you won't have to worry about the DT's or the other medical issues due to withdrawal. Medical supervision is the best way to quit.

[Supercrew]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Then start a program that requires you to take daily action towards abstinence and daily physical actions that will make you feel better so you don't feel like you have to drink.

[Mal O' Drama]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Hi X here is a excellent thread on tapering by a member here , she is now well over 2 years sober. Hope this helps. I can understand you needing to keep this private. Hallucinations ect are terrifying best to you.


https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...ggy-34156.html
And this.


How To Taper Off Alcohol

[Wildflowers]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Supercrew;1450719 wrote: Thanks for picking me up there Wildflowers. I apologize if I sounded like a jerk, but after reading the initial post and seeing her go for 7 days, only to say she "got bored", and thats why she decided to drink. When I read posts I do make a emotional investment in what I read. Maybe I read xwino post wrong, but it sure sounded more like a very conscious decision.

I will remove myself from this thread, because I don't want to come across as a hardliner.

Sorry, and good luck X.

Hi Coach Crew,

I didn't purposely pick you or Cos up. I just agreed that getting into action & doing something different was needed. As doing the same thing was getting the same result, drunk.... Not that I don't respect, & admire you!... Let alone I'm learning much from you! Thank you for your help! I appreciate you!....

I don't know if Xwino made a conscious decision or not? It's hard to tell sometimes this being the Internet as it's a one dimensional world & it's hard not seeing, hearing!....I just think many of us are concerned for her & others when we read certain posts. We can get emotionally attached sometimes to.

I've been taught by others to "Carry The Message & Not The Mess". Not always easy! Yet, we must do this for our own health!...

[Wildflowers]

Withdrawal - Delerium?

Lasha;1451465 wrote: Hi XWino,
OK, I've had the DT's when I decided to stop drinking, BANG just like that. Hallucinations were terrifying, I was on my boat in the river and giant jelly babies were coming out of the water and trying to kill me, moving around my boat slowly in the cabin. It was no dream and went on forever. Then I was trying to find my mates pub but couldn't get there as something was wrapped around my legs and dragging me down, that went on forever as well and I could here people laughing in the pub all the time.

If someone told me this story I would probably laugh but it was no laughing matter at the time, I can assure you. I told my doctor this and guess what, he laughed.

Of course I started drinking again, wouldn't you, until I saw an alcoholic councillor and he introduced me to tapering, how to come off booze using booze, nice and slow about 1 or 2 drinks less every week, I had to keep a record and write down my feelings.

I didn't have any DT's this way and only used vit B and thiamine for the shakes.

I hope this helps

Your Dr.'s reaction is deplorable!... I had a Dr. do something shameful, but not to this extent.

One time detoxing I saw black dots & little lights with streams. Thought some looked like little spiders or bugs. Maybe a bit of hallucinations.

So very glad to be out of the grips of Ethanol ~ Poison!!!... No more spinning in that hamster wheel. Like so many others have found hope, contentment, freedom. Yes, it can be done!!!... I was seriously alcoholic. I'm living proof that sobriety can be accomplished.

I hope Xwino & anyone else you find your Way Out!!! Maybe that link with a person who has two years of sobriety ~ recovery will give you hope that you to can have sobriety.

Wishing you the very best!!! :l