My dog is worried...it's that bad.

[Cinders]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Dog,

How are you feeling this morning?

Cindi

[mama bear]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

thinking of you Dog....hugs

[bettygirl]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

hope you are out of bed and feeling better today.

I am not an AA pusher, but it helped me immensely, and it's free! just an fyi

hang on!

[dogatefrog]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Thank you for all the support you guys. I did get out of bed and went to town to get something to eat. I ordered but could not eat. On my way home, I stopped at my old place to get a few more things, only to find him with this piece of trash he has been lying to me about. I wish I never stopped there. For 5 months he said he has been with her. She had the audacity to smoke in my house and tell me it wasn't my house anymore. I left before I could do any damage, but it's 4am and I feel like a truck ran over me.

[Cinders]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Dog,

Unfortunately, there is nothing we can do or say to make that situation any better.

However, at this point, Dog, your sobriety is a whole heap more important than anything else going on in your life.

Until you get your life back, all other very important matters mean very little.

As far as food goes, I know when I am first off a big binge, I could keep down some chicken bouillon at the very least. I think the salt helped and the warmth. From there, I would go on to Saltines, etc. Try following the BRAT diet a couple of days.

I know your personal situation is large and important but you must get a handle on your drinking and health first before you can even begin to think clearly about that situation.

The best revenge is ending up living a good life without him.

Love,
Cindi

[dogatefrog]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

My friend is getting me some Ensure today. I cannot eat, I get sick and dry heave horribly. There is a very small window during the day that I can function...and I have backed it down. BUT, the physical and sleep deprivation are making this quite confusing. I keep reading here, and really worry it is getting worse.

This is about all the energy I have to type, but I do keep reading. Thank you.

[K9Lover]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Dog -
How long has it been since your last drink?

[dogatefrog]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

update for 4pm today

I had a plan to tapper...and I am, but not as well as I wanted to. I needed to have a few in order to function to get my last week of school work done (PhD)...I can't mess this up now. I rely on my loans to pay the bills...I know so stupid, but that is what it is. I have 4 more days to finish all my papers before break. The non-functioning thing here is quite evident to me. It has never been THIS bad.

I just tried to eat again, but I keep getting sick. Cinders told me about the banana bag and that may the route I need to take, but there is so much at stake at the moment. There is nobody to care for my two dogs and I will not do that to them. I just tied to sleep because I can't at night, but nothing seems to be working or functioning anymore. Doing the water thing as much as I can. The stupid shakes have control of me now.

[struggles]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Dog~ Are you in the US? I have been through this. When I found out my husband was cheating, I couldn't get out of bed for days, only to feed my kids, which I treated like they were pets, but they were young and I would drink and crawl back into bed. Couldn't sleep, threw up everything I ate, got the shakes and the only thing that seemed to stay down was beer, my demon.

I called 911 and told them I was shaking, my heart was racing, I was sweating and I was scared I was having a heart attack. I had called my neighbor to come take the kids and called their father to keep them. I brushed my teeth, put on some sweat pants and waited for the ambulance, crying and shaking and sweating and thinking I was going to die and that I was having a heart attack. The took me to the ER, started me on an IV, drew blood, sent in the dr. and I just caved. I told him my ex left me, I was drinking, I think I'm dying...the whole thing. They gave me something in my IV to help with the shakes and I stayed for three days until they detoxed me. I was not refused treatment at all. I stayed sober for a little while and then started drinking again. Slowly at first and then it got the best of me.

You have a lot of support here. I will be one week around nine pm tonight. I had some struggles and I get anxiety like crazy when I drink...well, actually, it's as the alcohol is wearing off that the anxiety kicks in. Hang in there. :l

[dogatefrog]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

yes stuggles...that is where I am.

[struggles]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Dog~

My strength came from my anxiety and fear. I knew enough that if I DID NOT get help, I would be in a much more horrible spot...but then again I was afraid that someone, anyone would find me out other than the close ones who knew, but It thought they were clueless.

I knew from experience that if I called the ambulance that I would get taken to the hospital, and ekg is usually done on the ride there and the IV thing is put in on the way....blood pressure is taken and they try to calm you.....that alone helped my shakes, but, again, I could not stand in my own skin. I mean, what kind of mom leaves her kids with her neighbor and goes in to the hospital because she thinks she is having a heart attack because she is a drunk??? ME...that's who.

No one will know you from the ambulance and the hospital is confidential...not sure where you are in US. If neighbors come over, tell the paramedics to please tell them you are okay and you will call them tomorrow...I have two nosey ones. Afterwards, basically, it's noone else's businesses, but, as people are nosey, you can tell them it was anxiety or that things weren't just right or whatever....just stay sober for that day. I was so thankful for that detox....and amazingly felt light and free...but I let it get me again that bastard. PLEASE, CALL if you are that bad, they understand and at the very least can make sure you are not dying.:l

[dogatefrog]

My dog is worried...it's that bad.

Yes, I am in the US and I do think all this is maybe more anxiety because since it has been a few days when I walked in on them, my hurt is slowly turning to anger. The angrier I get the better I feel...if that makes sense?!

ALL my neighbors are nosey and I really don't care for any of them. My drinking has kept my agoraphobic so that I was never far from the drink. With that I have very few friends and none that could cover for me and watch the dogs.

I finally got some sleep last night and I am not shaking like I was yesterday. Cinders offered her phone number yesterday morning and I could barley touch the numbers on my cell phone. I just realized it's only 6:30 in the morning but I think I went to bed really early.

I will try to do a better job at tapering today. If I can make it to 12 noon to have a beer it will be a miracle. There's my goal.

Thank you Struggles.