therapist tonite
I'm 26 and have been told the very same thing. It's hard to believe when you're the person that feels like theres no hope. I want to do something different and change, i've kicked drugs and alcohol, 6 months with nothing, although i relapsed for 3-4 days but that's all. ANd it wasn't a big relapse either, I just can't get over this feeling that life is passing by so quick and before i know it ill be dead. I just wished i would have accomplished more at this point and can't help but compare myself to other people. I feel completely rejected and like i'm incapable of fixing my life, having kids, my own house, and most importantly being respected. I can't even be stable mentally enough to find peace. I know i shouldn't let other peoples achievements get me down, they chose what they wanted to do and so did i, but i'm dissapointed with my choices. I know what you'll say, so make different ones. But i feel like i can't be good.
I don't mean to steal your thread btw, i just feel we're sort of in the same boat. I agree, it's good to have a place to talk and relieve it all. Don't spare yourself humility, you're not a minority with your thoughts and feelings. My childhood was hell, i was improperly conditioned to be antisocial and self serving, throw away and abused. I'm sure yours is different, but i see little boys on tv and how men respect them and teach them they are important, i was mocked, made fun of and neglected. My substance abuse is somehow emotionally linked, i believe. And, many with PTSD (growing up inthe house with drug users or alcohlics) usually leads to either drug use or alcoholism.. Well not "usually" but often.
I'm rooting for you, and i know we must suffer and things must get worse before they get better. I'm sure you do too.
Bella;1524567 wrote: feel lighter and stronger inorder to face this s*** i was dealt as a child. I sometimes feel angry that my life could have been so different if i had not been exposed to such monster ish things. Hey ho cant change the past but CAN change the present by altering my attitude towards it.I relate to your problems, deeply. So i will be following you thread. I've been considering seeing a therapist myself but i'm kind of scared to be honest. Tell me what happens in therapy and what kind of questions they ask. I'm afraid i would lie. My doctor has referred me time and time again and i keep saying i'll go but i never do. First time he reffered me 6 years ago. Now he tells me every time i go, which is monthly or bi monthly. I have PTSD and comorbid anxiety, social phobia and pretty much just use drugs and alcohol to mask it all. Baclofen makes me feel normal, but i need to man up and see a therapist. I payed close attention in psychology and read my entire text books, it helped some but I'm still "me" if you get it.
edit: oh yeah, a saying i came up with inspired by the serinity prayer, is we can only accept the past, whats been done to us or we've done to others, we can only accept our present where we're at now and do our best to change the future, but whatever the future holds, we can only accept what's coming. I paraphrase it and tell it different every time, but learning to accept things instead of dwell is one of my goals, i still haven't came close to practicing what i preach though.
Guitarista;1524632 wrote: Hiya Bella,
You will get through sober and proud. You just watch. You have so much life ahead of you. There is so much time, 40-50 years maybe more, to live the life you want.
edit: oh yeah, a saying i came up with inspired by the serinity prayer, is we can only accept the past, whats been done to us or we've done to others, we can only accept our present where we're at now and do our best to change the future, but whatever the future holds, we can only accept what's coming. I paraphrase it and tell it different every time, but learning to accept things instead of dwell is one of my goals, i still haven't came close to practicing what i preach though.
Guitarista;1524632 wrote: Hiya Bella,
You will get through sober and proud. You just watch. You have so much life ahead of you. There is so much time, 40-50 years maybe more, to live the life you want.
I don't mean to steal your thread btw, i just feel we're sort of in the same boat. I agree, it's good to have a place to talk and relieve it all. Don't spare yourself humility, you're not a minority with your thoughts and feelings. My childhood was hell, i was improperly conditioned to be antisocial and self serving, throw away and abused. I'm sure yours is different, but i see little boys on tv and how men respect them and teach them they are important, i was mocked, made fun of and neglected. My substance abuse is somehow emotionally linked, i believe. And, many with PTSD (growing up inthe house with drug users or alcohlics) usually leads to either drug use or alcoholism.. Well not "usually" but often.
I'm rooting for you, and i know we must suffer and things must get worse before they get better. I'm sure you do too.
!):technique that scientists have proven makes actual physical changes that "light up" the parts of our brains that are connected to feelings of contentment and well-being is just to find someplace in your body where you can feel and focus your attention on your breath. And just keep training your attention to come back to your natural breath. I
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