Crying... I spent the day reading these forums

[roadrunner777]

My work gives me some time to read the internet

I found this... my gut was cramping, I knew this would be a good place to figure things out. But, I figured the obvious. I just crapped my bed the second time in an hour.

So, after an hour of getting though the registration, I present myself. I know from reading earlier that some detail is important. 52 male, drinking since 16. I'm going to cut this short because I have to work in the morning.

I am sorry this is doesn't make a lot of sense. roadrunner777 is my name. I am about to go to sleep in my own poo. I will be back when I can make more sense.

before I go down, I'll add that I did do a 35 day program and went a good 10 years sober after that. I will also add that my cat is apparently really against me doing this cause he is smothering my face.

I am going to have a cig and shut down. Maybe I won't crap myself a third time.

[NoSugar]

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Hey, RR777

Why don't you get cleaned up, get some sleep, and come on over to the Newbies Nest in the morning? The link is given below. You'll find good, supportive people there.

I hope you can sleep well.

NS

[YouKayBee]

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roadrunner777;1540553 wrote: My work gives me some time to read the internet

I found this... my gut was cramping, I knew this would be a good place to figure things out. But, I figured the obvious. I just crapped my bed the second time in an hour.

So, after an hour of getting though the registration, I present myself. I know from reading earlier that some detail is important. 52 male, drinking since 16. I'm going to cut this short because I have to work in the morning.

I am sorry this is doesn't make a lot of sense. roadrunner777 is my name. I am about to go to sleep in my own poo. I will be back when I can make more sense.

before I go down, I'll add that I did do a 35 day program and went a good 10 years sober after that. I will also add that my cat is apparently really against me doing this cause he is smothering my face.

I am going to have a cig and shut down. Maybe I won't crap myself a third time.

Thank you for your honesty.

A lot of us have been there (I never crapped myself but I suffered other unpleasantries), please make this a reason to save your life.

[mama bear]

Crying... I spent the day reading these forums

come on RR...clean up and talked to us

[Neddy Merrill]

Crying... I spent the day reading these forums

Hi RR, I hope you can feel a bit better after some sleep and a clean up. You can come back from this, but you will need to commit to some hard work. I wish you all the best for your journey.

[K9Lover]

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Welcome RR!

We understand. Please come on over to the Newbies Nest. You can do this, and we can help. I hope we hear more from you soon!

K9

[K9Lover]

Crying... I spent the day reading these forums

How are you doing today RR? Please let us know!

[roadrunner777]

Crying... I spent the day reading these forums

Little Update

A very long story short, I decided I could not do this myself, even with meds from the ER. So, I went to detox and in-patient treatment. I 'graduated' yesterday, got to an AA meeting last night. I restarted the job my company held for me. Tonight, another AA meeting, and tomorrow, intake for out-patient treatment.

I guess I'm somewhere around 25 days alcohol free... detox was a blur, but I think 25 is about right. I feel and look a lot better.

Thanks all!

[K9Lover]

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I'm so glad to hear from you RR!

There is NO shame in admitting you need help with this overwhelming addiction. I am very proud of you for realizing what needed to be done...and doing it! I hope you still stick around. You could seriously be an inspiration to MANY others around here (myself included).

So happy for you...now keep up your great work!

K9

[Samstone]

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Great work RR! It takes a lot to do what you did, I'm glad you decided to seek help and it worked out for you.
Hope you keep returning here as well. Your situation may speak to others.
Best to you
Sam

[YouKayBee]

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This is wonderful, so pleased for you. Don't be afraid to come here again.

[available]

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Welcome RR and congrats on your AL days, you will find lots of friendship and support on MWO and stay around it is well worth it having the support.

[sparkles143]

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wow that is amazing ! Great work you sound like a differint person from your first post )))

[Kradle123]

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You're AMAZING RR! :yougo:

I think you just blew a few people away! Like k9 Said, I hope you stay with us because you are already inspiring. :h

:welcome: back.

[roadrunner777]

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30 some-odd days ( I was never really a day counter in recovery).
5 AA meetings, most of them very helpful
1 Out-patient meeting, not very helpful so far, but I have not given it a chance, really.

Physically, I'm doing pretty good. Stamina is up from before. Regular exercise of the snow-shovel variety in the not too distant future. I'm getting my annual physical on the 20th, hoping she will give me Chantix, it worked great for me after my last recovery.

Mentally and emotionally, I feel free and happy for the first time in quite a while.

And now, I only poop when I want to. I do like that.