Blackout/cheating/ developing addiction?

[chiara]

Blackout/cheating/ developing addiction?

Well, it looks as though my boyfriend is never coming back. I'm really glad I told him though, I could never have built a relationship based on lies with him. And I also realized there were some aspects of our relationship that were not perfect and that led me to drink that night. My boyfriend basically told me that he could never imagine a future for us, and that was enough to trigger all my insecurities. It is not an excuse though! I know that what I did was wrong! I just realized that I was lying to myself by staying in a relationship with hi, and that I should probably have ended it sooner.

I have been able to stay away from drinking, though it has been really hard this weekend. My flatmate loves to drink and have a good time, so it is really hard to be the one who stays at home on a Saturday night. I'm starting to feel good about myself though. I was also able to turn down free Whiskey and red wine which my local shop owner offered to me once I stopped buying alcohol from him. He even gave me a handful of beer glasses to make me start drinking again. I feel like I am doing alright ....

[gettinitright]

Blackout/cheating/ developing addiction?

It was a fairly new relationship and although I am sure you are disappointed, work on you!

[Kradle123]

Blackout/cheating/ developing addiction?

chiara;1567726 wrote: Well, it looks as though my boyfriend is never coming back. I'm really glad I told him though, I could never have built a relationship based on lies with him. And I also realized there were some aspects of our relationship that were not perfect and that led me to drink that night. My boyfriend basically told me that he could never imagine a future for us, and that was enough to trigger all my insecurities. It is not an excuse though! I know that what I did was wrong! I just realized that I was lying to myself by staying in a relationship with hi, and that I should probably have ended it sooner.

I have been able to stay away from drinking, though it has been really hard this weekend. My flatmate loves to drink and have a good time, so it is really hard to be the one who stays at home on a Saturday night. I'm starting to feel good about myself though. I was also able to turn down free Whiskey and red wine which my local shop owner offered to me once I stopped buying alcohol from him. He even gave me a handful of beer glasses to make me start drinking again. I feel like I am doing alright ....

Wow, Chiara, your doing awesome!! :l it may not seem so wonderful and victorious at the Moment but spend this evening reading here and you will see that it is :goodjob:
Also, the pragmatist in me must come out and say that though I'm sorry you must suffer the pain of a lost love...it is a miracle that he wasn't a husband and you had three children and a mortgage together...I'd say you dodged a big bullet.:h

[YoungAtHeart]

Blackout/cheating/ developing addiction?

Hi Chiara, if your boyfriend told you he could never imagine a future with you, it sounds like you took a difficult way to show him the door and hurt yourself in the process. I hope you get your drinking sorted out and find a man who is worthy of your affections. You deserve it. Stay they course; it will be worth it.

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