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    Witching hour - help!

    Ok, it's witching hour here today. Have managed to embrace my sobriety today, especially after waking up WITHOUT hangover. Everything was fine until i got home and once again, had to face an empty house. Usual remedy, a "glass or two" (usually a bottle) of wine. Triggers:

    - Supermarket. Passed.
    -The food needs some wine in it. Passed.
    -The food is going to taste good with a glass or two of wine. Passed.

    I keep thinking of tomorrow morning and the great feeling of being sober and hangover free. Who's onboard?

    One day at a time.. Sometimes it's one minute or one second at a time.. Most important thing is to look ahead and don't look back!
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    Witching hour - help!

    Hey Change, have you tried the Army thread?

    Good on you at this time, breaking habits are so important in all of this and once you've done it you'll know you can do it again and again.
    I used the Sinclair Method to beat my alcoholic drinking.

    Drank within safe limits for almost 2 years

    AF date 22/07/13

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      #3
      Witching hour - help!

      Just took a few deep breathes Blonde. Out to get a DVD!
      One day at a time.. Sometimes it's one minute or one second at a time.. Most important thing is to look ahead and don't look back!

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        Witching hour - help!

        Hi Change, the witching hour is a shocker for the first week but stay on here and keep posting and reading. I like you would come home, feed the dogs and then yes wine time. No i come home do some washing, cook food, yell at boys (for no random reason still) and then watch the idiot box.

        Great job you are doing well, keep it up
        AF free 1st December 2013 - 1st December 2022 - 9 years of freedom

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          #5
          Witching hour - help!

          Good going, Change. Stuff that is paired with wine is the hardest for me, too. But the connections loosen every time we make a different choice. Just get to the other side of the DVD and a good night's sleep, and a sober tomorrow waits on the other side.

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            #6
            Witching hour - help!

            It's so rewarding to wake up clear-headed and to not have to suffer through the 3:00 a.m. wide awake self flagellation. That time between 5 and 6 though, while cooking is a killer. It's a huge trigger for me too. Thank God hubby has bought the cheap boxed wine that tastes like crap. It's just not as tempting.

            I think that alcohol cravings sometimes slip by our conscious minds and hit us deep in the part of the brain that seeks feel-good hormone activity. That's why we are blindsided when we find ourselves pouring a glass of that crap, then putting it to our lips, then tasting it, then surrendering to our perceived helplessness, then regretting it, etc...
            "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
            Lao-Tzu

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              SoberSoul;1566629 wrote: It's so rewarding to wake up clear-headed and to not have to suffer through the 3:00 a.m. wide awake self flagellation. .
              What is it with 3am? It's been quit regular with me over the past few days. Was nice not to wake till 4.40am this morning from natural causes.
              One day at a time.. Sometimes it's one minute or one second at a time.. Most important thing is to look ahead and don't look back!

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                My sleep patterns for the first few weeks were crap. The dreams were so vivid and I was so overtired I could not sleep and then when I did I tossed and turned and woke up so bone tired and i had awful headaches. I did actually think was not drinking worth it, but of course it is. Now i sleep like a log and wake up still feeling tired somedays but not having a hangover, the shakes, the nausea, the sore gums, the dry wretching and everything else known to mankind, life is better. Your body will settle down eventually, we have been pouring AL into it for years so it takes time for it to heal.
                AF free 1st December 2013 - 1st December 2022 - 9 years of freedom

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                  #9
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                  SS and Avail said it best - being awake in the middle of the night, racing thoughts and self flagellation until the wee hours of the morning, just to finally grab a bit of sleep, only to wake up with a horrid hangover complete with "dry wretching and everything else known to mankind." aarrgh...the bad old days. Change, hang in there. It really does get easier, and so much better.
                  Everything is going to be amazing

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                    Witching hour - help!

                    MossRose;1566944 wrote: SS and Avail said it best - being awake in the middle of the night, racing thoughts and self flagellation until the wee hours of the morning, just to finally grab a bit of sleep, only to wake up with a horrid hangover complete with "dry wretching and everything else known to mankind." aarrgh...the bad old days. Change, hang in there. It really does get easier, and so much better.
                    I feel disgusting today and nearly gave in. Bleh. I've done this so many times. I'm not setting ambitious goals this time, just one day at a time as everybody says.

                    Thanks for your kind words everybody, i appreciate it. I only hope i don't let anybody down, including myself. I need a permanent, full time job too. I feel pretty lost in life as most of my friends have moved away, my mum is in a nursing home, my only sibling died nine years ago and i feel pretty alone. Alc seems to be my only friend sometimes, but i know it's not the answer. It's just a relief every now and then. I am lacking momentum in my life and sometimes i just want to give up and drink and not care. Sorry to be depressing, it's not really. I am very matter of fact about it. But, something deep down inside of me keeps saying "don't give up yet". I have to stay sober, it's the only way out of my emotional and spiritual hole.
                    One day at a time.. Sometimes it's one minute or one second at a time.. Most important thing is to look ahead and don't look back!

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                      Good going, Change, you're nearly through another day. One day at a time is all any of us can ask of ourselves.
                      It's hard when we 'wake up' out of the alcohol haze and realise that we've been in our own little bubble, for so long - but so unaware of how far away from the rest of the world we have drifted.
                      You know, I haven't slept through the night for about 3 years. I wake up at 3 or 4 in the morning, every morning. I read a book about sleep that said that actually, that's how humans used to be, before we had electrical lights, and we're still sort of biologically set up for it. There was a 'first sleep' and 'second sleep' and people would get up in between and do stuff. So I've decided to take a really accepting approach to it - I don't stress about it any more, I just have my kindle ready, set to low brightness, and use the time to read. So long as I don't freak out about being awake, I get back to sleep really fast and the time awake doesn't seem to be any sort of a deal. It's only if I get wound up about it that it becomes a problem. Oh to be so zen like about the rest of my life! But it works for me..

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                        I hear you, Change. Maybe we have more in common than our Avatar. I, too, am seeking a spiritual foundation and realize that what's blocking it, is booze. I am posting a wordy post called Salvation or Bust in the General section and hope to live up to it's truths.
                        "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
                        Lao-Tzu

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                          Change - one day and one step at a time. That's all we can do. I can feel your loneliness, and my heart hurts for you. I truly do understand that feeling. I just posted on another thread that I never realized how lonely I was when I was full-tilt drinking. It was pretty awful. AL makes us believe that we need no one but our "best friend" to feel better. It's all a lie. But you already know that. You are not depressing. You are just expressing your truth. At the moment this is how it feels for you and that is important. But the reality is that there is a bright, beautiful life waiting for you out there. Kicking AL to the curb is the first step, and then the rest will just start falling into place. I am sending light, love and prayers that you are able to find the FT job that you desire. We are always here for you, so you are never alone. xx
                          Everything is going to be amazing

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                            #14
                            Witching hour - help!

                            I felyt lonely before i started drinking, in fact, i've always been a little isolated. I'll blame my childhood for that! I know my parents tried their hardest, but it was a protective shell i went into.

                            Anyhow, i feel slightly more optimistic today. Not without a slight hangover though, i did drink last night, but didn't gorge, which is what i would usually do. I won't be home for the next two nights, so no change of drinking.
                            One day at a time.. Sometimes it's one minute or one second at a time.. Most important thing is to look ahead and don't look back!

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                              #15
                              Witching hour - help!

                              Change;1567457 wrote: I felyt lonely before i started drinking, in fact, i've always been a little isolated. I'll blame my childhood for that! I know my parents tried their hardest, but it was a protective shell i went into.

                              Anyhow, i feel slightly more optimistic today. Not without a slight hangover though, i did drink last night, but didn't gorge, which is what i would usually do. I won't be home for the next two nights, so no change of drinking.
                              Change, you are still with us and staying here no matter if you drink or not is so important. I've learned the hard way. Keep fighting the good fight. Being lonely is awful but the only way we can feel at one with our world is to give up our shield , booze. We can do this.
                              "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
                              Lao-Tzu

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