Well, after four days sober (mostly forced by work), i am pleased to say i have made some decisions. One, to knock out the using, one sided friendships i have. I kind of have to go it alone. After working around people for the past few days and then coming home to an empty, lonely house in a suburb i hate, i know without a doubt that my major problem is isolation. I've decided that I've just got stay busy, get in the car and drive, go to populated areas, do whatever it takes to while away the time till i can get the hell out of here.
Am very disappointed in those i used to call friends and am realising everyone is their own best friend and i need to be mine, which entails making my own decisions that are in my OWN best interest. I am ready for a big change, a life changing event, bring it on Universe! I want to be around people and experience connectedness, not seperation. I want a loving, reciprical relationship, not the devestating three year one sided obsession i've had with someone who thinks absolutely zero about me.
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